Confession Hour and Inner Fights: Texas Daydreams, Apache Wishlists, and the Faith Doubt I Couldn't Shake

I think we should include at least one woman on every team of four.

I think we should include at least one woman on every team of four.

That way it feels fair and balanced.

If someone has health concerns or a very low body weight, we can make reasonable exceptions to the guideline.

I think it will be fun.

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I will strive to be a good leader for our people.

Martinis, beachwear, just a leader and a companion.

I am tired.

I am very tired.

My grandma told me this when I showed her my Bible:

"I'm a Buddhist; ███████████████████████"

She said it with ██████████████.

But also, in a candid way.

It suggested our family was ████████████ on other faiths.

My grandma sometimes made Sinhalese comments about ███████████████.

I remember her well as a good person.

I stayed at her place instead of going to school.

I don't feel confident about Sri Lanka.

I don't feel confident about Sri Lanka. But it doesn't need to stay that way. Many people want the country to succeed.

We should stay calm and supportive.

I don't want to maintain relationships with people I've chosen to distance

I don't want to maintain close relationships with people I've chosen to distance myself from. I feel more comfortable with a smaller circle. Often this becomes a snowball: as I gain money, seek greater privacy, or take on more confidential work, I look for increasingly exclusive options or people, and that can create complications.

As I'm naturally more private, it seems likely to be the path I follow.

I think if someone tried to rob me on the street, they might expect that I

I think if someone tried to rob me on the street, they might expect that I would call the police, investigate and sue them in court. I don't think that's realistic. In that moment I would focus on staying safe and responding appropriately to the situation.

I would not rely solely on police, journalists, lawyers, judges, politicians, or family and friends to resolve an immediate incident; my priority would be my safety and taking calm, lawful steps afterward.

You can .

You can █████████████████████████████████████. ██████████████████████████████████████████████

We are often doing things for ██████ anyway.

I personally feel like people choose romantic partners with the intention of upgrading their life experience, status and family outcomes.

I ███████████████████ and I ███████████████████████████.

I don't believe in the institution of ████████████████████; I don't see a ███████████ between a man and a wife or similar ██████████████████████.

I ████████████████████████.

5:45 p.m.

5:45 p.m.

Whatever

I guess Julie isn't that bad

She did "topple Gota" (unverified rumors I saw on social media comments), and our side received over 65% of the votes

Even if Anura won with 35% because Ranil and Sajith split the vote

She isn't the worst

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Plus, I mean, maybe ██████████████████ isn't for me; I don't prefer that

I didn't actually encounter any ███████████ in Singapore, even though I could have

Because I simply don't like that

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Also, God isn't so bad

Even Obama, despite being a Democrat, said that the shooting was wrong

No one anywhere said it was acceptable

Not even Iran, ████, or some of the harshest Trump critics

I think even Rosie O'Donnell didn't

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Just be calm.

Plus I did get a lot of help

I'm probably angry; maybe memories of ████ are playing up, my heart's racing because of ████████████████ and imagining I could have been harmed

It's best to calm down

Those events make many people angry too

And I think the ████████████, some of them lost faith too

I felt the same

You should stay strong and try to see the good as well

Those responsible may have been funded, and I hope they are held accountable

There are probably people who display framed photographs of ██████, ███████████████, or █████ in their homes

I saw █████ framed in Udesh's room as a dark joke

He thought it was funny as a teenager

I distanced myself

Just be patient

They are not laughing now, after that

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Just

Stop

The rage

I think anger is natural

I shouldn't retraumatize myself

Just think of something else, like my cat, whom my sister looks after so I don't have to clean up after her

Just be positive

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Jokes that depict ████████████ are very upsetting and inappropriate

Even though extremist groups like ████ provoke so much, this is just a diary; I don't plan to act on it

I might feel that way

I'm angry at them and sometimes struggle with feeling restrained by my faith

But I won't act on ████████████████

If you fight fire with fire, it can make things worse; it usually doesn't help

But if you fight fire with water, you extinguish those flames

I prefer to build a serious relationship with someone whose background and

I prefer to build a serious relationship with someone whose background and values closely align with mine.

I'm concerned about hereditary health risks and want to make informed choices about who I start a family with; I worry about the possibility of passing on conditions that run in my family.

I've observed that my parents had different life experiences and opportunities compared with some other groups.

I couldn't choose my parents.

But I can make choices about my own family and the partner I select.

