11:00 a.m.
I think, this was a school teacher!
I don't want to hear it.
I had my breakfast slash lunch: 1 and a 1/2 curry puffs from Delifrance with my mum who got 1/2.
Thinking of Pauline █████!
I am getting tired, i did about 70% of the research I had to do for chapter 6. It's fairly boring, I am just keeping it there, so there's landmark historical value.
I gotta download Darkest Hour 2017 overnight.
I will watch Fear the Walking Dead or maybe James Bond: No Time To Die to relax.
I wish i had some drugs like weed.
I think I should be on 60 mg of Mirtazapine to better cope with my stress. But it's bad for me, so I'm sticking with 45 mg.
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There are often 2 or 3 minor flashbacks per hour.
My eating and sleeping is modulated thanks to the Mirtazapine, so that is helpful, as a crutch.
I think that, from a catastrophization side, with no proof, I feel scared some of my friends might die if I don't do this script on time.