4 August 2026

A cigarette in honor of Upali Dharmadasa; I threw a ciggy on the floor. And then picked it up. Smoked. To say my goodbye

He was a legend.

And he was a decent, kind guy. He was my father's friend.

I feel some pain about it.

I guess, I'm human

I was practically living in his house during my childhood

As I was so tight with Udesh and aunty

I just disconnected in 2018, out of fear of Thilanga

And then I saw almost 10 years in 2026

I'm going to wrap this up, and move on

I think grief, or pain, hits in waves

I remember going to uni in Singapore. One time. These unknown girls were talking to me by name as though they knew me...

YIKES

I couldn't remember them

The horror

I got blacked out drunk because I'm like 40s in kg

So I'm super lightweight

At least they seemed to like me

We're happy AI run AngryPages: I am stunned how our on-board AI profiled Trash™, denied, got proven correct.

It studied his 80+ email spam. Before it reached a conclusion that he is a problem, with a high confidence or probability score. He was profiled by our own ai, not by Anthropic, xAI or OpenAI, whom we use in a supplementary capacity.

What I also realize is that while we're a publisher, we also make food, we make baked strawberry pies, we make websites --while we're not a website making firm-- and we also do all sorts of things, such as making video games, despite not being a video game making company.

In that same way, we built our own proprietary artificial intelligence services, which is very useful for us, as it does what we need.

When I use the other products, I see they're consumer grade, and even the enterprise tier ones we have access to, are weighted, and work in a somewhat better way, but still kind of suck.

Our own AI, is by far, the best as far as I can see, as it does what we need, without scruple or diffidence, which is all I ask for.

I was also, just unnerved, because it warned, he's a threat, we profiled him like a criminal, based on his abusive email pattern, his blackmailing language style, that he's sorry, calling me Sir, that he doesn't want to be judged by 1 hour phone call, and that he's an old man who deserves a second or third chance, etc.

And unlike me, because I actually instinctively felt sorry for the guy, like I'd feel sorry for Zahran Hashim or Osama or Aisha grade terrorists, that this guy would probably do better if he was successful, which would mean less insecurity.

But no, I was wrong, and AI was right.

So it judged the guy, then denied me, the ability to accept him, as I fought with my own AI, and said give him a chance, but it kept overriding my directions.

And said no to the guy as me.

Soon, I found out, he's been trying to provoke, on purpose, to anger like Yoshitha or Harry / William, or Ron Perlman got provoked by some cockroach at the airport, and then he's pitifully tried to send fake emails, which hide the facts, to publishers, even claiming he's a young author.

Those types of cockroaches are really sad, they disgust me, and we hate people like that at AngryPages.

Those California publishers sided with me, they also felt concerned that this type of nutjob is even mailing them from a shithole about us full of lies.

Soon, he's even spammed us, with like, 5 -10 bs books, which his family must have gotten used to buying, trash for trash tier rubbish we'd never publish.

Yuck.

Such a fucking disgrace—that’s the worst part. Why did he even come here? Yuck. Disgusting shit. Fuck off.

We don’t serve people who behave like that. We firmly refuse service when someone fails our standards.

I told him to f*** off repeatedly and mocked his conduct in the story.

That was the strongest insult in it: turning the conduct itself into Trash™ and showing our paying audience exactly what AngryPages refuses to accept.

That is the case we are making—this behaviour gets denied.

A complete waste of our time.

We refused service. Permanently.

I made some code changes; we fixed up the game as well.

I'm hurt AWS charged us $100, despite promising $200 credits. I think we don't trust them much now.

But they translated my whole diary with that $100 bucks.

It's not exactly a humongous waste of money.

We removed an author called, something, I can't remember his name

Sasanka or something

Because he was trying to circle about terms, which I already agreed with him on, in a past email, on a past date, last month

So he has done the only responsible thing, which I can accept, is he has agreed it's best that he goes, and he left

If Asita Amarasinghe had been murdered on 4/21; I'd have done something to the ones behind it; not just complain on here

I have been insanely patient. I am having less than 0 percent confidence in Anura's gov't actually delivering the justice they promised. I thought that because I saw the news they'll do it. But given Sri Lanka's ugly history, I doubt it.

Anyway, uhh, the good news, is this dude Quintus is getting loads of sales!

