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3:15 PM තුළ November 16

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MONDAY, NOVEMBER 16, 2020

Part Two

3:00 p.m.

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3:15 p.m.

Jeez maybe this isn't a good path. I mean, I'm confused. This hateful mantra and rhetoric. I'm wondering if it's the only way. I don't know. It looks like it's not the best way to deal with these guys. Anakin Skywalker became Darth Vader, that was a disaster for the galaxy.

I don't like all this Emperor Palpatine level rage in my system. It's poison. Look at Palpatine's face, look at Darth Vader, look at Anakin, he was supposed to be the chosen one. When the rage consumed him as Padme died, you saw how he became disfigured. His eyes were so ugly. That's just sick. This kind of thing isn't good. Plus, if you go down that road, there's no turning back or going back.

This whole anger thing is only poison. It's poisoning me and my life. I have to get rid of this rage and wrath before it's too late. She didn't do anything. I don't know what the heck I'm even thinking. I don't think this anger is fair. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ That's step one. What next?

3:30 p.m.

That's enough. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I took very little damage in return. It doesn't make me feel any better. The people who feel better seeing people hurt are all sick. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ███████████████████████████████ Doing bad things won't help me..

It's like drinking alcohol or smoking or doing drugs. Or gambling. It doesn't help you at all. It's poison. The alcohol destroys your liver. Smoking destroys your lungs. Drugs destroy your mind, apparently. You lose all your money gambling. This kind of thing won't help me. Rage, anger, it's the enemy. I bet that Asita Amarasinghe is hurt, I bet Sarah Nazeem is hurt, I bet a lot of people are hurt at CIS, I bet ███████ is also pretty hurt.

If I wanted casualties, isn't that enough? Isn't it enough bloodshed? I don't want to kill people. I not only don't believe it ever solves problems, I believe it makes problems worse. Plus, I'm not in a war, these are civilians. This woman was a school teacher. Targeting people vengefully, it's so ugly. It's cheap behaviour. It's hideous.

I just don't like to do evil things. It causes a lot of discomfort. Plus, the guilt hurts. I haven't done anything evil, and I don't want to. That racism, that judging of people harshly, that's what led to Auschwitz death camps. If Jacques Huyghebaert or people judged me badly because of my relative's mistakes, I wouldn't get anywhere.

Being racist is so silly. It's not going to give me anything. I don't get anything knowing the Muslims are under surveillance and controlled. They work hard, they're loyal, funny, honest and terrific people. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I wrote Moslems as an insult, but I should say Muslim.

I'm starting to feel much better. ███████████████████████ █████████████ She's a conservative pundit. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ The guy was just an angry man, the kind Elvis sang about in his song In The Ghetto. ███████████████████████████████████████ █████████████

I prefer Obama. He seems to be sensible. I prefer Biden. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I prefer the Democrats. I can't ever get behind a Republic version of Lehan, I'll always choose a Democrat Lehan.

3:45 p.m.

It's good I can meditate on this kind of thing. Only love, compassion and understanding can eradicate hate, anger and this kind of evil. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ But it hasn't helped any of them one bit.

Plus, I have so much empathy, I can almost feel the pain Sarah Nazeem is going through right now. She must've even cried about this. She's such a wonderful woman. She's beautiful, kind and clever. This kind of thing isn't cool. The whole invasion of Iraq, killing people, it hasn't solved anything.

4:00 p.m.

███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I usually struggle with morality. ████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████ I think about whether it's the correct thing to do. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

What am I supposed to do? What's the end game? ███████████████████████████████████████████ Reforming Islam also isn't about reinterpretation or changing the minds of those people, it's about helping them learn more and understand the world with science.

I feel a lot better. I'm so happy I have all the successful friends, all the celebrities, important people, successful people as friends. All educated, very understanding. All mostly liberal. I'm thinking about whether to fire or axe or unfriend and block Rocky Jackson from Iowa who has added me.

He's a conservative. But it's just wrong of me to judge someone and to fear them like that. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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