I also, like to write that way. But after 2022, I cut it off, I think 2023, I shifted it up because I found that became too "lazy". It also started to suck after I watched the oscar winner Moonlight where that language became too ugly for me. It became too lazy. Not cool enough.
I don't use words like n***er. But I remember as a kid growing up, I identified as partly black, because of hip hop music.
So me and Udesh would be rapping Snoop Dogg's Vato:
Like we're black gangstas like:
Run n***a, run n***a
Duck n***a, duck n***a
Run motherfucker, run
Run ma'fucker, run
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Hashani when I was small, she came and taught me "mofo"
And it was a big deal
I had this fascination with bad words
I still do