My Enterprise Stripe's gone crazy. F***, now I have to give him that special Graham's Tawny Port Wine by Symington. Jorge Andres Nunes, over in Hong Kong, is going to be pissed off. This is 30 year one.

I am going to beg the dude, to give me just ONE glass.

That a***ole Thilanga, mocked me, like a real b***h, with his piece of s***

Uhh

Something

Taylor's Port Wine

Mockery

He was mocking me, as they like to pretend they're me

F***

I have to give my Symington 30Y to Quintus

He's got some Portuguese Burgher Stock in him

F***, damn it, this is

I mean whatever

It's a $5,000+ worth magical bottle

That dude, from Matale, is old, and won't be around forever. It's best for me to forgive, think of his daughters-move on

He's made a mistake. But I think that, he's lucky. I am happy to fight back. But looking at it, he's also very elderly, and will struggle with health issues. It's confusing for me, because I can "win" doesn't mean we should win win.

I am having problems with it, because I am not happy to harm someone, to that extent, where just because they make a mistake, we fight back, to defend our name, and it causes health problems for this guy.

He's worth forgiving because he's got his daughters, and wife, and he hasn't got a lot of time left.

He's also made some small, s***ty books, which I rejected, but showed me, that he also had some "good intent". They're not s***ty. But they're weak material.

It's not nice, even if we refuse authors, to be nasty to someone like this, who hasn't got 10 years of health, fitness and life left.

So we'll just forgive and move on.

Even if we publish facts, and prove he's guilty, and "win" respect, out of fear, it's not really worth it.

What really drives me not to injure, is because he even makes mistakes like he's a "youg author" to those firms, in US, in California.

Which reveals to me, that he's someone who should be prayed for, not cursed.

What if he had done that to anchor, or allow us to jump on it, that it's bs?

He in his subconscious, probably had enough cognitive dissonance, to mark his own bs complaint, which had no merit, and even praises us, as rubbish.

I have a connection to the spiritual world, like we all do, I feel he's done what he's done to help me but to pretend he's an attacker. He's tried to sacrifice himself. Because he knows there's over 80+ emails. There's too much proof against him. And he's even conceded too many facts favoring us. He's knowingly lied about being a young author, which indicates to me, that either he believes the 10 firms in California will buy it, or else, they'll be notified by me quickly it's bs. Whatever the reason, I sense strongly, that he's no threat.

When I saw him after 2 months, I wanted to publish him, out of mercy. Just to help him out. I just wanted him to document his legacy while he's still alive. Because I felt sad about using my usual foul language when his family were listening nearby. I feel sad about Upali as well. He was like, a father figure to me too. As I don't -- or can't -- have too many friends, so I feel a bit sad. Life's cruel, and death's more vicious. So we should be human, and bless people, to gain confidence, a sense of security and outgrow weakness.

We should be compassionate to them too.

I'm going to be kind and try move on as I don't need to defeat this guy who can't even win with his defamation attempt full of lies which are too easy to disprove.

If I'm going to fight, let it be for a legitimate reason.

I rather fight one serious problem, who is our size, than a few people like him who have 2 daughters and a wife.

My real regret, is he didn't listen to me, how to write a good book, worth selling, he said he doesn't write "novels", when I tried compile his short stories.

I regret it, because my spiritual relationship to my God, is showing me the errors of my own approach. Some thing tells me, that he even wanted to do it for free, to place ads so he can earn. And he seems to be not as guilty as I've been trained to see.

We could just publish his work, so he'd understand how to earn properly. But now that the bridge has been burned, or burnt, I think burnt*. Best to move forward. My AI, I dunno. It on one hand, correctly guessed he'd spam us abusively, expand scope or fight with us. Which I appreciate, as a basis for terminating his relationship after profiling him and his 80 emails. Which is pretty cruel. And yet, I also feel sad, because I can see redeeming quality in him or anyone, as nobody is beyond salvation.

Forgiveness, can you imagine.

Let's move on, let him go on his way, his journey, with his daughters, son in law, and wife. With no pain from me. We will seek or allow no further contact. And move on. He's free to find an alternative publisher to help him or work on his own blog where I advised him of a Shopify route by email before disengaging. God bless the guy. I hope he does well.