The reason why I reject Buddhism, and adopt Christianity, is simple for me: it

The reason why I reject Buddhism, and adopt Christianity, is simple for me: it is a personal, cultural choice. Christianity feels more familiar and easier for me to adopt. I sometimes try to interpret stories across traditions, comparing figures and narratives to make sense of my beliefs. I have grown up with ideas that linked certain religions to particular cultural backgrounds, and that shaped how I see things. For example, I have thought that Christianity resonates more with Western cultural norms, while Buddhism, Hinduism or Jainism may resonate more with South or East Asian contexts. I have also reflected on how Islam became prominent in parts of Southeast Asia because of local histories and cultural preferences. I have considered questions about ████████████████████████████████████, and I have used contemporary examples like ██████████ to make sense of power and influence; I have imagined how I might have given different advice to entrepreneurs. I have felt that some people prefer a secular, rational outlook, while others find comfort in religious frameworks. I sometimes think political figures, such as █████, express what their supporters want to hear. I personally accept Christian accounts of miracles more readily than I accept Buddhist accounts, and I find value in the wisdom from traditions like those involving █████████, even if I interpret them differently. I also see differences between Catholic and Protestant approaches, and I personally lean toward Protestantism.

Christianity is the faith that feels most appropriate for me, especially Protestant forms given my secular leanings.

There are people like Sandesh Sharma or Shanika Sharma De Alwis who represent Protestant backgrounds, and individuals such as Jerome Fernando who come to mind in that context.

There's the ███████████████ type as an example of Catholic leadership.

There's the

I don't know

Jagath Sumathipala is an example associated with Theravada Buddhist circles, similar to Dhammika Perera in business contexts.

Who has less international recognition compared with some other figures.

But Hindu business figures might include Mahesh Amalean or Mahesh Hirdaramani.

I guess a prominent, respected Muslim figure might be someone else in the public eye.

I dunno in SL

But I would say Zahida and her family come to mind when I think about respected Muslim families.

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Esufally, or something

I don't know many nationally prominent Muslim leaders personally.

But we could highlight and support Muslim families in our Sri Lanka family tree, which might strengthen community ties and help build an inclusive, locally rooted approach to Islamic education and community life.

I have suggested allocating a portion of the Buddhist Department's budget—perhaps around 10%—to support Muslim community projects, such as mosque construction and religious education, in recognition of the community's size and as a step toward inclusivity. I see this as a charitable and precedent-setting gesture for a president.

Salman is invited to be involved in that effort.

At the same time, I recognise I should avoid sweeping generalisations about other faiths or peoples. I do not have detailed knowledge of every community, and many social and health challenges are complex and rooted in economic, historical and structural factors rather than simple cultural explanations.

1. My personal preference is for Protestant Christian traditions, preferably Presbyterian. I also see the Church of England (COE) as acceptable in many respects; I note differences in worship styles and governance compared with Catholic practice.

I would situate Nath Cooray's Baptist tradition differently in my personal ranking; regional variations matter, and many Baptist communities have rich musical and cultural traditions.

2. Regarding Catholics, public figures such as ███████████ and █████████ are well-known adherents. Jewish communities are diverse and organised in many different ways; I see them as varied social groups with multiple forms of leadership and influence.

3. Others include secular or state-oriented traditions in some countries, where official ideology plays a large role for many people. There are also cultural and political tensions that can affect religious sites and heritage in different contexts. Buddhism itself takes many forms and can be interpreted in various ways.

4. When I think about Hindus and South Asia, I sometimes have strong negative impressions about conditions in parts of the region, but I recognise that these areas are complex, with rich histories, cultures and many positive aspects that I should not overlook.

Today I opened an account with Asia Securities.

Today I opened an account with Asia Securities. I met them yesterday and spoke with their chair's secretary.

I visited Dumith Fernando's office.

I mentioned something to him.

I think I might be investigated for possible insider trading.

Eventually

I don't personally believe insider trading should always be treated as a crime.

I don't think so

To me, insider trading seems unfair mainly when it involves betraying an employer.

If I'm not part of an office, I feel I could share information with others.

I'm worried about it

I saw Elon post about business on X, and they claimed he was this or that, which is unfair

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I'm telling myself I'll have perfect immunity, so I won't worry about it later

I feel conflicted about the law

I don't feel close to him, he doesn't prefer coffee

I don't feel close to him, he doesn't prefer coffee

I give a small, nervous laugh.

I give a small, nervous laugh.

She's the kind of person I'm drawn to.

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Let's stop criticizing my mom.

Many of those people are older now.

What is sacred to them — their culture, their identity, the Theravada Buddhist faith, the history here, and their sense of prestige.

Much of that has been deeply affected.

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Elisabeth Hasselbeck.

Elisabeth Hasselbeck.

: )

I like her; she seems like a very pleasant person.

I used to go for bible studies in my church in Leicester, in the UK to people's houses.

I went once to Jerome's bible study, but it was at the Jayamaha's house

I saw in Crazy Rich Asians, that Michelle Yeoh would have a bible study too

I don't need other people, to be able to read and make sense of the bible now

I only went there, to see how they would interpret things in a unique way

The holy spirit can work in creative ways

Friends of Woody had raised concerns In Demi Moore's situation It may have been

Friends of Woody had raised concerns

In Demi Moore's situation

It may have been reasonable to seek more than $1m

It's about planting the right seed where the , friend

It's about planting the right seed where the █████████████████, friend

A desert-town love story at the edge of the map.

