Flashbacks Hit Hard, but I Forced My Way Back to Work Mode

ஜனவரி 17, 2020

Flashbacks hit me early, but I still forced myself into work mode, trying to stay functional through memory spikes, calls, and the pressure to keep moving forward.

11:15 AM

Singapore Bought the Aston Martin

✈️😲‼️beautiful jet! Singapore government bought an Aston Martin equivalent instead of a mediocre car for the people's future security 😬

11:45 AM

Using Voltaire to Explain Why Business Is My Religion

When it is a question of money, everybody is of the same religion.

Voltaire

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I don't like what Voltaire said about certain things, I think he was full of it, but I like how he also agreed business is my religion. 📢🤭‼️

12:00 PM

Thanking Ho Ching for Sharing a CEO’s Life Story

Seems like a terrific guy. I liked to read this. Thanks for sharing.‼️🥇👏🙃🏆🤭 I'm a bit too cash poor to become a Straits Times or Financial Times subscriber, but I expect to close deals and get money to subscribe. I'm only a poor widow's son :( :'( , I'm just 26 :) , but I get a lot of confidence when big people like you (Temasek CEO) or a $200bn revenue CEO open up. I get to learn how you think. That's something money can't buy and something you can't find anywhere else.

12:00 PM (b)

Arguing New Zealand Must Plant Trees Beyond Its Borders

Globalization involves NZ partnering with other countries to lead sustainable growth and environmental protection efforts. Even if they plant trees, it's just a dent on climate change car crash waiting to happen. Leadership is about planting trees elsewhere to make an air bag impact to save us from the collision.

3:00 PM

Moving the Sierra Project Forward

Fri 17 Jan

3:00 p.m.

I'll wait for this meeting with Indrajith and see what happens.

5:00 p.m.

We talked for 2 hours. Our Sierra project is going well, I'll cut Sumathi Info Tech in on it because they're a family owned company that can help with this big undertaking and to close deals. I'm happy with the way it's going.

Next week, Dialog's planning to meet me. I'll try to somehow get a conditional POC or negotiate for a paid POC as we need to pay experts to carry out 150 hours of manual penetration testing work.

I'll talk to Thilanga uncle about getting a permit to import liquor to do my Golf Papa project.

5:15 p.m.

I'm a bit concerned about bad karma in selling alcohol. I dunno. I'm a bit sad. But there's no harm in the wine I'm selling because it's just wine. It's not like I'm killing anyone or any animals. It's a relatively harmless act. I must be Buddha one day, and I don't want any bad karma f***ing it up for me.

6:00 p.m.

I can just invest our profit to distribute alcohol too. It's a great business. I just need to somehow get a liquor import permit. I'm looking at getting 120 bottles down. I'm going to probably earn quite a bit, I'll cut Thilanga uncle in on the deal and pay him 25% to motivate him to get a permit for me from PM Rajapaksa.

I only want to sell 1 alcohol product which I enjoy the most. I love this alcohol. It's my favourite. Golf Papa. I also want to invest in building ammunition. So, I'll look forward to meeting Dialog next week. Indrajith will try talk to Supun and Sandra.

I already talked to Dr Hans Wijayasuriya. He's nodded. When I see Chaminda, I'll see what IT assets we can protect, we'll make a list and see what assets we can protect. It's important for me to incentivise and motivate Ruchira Yasaratne and Srinath Wijayakumara to get the project approved.

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Anyway, Indrajith promised to give us the majority of the deal, and at most split 50 -- 50 on earnings. I think it's okay. I believe in partnership. It reduces our risks. I think I'll need them dealing with Dialog. Dialog Axiata can get difficult. What if they do a POC or pen test and not pay us? It's a $10,000 loss for us.

This is where we're going to need to very carefully talk to Ruchira, escalate the project, influence Supun and Pradeep and Sandra and see if we can make it work. Rockland is an alcoholic beverages competitor to me. They've got many products, I only have and want one.

I'll need to get uncle Thilanga to influence the Ministry of Finance people to help me get a liquor import permit. I don't know. Anyway, for political activity, he needs alcohol, I'll be able to supply at cost to anybody.

6:45 p.m.

The thing is that ███████████ is evil. You don't want to be a ████████. Those people are most likely exploited. They get diseases. It sucks. I love beef, it tastes good. But it sucks to see a cow get killed. It's the worst thing you can see happen. It's part of the deal, you cause a death.

But I don't want this kind of evil in my life. I try to reject it and avoid it and get it off my life. I just don't like it. When I was small, I saw my dad bought 100s of macaws. I thought it was cruel. I decided they're animals. But I knew it was wrong. You're caging animals.

7:00 p.m.

It could be. I don't hate it. I think I just don't want it in my life. It's like smoking or alcohol, I don't want it out of moderation controlling my life. Once a day is too much. I need to get rid of it. I'll just block out any electronics use over the weekend to prevent access.

