Startup Politics, War Fantasies, and Alex Marsh's Reality Check

January 26, 2021

The page runs from Trump-as-showman and startup-event boredom into cyber ambition, defense-deal fantasies, ISIS anger, Apocalypse Now, and Sri Lanka strategy, then finally steadies with Alex Marsh, who talks James, Ayeshah, Jonathan, and career back into something more reasonable.

2:45 PM

I tasted almond milk or something -- it was disgusting

3:00 PM

2:00 a.m.

(b)

Trump is an actor. He is doing this for a thrill. He is having a good time. I also am an actor. I write things, I pretend, I put on a show. It is all for entertainment.

2:15 a.m.

"I am a good person"

"You gotta believe me."

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..and the show goes on

The show must go on

Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and the day after, the next week, next month, every day, all the time

https://youtu.be/Rmp6zIr5y4U

3:45 a.m.

I am going to sleep. I used to be simple. I had my strawberry sundae from McDonald's. I forgot to ask for extra strawberry toppings. They ran out of chocolate. It is like the strawberries with cream you had the shire in Lord of the Rings with Frodo and Sam.

I used to share my ice cream with my mum and dad. I had no big Ego like I do now. I am a very simple, humble, nice guy. I love a lot of people, I love everyone. I cannot stay mad and angry with anyone forever.

I love my parents. I would do anything to have my father back.

I have a lot to give back. I know my second contacts are Prabhakaran's family members. I will honour them, I will bow down before them, apologise, disown any earnings from my dad's blood money selling bombs, I will protect them.

3:15 PM

3:00 p.m.

I need to order my lunch. I think the maid Manjula is not in the house. When our Tamil maid is not there, we need to get food delivered from a restaurant.

Manju is like a family member. I treat everyone as an equal. I am proud of myself for being kind to everyone.

I am feeling normal. I got an email from James' colleague Kevin that they are working on things as I suggested -- which is fantastic.

My mum is having a headache. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████ It was injurious indeed. ███████████████████████████████████████████████ I do not believe I will accept that family again.

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3:30 p.m.

I am in a terrible CICRA organised event for startups. It is organised by Slasscom. This is a terrible organisation. Some of their guys called me, said, "they get paid Rs 100,000, the directors earn millions".

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Sameera provoked Dr Hans by sending an email "Hi Hans: bla bla bla". Many people in Asia do not like it when you write emails with "Hi" or "Hey", although I do not personally care myself, as I am liberal.

Sameera hates Boshan too. We tried to sell EC Council products, such as Certified Ethical Hacker or CEH. Boshan runs Centre for Integrated Communications Research Agency or CICRA. Sameera is a lecturer at The International Council of Electronic Commerce Consultants or EC Council.

Sanjay Bhavisi started ECC. His nickname is Jay Bhavisi. He was originally laughed off by the Department of Defence, but later was celebrated by the DOD. Edward Snowden, the NSA traitor, also did the CEH program by ECC. Cousin Chadu told me not to steal Boshan's business, so I stopped selling his products.

ECC approached me. I told them, I did not wish to steal Boshan's products. They told me that Boshan does the On Campus program, and they thought I should sell the online learning, digital program. I partnered Samera to do it, I introduced him to my mum at my place, he spoke with me, taught me and helped.

Sameera taught me how to use Kali Linux. I quickly got the hang of it. Of course, I find most aspects of IT, everything else--boring, but cyber security, and especially, the dark side, being able to hack, this is the most interesting and only interesting aspect to me. This is what I find "cool".

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He told me he was in Israel, and that the real Mossad directors do not reveal themselves, very interesting. Dunno. We had a falling out later, I think a lot of people do not like how I am a bit too open about stuff. I just do not want to hide things unless it is a business secret or a secret deal made.

Sameera was upset I had not wanted to share profits with him or that I have mentioned him as a CIO without his approval. He is also a communist. I saw he had joined Sumathi IT with his friend Indrajith Jayaratne, who was their SIT CEO temporarily. He did not tell me. I warned Jagath uncle he is commie, Jagath uncle told me was also pro commie.

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Sameera appears to have used likely fuzzy logic to reverse engineer a web browser software. He got in trouble for this. He was terminated as IT manager from Capital Maharaja. It is most likely, as he operated near Sirasa, he adopted their hostile views towards the Rajapaksa family. Sameera confided he was fired, as he was in SL army and Capital Maharaja is pro-LTTE.

I asked CICRA's employeees who owns the shares in CICRA, and Boshan had asked his team to give me his number to call him. I was in the top floor of Sumathi Holdings with cousins Chadu and Chathula, having lunch with them, Chadu asked me about it and asked me to answer a call from Boshan.

