Wednesday, April 7th, 2021
12:15 a.m.
I will sleep soon.
I absolutely love Chess. I was in the chess club in high school, I loved it, I remember my teacher, she taught me points/ values of pieces, her tricks and tips--I loved it.
However, during the chess tournament, I got destroyed very quickly, I was shocked. Within 5 or 10 minutes. I just got checkmated badly. I was in shock. I could not believe it.
I gave up, but I took it up again, I love chess board game, it is a beautiful game--the original Age of Empires or League of Legends or Real Time Strategy game.
It reminds me of Freemasonry. I love Chess.com I play every day and enjoy myself. I love the Lessons. I got a 7 day trial. I want to hone my skills and improve.
In my life, I did not have my dad around. I did not really have anyone. I had Dr Kua, then Dr Friedman, the people in England were kind to me, Claire Heggs, the NHS doctors, Dr Aruna Garcia, Dr Andy Green (who initiated me),
now, I am so lucky, I got a f***ing 76 year old Ashkenazi Jewish 33rd degree Scottish Rite Freemason and Shavendra Silva's friend Jacques -- who is like my dad now.
and also, Jonathan Hirshon, who is 165 IQ and just a god, he knows everything, knows everyone and is like unreal-- and he is so cool -- he is in his 50s, maybe 54, he is like my mum.
For me, that is all because of G-d.
When I was doing these lessons on Chess.com, I was just thinking, I am a really, very stupid person--
I do not deserve many bad things, but I definitely do not deserve THIS kind of good things.
It looks like some kind of conspiracy theory, these guys are too big, too important and too good.
It is like I am driving an Aston Martin or a Rolls Royce instead of some smaller, normal people car like a Toyota--
and I do not know how to drive at all despite getting a driver's license--I hope Jonathan can drive right hand drive when he visits in August.
Or else, the driver can drive, it is up to him -- I am wondering whether we should let Jonathan see how we violate traffic laws using our escort vehicles or bikes -- we will see...
For me, when I was watching these Lessons on Chess.com I felt like, I make so many blunders, when I play real games, I see a Game Report, I see so many mistakes, blunders, inaccuracies --
and I slowly improve.
I improve.
I am so thankful for Jacques and Jonathan the most.
I wish everyone had friends like those two.
