3:00 p.m.
I had a shower with conditioning, and a soap body wash, followed by a sea salt body scrub by Saint Ives and I also did a face wash.
I was astonished that even after a thorough shampooing, and washing my hair. That when I was applying hair conditioning, that I found a lot of hair in my hands! I'd expect that the shampoo would take it out.
I'm going to hair dry again soon, and then just rest and relax.
I'm sad my body weight has fallen. In the shower, I was contemplating lipo injection. Or a saline olive oil drip, so my body fattens up. I have struggled to gain weight.
I worry my exercise regimen is too much. My 15 minutes, I will cut to 10 minutes. I should be doing compound exercises like squats, deadlifts and chest bench presses.
I lose weight very fast. My genetics, my metabolism, it is very high.
It's problematic. I feel faint. I enjoy my work. I love what I do. It is like a game, it is very enjoyable for me.
I don't care if I work all day because it's fun. I'd play video games, shooter games, I am making those products, I love this stuff. I love politics, I love drama, i love America, spy stuff, i love fighting crime, I love hacking.
I love to do this stuff anyway. I'd do it all for free. It's what I enjoy.
I never count the time I spend. I think if you read my diary, it must be every waking hour. I think it's fun.
I look very skinny now. Handsome face. But very severely underweight. It's dangerous. It can cause death. I have to be careful.
I won't try stupid things like lipoinjection. I think my weight would be even lower if not for my Mirtazapine. I'd stop eating completely and I'd throw up.
I think it's Shanika's fault,██████████████, she must never have been charged with running a family, she failed miserably, and caused very big problems.
Anyway, I think soon things will work out.
I must rest. Stop moving so much. I am shocked. I eat so much. Even though, I miss breakfast every day.
I don't care.
Jesus.
I must be getting 1000 calories, 1500 calories a day. Breakfast is skipped. Lunch is rice and curry, which I hate, so that's 500 calories. Dinner is 500 calories. I might eat something else, so altogether 1,250..
Elliptical machine 15 minutes is going to burn about 300 calories. So, I'm losing weight. The local food is disgusting. I hate most foods.
There is no prospect of Shanika doing anything, if she could have done something, she would have done it by now, as she could not do anything, it means that she cannot, and so, must not be expected to.
Lal is in trouble. He is going to die because he is so old. █████████████████████████████. All the senior bankers want to borrow money from Jagath and Thilanga, they run the casinos, █████████████████████████████████████████████. Lal is ███ LKR in debts. He will have to declare bankruptcy and sell off his assets. I think this is what winning looks like. We will get what we can get, and move on. Any chances, any prospect of any kind of continued business is not going to happen.
Lal is a mason. People like Lakshan Colonne, they hate Saroj Perera. Jacques Huyghebaert also hates Saroj for no reason. They have group think. The masons aren't successful in Sri Lanka. ████████████ died, his family wants to █████ Ajith Tudawe's Durdans Hospital. They will say that the grandfather has started Tudawe Group, and that they should share the business. You should ███ the guy out, just █████ him off.
I have Ajith's number, he tried to introduce me to the IT people.
That's the way you do business, you work with that guy. No point trying to talk to Sandalal, you get Shavendra to talk to Thilanga, Thilanga will talk to Sandalal. They are at that level of thinking. No point trying anything else. The servants, drivers, peons, gardener, they will not read or agree with what I write in my Captain's Log, they are low status, they are educated at a low quality level, that is why they are that way.