11:45 a.m.
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I am unsure about ███████, it is true, I am able to hurt people, but when it is wrong to do it and you do not have to do it, I should not do it. Any mistakes were so small, I have unreasonably treated her wickedly.
Most likely it is suspicion only. To hurt her friends for political reasons is kinda cruel. It is not fair. I have to consider it carefully. I know I must be angry, it is injustice to project unto her, she is innocent.
No matter what, and she did not do anything, there is no proof. You need proof before attacking people, otherwise it is a big sin. I do not know why I spend more time hurting her than ███! It is unjust.
12:00 p.m.
I should wash my hands. I am feeling hot, I need the Air Conditioning. I wish I had some sort of intense mouthwash, I hate having to brush my teeth, cut my beard, hair and nails. It is annoying. I have to do it all the time, all my life.
My grandma used to cut my nails, but one time she cut too far, when you want to do something right, you gotta do it yourself. I am scared to let others cut my nails now. I need a George Clooney hair cutter.
My hair is so long now. I remember my dad used the hairdryer on me, and my hair was shaggy and he laughed at me and said I was like Martinn uncle!