I have memory problems, and severe confidence issues
I was told to do "Absent Brethren Toast" in Wyggeston Lodge, 3448. I practiced it. It's just 4 sentences. I couldn't do it.
I have extremely severe insecurity, or problems with like, public speaking, or saying things or doing stuff, like Luca Brasi.
I think what I do know for sure, is that, I "forget" or feel "intimidated" or can't really do it, I have done EA, FC, and MM Blue Lodge 3 degrees.
But even then, I was prompted, and tried cheating by keeping my words on floor which Christopher Pantelini found and waved his finger "no" over heh.
I have, never taken part or done "rituals" and don't want to.
Some people have extremely severe insecurity, performance anxiety and other personal characteristics, which are unique to them.
Like many, I can't dance or sing in front of others, I feel ashamed, and I prefer not to, I feel comfortable the way I am.
And I hated having to memorize, and repeat those words.
I think what is jarring is, I couldn't remember those words in front of others.
I notice it, in others, they know song lyrics, can do it in karaoke, so it's not just unique to me, they also never dance in front of others.
I just do a 50 Cent two step with a Trump YMCA move. And a little twist.
Hehehehe
I am happy this way.