A desert-town love story at the edge of the map.

Just another county-road moment, small and electric.

’61 in the air, like an old photograph you can’t stop touching.

Long brown hair, wide eyes, and that first-second hush before a kiss.

He looked exactly like the picture your mind would invent— shined up

He looked exactly like the picture your mind would invent—

shined up, all-American, chrome-bright, too smooth to be real.

A denim-night serenade, and “Moon River” stuck in my chest.

And now I’m left holding the feeling, unsure what it means.

Cinderella, don’t you close your eyes yet.

Cinderella, don’t you close your eyes yet.

This shelter tastes sweet and sad at once.

Don’t you feel it? The kingdom’s having a hard season,

and everyone’s looking for you.

Is there still wonder under that late-night light,

or did it slip away back in the ’60s—

caught in the rhythm of a young man’s stare,

out where the dreaming stays hidden?

When you talk about me Go and tell anyone Who asks you Hey What's that Lehan

When you talk about me

Go and tell anyone

Who asks you

Hey

What's that Lehan Edirisinghe story all about?

Is he all right?

What's he writing about in his "diary"?

Isn't it on Facebook, with the privacy setting set to public?

Just tell them

You're

You can't stop reading

Because you're reading the story of your own life

You're reading the story of how

We reclaimed the Garden of Eden from █████████

And if there isn't a cause bigger than that

A cause greater than helping those men address ██████████████████

I don't know what is

The cigarette company, , who is , have offered to pay me a substantial amount

The cigarette company, ███, who is ███, have offered to pay me a substantial amount to be their brand ambassador and national president.

They

They also offered a ███████████████████████████████████ as part of the arrangement.

That's the only thing I'll ever post on Instagram.

I won't promote 50g sugary bubble tea.

I oppose Hamas But , I love hummus And I wish we used a different name for So

I oppose Hamas

But

███████████, I love hummus

And I wish we used a different name for █████

So we could avoid confusing it with hummus

I like beer I love Suresh Shah He's getting a And , to set up We're serving

I like beer

I love Suresh Shah

He's getting a █████████████████████

And █████, to set up ██████████

We're serving beer at the McDonald's

We're bringing McDonald's back

Bigger and better than anywhere else

And we're serving ██████████████

These products will be available only to customers of legal drinking age

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We can all buy █████, to invest in ████

And ████

██████ and ███████████ can invest in it too

Representatives from █████ may also be involved

I understand others may feel differently

Heineken was my dad's go to beer

I thought he had good taste

One day, I just know There will be an AngryPages Anonymous Or help and support

One day, I just know

There will be an AngryPages Anonymous

Or help and support groups

To help people who want to leave Vote Lehan

But that day feels so far away

We don't have to worry about the planet ending

People don't have to be here

I have never advertised this

They all chose to be here

And you all know why

"Keren"

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I have to speak with Elephant House about this

This company

Melstacorp

Tomorrow is my dad and sister's birthday

I felt Palith's help even after they passed

If I had been in charge, Edna might be doing much better now

It's a shame; Shanika was going through difficult times

But they didn't understand her, and some tried to take advantage

They ended up losing much of what was on their balance sheet

Which led to strained relationships with many people

I feel sorry for Lal; I see him as someone who was harmed

I promise to work to fix our courts and to challenge Denmark on this matter

Thank you, Dad, for the Rs 1,200,000 you left after you passed Wherever you may

Thank you, Dad, for the Rs 1,200,000 you left after you passed

Wherever you may be now

And perhaps, right next to me in spirit

You know

I am just 31

But I feel like I have the whole world

And even connections to the White House on my FB

Success has come to me more easily than I expected

And I won't forget those who helped lift me up

Not because I worry they could bring me down

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As I walk through the valley of the living

I will feel no fear

For my FB and my business are with me

And together we will make this a garden of Eden

As it was before the fall

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Our whole story here is about the rise of peoplekind

We will do meaningful work here

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I am tired, I am

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My dad made mistakes, but he was okay

If someone like Lehan had been leader in that context, I believe those people might have been better off

Heh heh I think Macklemore is cool, while I also feel sympathy for Palestinians

Heh heh

I think Macklemore is cool, while I also feel sympathy for Palestinians

I love this TV show.

I love this TV show.

It's beautiful.

I just love it.

I hadn't planned to go to Mass on April 21st in 2019.

I hadn't planned to go to Mass on April 21st in 2019.

Back then, I'd switched to Protestant, since I was in the UK.

But since it was down the road, I would have gone to All Saint's Church.

Just because Asita was there with his mom.

I can't help but imagine ████████████████████████████████████████████.

I think about █████████████████████████████ there as well.

I don't want to dwell on this.

It upsets me a great deal.

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I █████████████████████████████████████████.

████████████████████████████████ our communications.

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Or maybe not.

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