I chose not to speak with Boshan when he called me, because I knew he was upset and if Chadu and Chathula heard it, they would have cancelled the Sumathi or Sporting Star pen testing project. I did not want this guy Boshan to end up in trouble. It would not have been the right thing to do.

3:45 p.m.

I like to cut through the propaganda. I opened up the dialogue. I asked hard questions. We are having a serious conversation now. Now it is interesting. There is a lot of interesting insights being shared.

5:15 PM

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5:30 PM

5:30 p.m.

These guys in Slasscom, they are not as connected as me. They claim that Chamath Palihapitiya might be able to mentor. This guy in Slasscom claims he knows Jit Warnakulasuriya, he has been at Millennium IT which I think was bought by Jit. We have easy access to Chamath, but no reason to speak with him.

Jit is concerned by startups and the younger generations- who he feels are keeping him on his toes. He probably means that in the sense he must adapt and stay competitive. He advises publicly for startups to focus on marketing mix/ basics as a startup. Interesting. He told me a completely different story that he must help me bla bla bla (all lies).

I would suggest, as Bala Kamallakharan, an angel investor, told me, that you gotta really carve out a focus area as a startup. This is true. I think Jonathan Hirshon wants me to get some liquidity from his friend Bala, but I decided against it. We do not want investors to take up any significant control of our firm.

Like the dinosaur, the IT pioneer himself, Jit, who 100% owns n-Able and I think IT unit of KBSL and maybe Millennium IT and of course, Just In Time Group, I also want to control 100% of the ownership and voting shares because I prefer dictatorships.

I think maybe it can be strategically advantageous to offer up free shares, of upto 10% to certain large investment groups. This is because I want them to have a psychological and financial stake in my firm. This will come in handy when I need to push around a vendor in the US or push around a customer, which I often do.

5:45 PM

add continue. 5:45 p.m.

I think Vanguard, BlackRock, these firms, they maintain top level access to the US defence firms. Without them, it is not possible for me to get certain things done. The Vanguard Group own a chunk of Lockheed Martin, or Raytheon. David Rubenstein's Carlyle Group owns shares in certain businesses.

The reason I would want them to own up to about 10% of my ownership shares at my firm, is so, when it is required, I can call them up, say, "Listen, Dave, you are an investor, I need some help with Raytheon, I need help pushing Lockheed or BAE. I know you know these guys, call them, say, we need a deal signed in SL".

6:15 PM

6:15 p.m.

I am eating KFC. I think if you want to build a component of a Standard Missile or a Tomahawk ICBM by Raytheon, you need these contacts to negotiate in your favour, to set up a production unit in SL. It will not work otherwise. They will ignore, there is no reason for them to do it.

7:00 PM

7:00 p.m.

I cannot stop worrying about ███████. I just feel so wounded. I despise how Dr Hans' Dialog Axiata, when Supun saw the ISIS Easter Sunday attacks--they decided to do a "show" for the victims of the attack. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

It was a severe lack of leadership by SL, specifically President Sirisena, despite how Thilanga uncle chose to defend Sirisena's leadership as minister of defence. I think it was the first time Sirisena learned what "ISIS" is in his life when it happened. I would not be surprised if it was! It was a sharp betrayal of our country.

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7:15 PM

7:00 p.m.

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7:45 PM

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So mote it be.

https://youtu.be/vRhKmE-IY3o

Kilgore cracks the plastic wrapping sharply, takes the

deck of new cards and fans them. Then he strides past

willard and his two young crewmen with no further

acknowledgement-the others follow.

He moves through the shell-pocked field of devastation,

soldiers gathering around him. As he comes to each V.C.

corpse, he drops a card on it, carefully picking out which

card he uses.

KILGORE

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All right, let's see what we have.

Two of spades. Three of spades.

Four of diamonds, six of

clubs...there isn't one worth a

jack in the whole bunch. Four of

diamonds...

He crosses on down the street, distributing his cards on

top of the dead V.C. corpses.

Willard, Lance, and Clean have been following Kilgore.

Willard bends down and picks up one of the cards from a

dead V.C.

LANCE

Hey, Captain, what's that?

WILLARD

Death cards.

LANCE

What?

WILLARD

Death cards. Lets Charlie know

who did this.

MOVING SHOT OF KILGORE

As he moves through the corpses, selecting a card and

flipping it on a body, or putting it behind an ear.

8:00 PM

https://youtu.be/ifDADhysl54

8:15 PM

8:15 p.m.

The death cards in Apocalypse Now, my favourite Vietnam movie, are real:

https://youtu.be/ifDADhysl54

I remembered Nayomi and Raja uncle because they bought me a Poker Table. I love poker. They got me Bicycle Company cards too. I loved the high quality.

