From Fleabag to Firestorms, I Doomscrolled Until I Broke

ஜனவரி 4, 2020 Lehan Edirisinghe

I numbed out with Fleabag, doomscrolling, and old memories, while politics, online conflict, and my own darker loops kept pulling the day away from any real rest.

Blaming Germany and Jared Kushner for a Crisis

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Requesting a Video About White-Ruled Rhodesia

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https://youtu.be/CZjFZjZBD78

Wanting Muslim–Jewish Friendship, Then Raging at Germany

Thu 2 Jan

4:15 p.m. Th

I think that I should just be me and help████████████████ become friends. If you think about it, the █████████████████████████████████████████ The █████████ were behind it. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

4:30 p.m. Th

I get along with them just fine during business, and I like a Mercedes or my Braun series 7 electric shaver, ████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

My university dissertation marker was German and she gave me 50% although I had over 400 academic citations, █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

4:45 p.m. Th

Cisco approached me and asked me to represent them, but I told them SIT is anyway doing them. I just try support them. I like their solutions. It's a great vendor. I think it's one of the more successful IT security companies.

I saw Peter Dinklage on their advertisements. I feel very threatened by ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I get excited by the fact war is████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I dunno, I'm a complicated person.

5:00 p.m. Th

I'm getting tired. I need to visit the hospital because I'm suffering irritation and need to try end it.

I was thinking, I don't know if ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

The Israeli embassy apparently is within the Indian high commission in Sri Lanka (Bentsi ben Atar). ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I'm glad at least Gota cut corp taxes from 14% to 0% and so, I can at least update Sri Lanka privately because we can build electronic databases for the judicial system or healthcare and then use our influence to push things.

This way, the leader just approves things and the country automatically develops.

I spoke to "Kamal Gunarathna uncle" the defence secretary and I'm likely to speak with "Shavendra Silva uncle" the army commander and chief of defence staff. I brought up Raytheon projects and technologies ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

We may need to start projects with ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I love my job.

5:00 p.m. Th

I'm glad the ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I'm glad at least, I started working with the█████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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5:15 p.m.

I'm getting really tired. It's weird, I think drinking coffee makes me sleepy.

I need to visit Asiri Central to see if I can remedy my skin irritation. I don't know what the heck is up. It's probably nothing.

One day, I'll write a book, and I'll definitely discuss our work with███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

8:45 p.m. Th

I had a big meeting with a ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I saw that Ishara Nanayakkara has become the richest person in Sri Lanka. He's done a good job. I'm happy for him. I saw a lot of people have bad things to say about him haha and have warned me against working with LOLC, but I'm glad a Sinhalese is successful.

Arguing That Attempted Murder Deserves Death

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Reacting Positively to the Dutch

This is so cool. Dutch people are very cool.

A Violent One-Line Joke About Going for the Eyes

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Skipping New Year’s Fireworks Over Safety Concerns

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Sharing My Favourite Indian Food at Mango Tree

Thu 2 Jan

Exhibit 1. Indian food

I love Indian food. My favourite restaurant in Sri Lanka is Mango Tree -- their tandoori chicken, paneer tikka masala cottage cheese and cheese naan is amazing.

I saw this:

https://youtu.be/MUesLbKX1bA

This lentil dal curry looks amazing

Watching Fleabag and Changing My Mind About It

Fri 3 Jan

10:00 a.m.

I'm watching Fleabag. It's a terrible name for a show this good.

1:45 p.m. Fr

I love Fleabag. It's wonderful. Although the title is terrible. I'm on season 2 about her hair episode. I love her hair.

2:45 p.m. Fr

I'm watching Fleabag. It's not that great. But I'm enjoying it. I had a cup of coffee with 5 chocolate cream biscuits. I'm having a good day. I think if Queen Elizabeth was a commoner, an ordinary person, she'd be just like Fleabag -- very cool, very British. ♥️

4:15 p.m. Fr

I'm feeling slightly sick today. I took antihistamines for an irritation. I'm slightly more sleepy today. I don't have much work for today left, I did everything. I work very effectively.

I was watching videos on how come there's multiple legendary Pokemon. I understood it's the relative multiverse theory. Arceus basically hatched from an egg, or reincarnates or creates other Pokemon or Mew does, I don't know. I guess, we must be agnostic. I love Pokemon and the music and community.

