Journal - February 2025 - Camera Down, Wires Exposed, and Learning to Stay

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February: privacy boundary restored. Trauma-informed, consent-first healing—coding AngryPages and planning a small crisps line, staying lawful.

28 February
61 1
A legal-scene clip set the tone, then Carly Rae Jepsen played as someone’s words felt like a gentle revelation.
27 February
73 0
26 February
38 0
25 February
88 2
A quiet room moment focused on isolation and thoughts about a father, naming Pauline as a safe haven, then a trauma video played.
24 February
116 4
A breakup song looped, linking loss to crisps and appetite. Later, Trump and Macron played, wishing for a trusted French translator.
23 February
159 4
A stark VICE clip led into Taylor Swift and Enrique, with small tender promises and a remembered shared scent.
22 February
181 6
A note to Trump favored “peace through victory,” followed by OREL admiration, then Anti-Hero and The Killers underscored choosing an independent path.
21 February
185 12 4
Shooting and missile clips sparked a dark toy-gun joke. A child’s death was mourned, then Iris and “Hold On” played.
20 February
95 4
Sri Lankan leadership felt unengaging, then a request urged Mike Pompeo to serve as ambassador, backed by Madonna and Wix praise.
19 February
38 0
18 February
86 0
17 February
85 10
A stage clip and lookalike jokes led to Larry Page resembling a Vision Quest character, Daytona spectacle, car fantasies, love vows, and Bowie ache.
16 February
89 1
Indecision swung between holding on and letting go, aiming to respect her choice while admitting difficulty quitting.
15 February
29 0
14 February
99 7
Game waypoints became a metaphor for direction, then a brief Valentine note mixed self-doubt, jokes, and a Linda Ronstadt loop.
13 February
206 12
French love tracks and film quotes orbited Pauline, then a hair joke, a childhood French notebook, and Elon Musk parallels surfaced.
12 February
139 5
French music and longing framed Pauline, then a public aisle-walk ask was directed to Kanchana Ratwatte.
11 February
366 27 1
Movie quotes and political clips fed worry, then Pauline was chosen as the end-of-the-world companion, with “Purple Rain” on repeat.
10 February
149 19 1
Trump clips and history notes mixed with “Mini Paulines” pleas to a father, ending on travel browsing and Super Bowl awe.
9 February
35 3
A luxury-card article and Fox interview triggered Jim Robinson and dream-bank memories, ending on humane letting-go reflections.
8 February
66 0
7 February
53 12
A France job note and political clips blended with Jayawardena leadership messages, Halo 3 nostalgia, tariff talk, and late-night church faith.
6 February
55 3
French love notes and messages to the Jayawardenas recalled Harry’s support, then the day ended on Halo nostalgia and church faith.
5 February
146 0
Gumbo and a NYT romance roundup fed the “best love story” idea, cast as medieval-style devotion to Pauline.
4 February
169 6
Harvard housing and a stadium expansion sketch returned, then the night ended on Halo awe and a childhood pride note.
3 February
77 2
Harry Jayawardena was mourned, banking ambitions revisited, and his role plus Rs 1,250,000 startup funds were credited with gratitude.
2 February
52 5
Tariff videos and love songs framed a vow not to cut hair until Pauline returned and saw the site.
1 February
80 19 1
Late-night song links and short reflections tracked heartbreak, truth-telling, and a wish to reconcile with Pauline and family.