I saw in University of Leicester, Alex Carvell, a lot of people love poker. I saw Sheryl Sandberg wrote Sinhalese Chamath Palihapitiya, he was poker buddies with Dave Goldberg. Chamath loves poker, he compares poker to life.

9:30 PM

9:30 p.m.

I am happy SL is a nonaligned country. There is a lot of scope in partnership. We must advise other countries to understand one another. Israel supplied us with Kfirs, the Iranians supplied RPGs. We are used to Iranian oil, the Saudi oil does not always work according to Raja uncle at the IMF.

In cyber, I am okay with the Americans, the Jewish Israelis, the British, the Australians, etc. I think we must do what Singapore does: partner with the Chinese, partner with the Russians, partner with Iranians. I find myself viewing predominantly American media, but ironically, 100% is pirated by Russians or Chinese.

In the end, we do not want to see a WW3 erupt between these guys. It is not necessary. There is a simple way to prevent Iran from hating Israel. There are simple solutions. These wars are carefully scripted to keep things a certain way and control people. We should try and help keep people safe.

We need to get things going in SL. I feel sad I am not performing optimally. The digitisation program is not going optimally. I am disappointed. It is not fast enough. We need everyone in SL identified, we need to properly manage SL, plan carefully, make sure things are rapidly improving.

9:45 PM

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I think this guy, McAfee. Was it John McAfee? Yes, OMG I remembered his name. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████. John asked us, "wouldn't you have done it?"

10:15 PM

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10:30 PM

10:15 p.m.

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More than George W. Bush, and definitely more than Jeb ███████████████████████████████████ (that other guy, Jared Kushner looks like ███████), maybe less than my toothless masonic brother George Washington, I think maybe more than George Herbert Walker Bush, I would have made best buddies Prescott Bush.

I dunno. I think maybe not so much the bad things he did in WW2. I like how all of them were in Skull and Bones. This is the sort of thing I find cool. I do not get it. ███████████████████████████████████ I only like this kind of thing. I was falling asleep in the meeting with Slasscom or whatever--it is too boring for me.

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3:00 AM

Wednesday, January 27th, 2021

2:30 a.m.

I had a pleasant WhatsApp call with one of my best friends: Alex Marsh. Alex helped me when I was suicidal in the UK during university. He was talking to me about 4 areas:

(1) James -- Alex advises to be careful as James is a cornered rat, who is desperate, with no way out, we have to be cautious. He most likely will agree to doing business with us in a way in which we both are successful. They are reasonable. I told Alex about a crime that may have happened in SL and some other important things.

(2) ███████ -- Alex advises she just wanted to take photos as she likes birds. I am probably imagining she wanted to get blackmail to hurt us at a later point, jumping to conclusions and this is not cool. I acted in a pretty stupid way being paranoid and worrying frantically. My mum also told me it is not the case. I think what I noticed is I have a lot of silly racist ideas which are important to disclose and highlight.

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(3) Jonathan -- Alex advises to be cool. I am worried about his August trip as my guest. One thing is the temperature is very hot, there are a lot of mosquitos, the food is terrible in Sri Lanka and also the people are sometimes c***s and the standards here are terribly low.

What I can do: is I can keep my guys with him, so he is safe. There is nothing I can do about the outside temperatures, except that the vehicle is air-conditioned. There are not too many mosquitos everywhere, he can wear long sleeves and socks. This is easy enough. The food, I know the restaurants can do a good job, except for lunch. I am sure, we can feed him properly. There is nothing to worry about.

I worry he might not be able to climb the Sigiriya Rock Fortress. So, we will get 2 scouts to help him (as he is type 2 diabetic) and Amanda if possible. I also will use some support because I am incredibly physically weak. I nearly had a heart attack and died of exhaustion halfway up.

The risk of an elephant going crazy is very low. I strongly, strongly doubt this will happen. I will tell him it is a wild animal, so be careful when riding it. He will be so happy when he rides an elephant. I will give him a Yaka mask, Ahh I know! I will give him a Yaka or devil mask to wear every week, so 4 masks, as he hides his face famously.

He will have a great time. He is a good guy. These people are good people. Then I will take him to see the Dilmah owner with Charith, as his father knows them. Jonathan can tell Merrill J Fernando, ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████!" * I am just joking, I just want to have fun *

(4) Career -- I told Alex that I will send him a MasterClass on negotiation by Chris Voss. I hope it will help him learn how to negotiate better in life. ██████████████████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I am disappointed. I will try to help him!

3:15 AM

3:15 a.m.

Trump is just joking. He is not serious. He is just saying things that he thinks republicans believe. He was originally against invading Iraq, or fighting Iranians and he hates guns. He is a good man. He is just making mistakes. He likes to be "the bad guy" he revels in delight (like me), he is having fun, he is having a laugh, he is an entertainer, he is a performer, a showman.