I was watching videos on Michelin Star restaurants. I want to one day earn 3 Michelin Stars for my future restaurant. I think if it tastes good, and everyone is happy, that's what matters most.

I'm getting sleepy. My sister Lehara has a fever. I'm tired. I asked my mum to go get a lemon so we can make mayonnaise at home. I pay like Rs 30 for one small packet of mayonnaise from McDonald's. It's crazy. I love it. It tastes delicious, and I love it on cheesy fried potato wedges and chips. It makes me feel so happy.

I miss Singapore. I was at a BBQ restaurant where I had brisket with blue cheese, Jesus. I loved that. I couldn't finish my food. I'm pretty skinny, I get full very quickly. When I eat my French fries from McDonald's, I can't finish my burger. :( I always try to. I love my favourite foods.

4:30 p.m. Fr

Hmm today I don't seem to be writing much. I'm pretty tired.

4:30 p.m. Fr

I want some Chinese Cantonese Suckling Pig or Roast Goose. I want Bacon Bakkwa from Bee Cheng Hiang (or Fragrance).

6:00 p.m. Fr

I don't think any of the new games for 2020 are any good. I think I'm gonna look forward to Halo Infinite. But that's it.

6:30 p.m. Fr

I'm like really sleepy today. I'm going to do my 10 minute elliptical machine run and then watch the TV show Sex Education and then get dinner and then call it a night.

My mum went to the supermarket and to meet her friend Tilomi who's at Galle Face Hotel. I asked my mum to get a lemon because I need it to make my homemade mayonnaise and I also asked her for shredded/ grated cheddar to put on my fried potato wedges or fries.

7:45 p.m. Fr

I have a beard. I don't like it. I only have one because I'm too lazy to shave. I have a nice beard. I need to shave though. I look like a caveman or like Luke Skywalker when he went into self imposed exile.

I'm watching Sex Education. It's pretty good. I love American culture. I prefer it over British culture, always. I remember I was a ████████████████████

In kindergarten or primary school, I ███████████████████████ and they took me to the Vice Principal's office to scold me. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████. █████████████████████. Me and Mikey De Alwis and Parthiv were the cool kids. I think I'm a pack animal, like a bunch of hyenas or velociraptor or whatever. We all got together and ██████████████████████████████████████I was so happy. 🤭😬

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8:00 p.m. Fr

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8:00 p.m. Fr

My cousin actually took in a ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

8:15 p.m. Fr

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8:30 p.m. Fr

I just have to really ask people, "what have I done wrong?", you know? I don't understand. I'm such a good person. I only ever did anything to somebody who had it coming.

8:45 p.m. Fr

I think I never really did anything truly evil in school.██████████████████████████████. I like Sex Education the TV show.

10:00 p.m. Fr

I'm watching Sex Education. I downloaded it. ████████████████████I feel for these kids -- their life is like hell. Life must be hard for Sri Lankans. I'm pretty lucky I'm from the richest family in Sri Lanka and have liberal views and friends.██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

10:15 p.m.

10:45 p.m.

Arguing Against Another US War in Iran

Sharing a Video About Australia

Australia:

https://youtu.be/6mxz9CalRfM

Calling a Claim Fake News

Fake news

Arguing Humans Must Actively Save Wildlife

Absolutely ‼️💔☹️🤧😲🤔 David Attenborough was a █████████████████ man who had lost touch with reality to suggests animals ought to be left to survive on their own without any human intervention to counteract the negative human intervention of climate change/ deforestation

Joking About UFOs and Treasure Under Area 51

Legend has it there's UFOs and treasure buried under Area 51, which is why the Federal government doesn't want us raiding Area 51

Reacting in Shock to a Story

Omg this is crazy

Rejecting Attenborough’s Hands-Off Approach to Wildlife

I ████ David Attenborough--we must save the animals by intervening!!‼️

Saying Beyoncé Did the Performance Better

She did alright, and I'll let ya'll clap for her 👏👏👏👏 but I think Beyonce's work was better...

Explaining How I Comfort Employees Before Firing Them

I don't warn people. I actually comfort employees. Then I fire them by telling them we've got a mutual interest instead and we're not a good working fit.