2:00 p.m.
I had lunch. I missed breakfast. Or at least, I unhealthily had my last night's Coca Cola as my breakfast.
My right foot was feeling a bit funny for a second. It improved fast, now it is okay.
I think I should begin to do 5 minutes of exercise in the elliptical machine in the morning and 5 minutes in the late afternoon at around 5 p.m.
This will boost my health and fitness. The endorphins will help me with uplifting my mood to counter the high cortisol stress hormones from my work.
I do not have any signs of diabetes or prediabetes. I have energy, though fatigued. My mouth is not dry. There appears to be no symptoms.
I am frustrated and depressed. I had flashbacks of ███████ betraying me. I feel terrible about it. I cannot believe I let her inside our home. I regret it badly.
It is hard for me to accept, someone who people I trusted recommended was the one to betray us. I thought she was the one I could trust.
I will never again allow any of her people any space in my life. They are all the same. It broke my heart. I somehow knew it was a bad idea.
My mum warned me about her specifically. Just because of Asita Amarasinghe, Sarah Nazeem and Sandhya Dharmadasa, I wanted to help her.
Even this guy Prashan Vethakan, I only took him in because he claimed his wife Pooja Umashankar is cousin Wagisha's friend; I regret it less, he left after making a loud exit, but it was not painful.
With ███████, she betrayed my family. This is what stung. I am thinking of retaliating against her people all the time. I want to know they are under control.
I hate how difficult it is to work in SL. These people here are very difficult. They call meetings, do not show up. They say they will call back, forget, do not do it, even when it is national security. It is pitiful.
I am very unhappy with SL. The whole place seems to be only ready to attack you, they do not do the job, they do not let you do the job. The weak people in SL are unwilling to make demands from leaders.
It is terrible. I am happy at least I have some comfort in knowing I have friends in California. Even if these guys in SL are slow, they are still risking injury to themselves by delaying and failing to perform as well.
It is not just an insult, lack of respect and lapse in judgement in poor cooperation with me, all of them are also struggling. It is as though Buddhism has become an anaesthetic to numb repeat defeats.
It is becoming an excuse for self defeatism instead of a reason to overcome challenges. I am also quite stressed these days because I am reading through a lot of disturbing information.
There are a lot of negative stories on Thilanga uncle on the internet. I cannot believe it. Everywhere, the BBC, ESPN, it is all littered with negative publicity. It is terrifyingly awful. He is viewed as a villain.
It is our responsibility to try and present and position him as an "Anti Villain" or "Anti Hero". This is useful. I do not understand how he made so many enemies. They are all negative stories.
I was reading about Dr Shirani Bandaranaike having ruled as Chief Justice of a 5 member panel of the Supreme Court to deny bail to Thilanga uncle which was granted by the Appeals Court.
I was taught in Singapore that the Appeals Court is supposed to be the highest court. If the Supreme Court says something and you do not agree, you appeal it.
Shirani Bandaranaike was impeached later. Thilanga uncle was the one who began the impeachment proceedings vengefully in parliament.
These things may have been necessary to do. Mahinda Rajapaksa needs a judicial system to run this country. We will do it. It had to be done. I accept this.
When the judicial system is attacking us, we must takeover the judicial system. It is required. If a chief justice keeps trying to hurt us, we must attack her and takeover the rule of law.
2:15 p.m.
I read about Faraz Shauketaly. This man was shot in the neck by three unknown assailants. Faraz was a Sunday Leader reporter. This man sounds like Stephen LaBrooy, same deep voice. He is a good man.
However, shooting someone is a bad idea. It is ugly. It makes us look like thugs. It makes us look like Bond villains. If they report facts, we must try to improve.
Deputy Editor Frederica Jansz was terminated by Asanga Seneviratne, a Rajapaksa ally, who bought 72% of Sunday Leader newspaper, upon her refusal to stop reporting on the government's mistakes.
Editor Lasantha Wickrematunge getting shot in public by two assassins in motorcycles is terrible. It sends a bad message to the rest of the world. It makes us all look bad.
Lasantha was an enemy, he kept attacking my uncle, he attacked Chandrika, Mahinda Rajapaksa and Gotabaya Rajapaksa. But there are better ways to solve problems.
Firstly, regarding the "White Flag Murder", there is a lack of evidence. Sri Lanka murdering civilians is wrong. It is a war crime. Capturing Prabhakaran's son Balachandran, then executing him was wrong.
This makes all the sacrifices, hard work and efforts of SL seem in vain. It was a horrible mistake. It is hard to defend this internationally. It is not possible to defend it. We are portrayed unfavourably.
Saying, "we killed him otherwise the LTTE will not die, he will be like a god" is ridiculous! He likely would have escaped SL, gone to a foreign country, etc. It is a flagrant war crime. It is violation of law. There is evidence of this, which is shamefully worse.
Killing terrorists is acceptable. If the LTTE carry out suicide bomb attacks on civilian targets, they are then a terrorist organisation. It is not enough to justify they cannot speak Sinhala after Tamil is recognised as an official language.
2:30 p.m.
The LTTE were like Islamic State In Syria and the Levant or Al Qaeda or the Irish Republican Army. It is okay to kill them off. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
This story has been reported to the BBC. There is another problem, the Gotabaya Rajapaksa interview with Chris Morris is embarrassing.
It looks like Gotabaya is proudly confessing and admitting, and maniacally laughing to having Lasantha Wickrematunge killed. It might have been a trap for Gotabaya. This guy wanted to make us look bad.
I had a chat with Sumal Perera a few years back in October 2017. I saw he had an interview with Muhammed Fazl. It was terrible. I made a full transcript, I took it to show Sumal.
I asked Sumal what I should call him. He said, "you can call me Sumal uncle, Sumal, Mr Perera, whatever you like". I worried people will be scared of me in Access Group if I call him 'Sumal Uncle', so I chose 'Mr Perera'.
I told him, this interview was not good. You need to prepare carefully for this sort of thing. You need to rehearse, speaking as a Freemason who must rote memorise one part role lines.