The promise is forever. It's why according to my religion, Freemasonry is so important, I promise blood oaths. I promise under penalty of death on the bible. This is what keeps me alive. It's what I like to play with. These are the stakes I want to play with.

No matter what, my blood oaths and death penalty -- it will always be there, I can not be a Mason, but I can never leave Freemasonry. I shouldn't have shook his third world thug retardo hand. But, I did because I thought it was the right thing to do. I must stand by it. I just don't like double crossing anybody. My word is my bond.

10:00 p.m.

Partners don't offer free services anymore to anyone, not even Dialog. I'm sure it'll work out well. We'll reach a good outcome. Sierra is scared Dialog Axiata won't pay, so they think if they're serious, they'll pay. I'll try get it escalated.

This is less expensive than to fail. It's less expensive than to give up equity. This is the best option: to give Sumathi Info Tech half our earnings depending on how much we'll need them. I need to see what'll happen. I'm going to sleep. I'm tired.

I'm going to try see if I can singlehandedly convince Dialog to pay for a trial pen test. If they decline, I'll use SIT to pressure them. If that doesn't work, I'll appeal to Dr Hans Wijayasuriya to intervene. If that doesn't work, we'll just sell something else to them.

5:00 PM

Posting a Gold-Medal Reaction

🥇

6:15 PM

Everybody Spies on China

China's got to spy just because everyone else is spying on China. It's the way it is. I hope nobody is seriously punished for it.

6:45 PM

You'd Be a Better CEO

I think you could do a better job as HK CEO. ‼️👏🥇😲😬 I learn to be a good CEO from you

3:15 AM

Donate to Better Leadership

I'd rather donate $1 to invest in better accountable leaders for this country because then they wouldn't have this problem. There's no transparency or system in place to grow foods. If the people keep choosing poor leaders, then it's better if better leaders were picked. It's very sad.

3:30 AM

Sat 18 Jan

3:15 a.m.

I'm thinking it's a good idea to use Sumathi Info Tech to market Sierra to enterprise customers. We're virtually unknown and we've been targeted, attacked and I think blacklisted due to personal opinions of ██████████████████at Union Bank (resigned) and NDB. It's not a big deal. But it's clever to use SIT to tackle these 2 and also NTB and People's Bank.

Dialog we may be able to protect by ourselves. But it's too much risk. I don't know Ruchira Yasaratne so well. That Sierra project probably won't work. This is because their CTO Pradeep most likely gave an instruction to not commit or do a conditional POC. It's likely bullshit. They're likely to be doing it to get a free service.

Still, I don't know for sure. It's hard to judge or perceive their true motives. For all I know, they may be being honest. I'll have to tell the story it's a pen test and I have to pay $10,000 for 150 hours of gruelling manual penetration testing to our expert security researchers who protected Telefonica O2, Etisalat and Saudi Telecom. I can use SIT's people to try persuade Dialog Axiata to pay for this. It's always generally good to consolidate with bigger companies like SIT.

The reason we got big is because we pay per project approved and we just appointed account managers to all 23 enterprise customers. So, we got 23 account managers. We got about 10 IT guys who can handle technical requirements who need work. It's how it happened.

3:30 a.m.

SIT isn't 100% trustworthy. They've dodged calls in the past. It's a tricky one. But it's better than nothing. Our company just needs good relationships, to close deals and revenue. We'll just use them.

I don't have a good opinion of ████████, the guy's not a good guy, he wants to fight. I don't think it's wise to have drama. I think it's better if it's just a one sided drama from him. We anyway do business with the institution. There's cheap, crazy people out there who are jealous and hateful. It's the way it is. He's probably just jealous and so, doesn't want to do his duty. There's always been plenty of people like him.

Indrajith knows SLT group CIO Saman Perera. We can try to get a presentation done. I think he knows Rajeev at NDB, somebody at People's Bank, Sampath Bank's people, etc. I think everyone. They're the ones who work with them usually. I should use them. It's better than working with JIT or CIT as it's a family owned business. I think I need to step on the gas before SAT or other competitors become a problem.

3:45 a.m.

4:00 a.m.

I dunno. There's probably problems in every country. I think I learned. That's the important thing. Plus, I'm lucky I have people to work with on enterprise customers. This is a great way to get into the customers.

4:45 a.m.

I'm glad that I can write about my suffering over here on Facebook. I think I'll be okay. I have a lot of stuff and people on my side. I read about Othello's tragedy. There's drama. I need to just be wise and show compassion to everyone.

5:15 a.m.

I was thinking about how painful killing cows is. It's very painful. I hate the betrayal involved. I hate life. I hate how cruel the world is. I still eat beef. I tell myself this is the world. I feel sad about how Freemasons and Jews were murdered in WW2. It's a very cruel world.

5:30 a.m.

6:00 a.m.

I'm excited to get my first deal done. I'm impatient. I was thinking I need to never murder anybody, no matter what. This is key. I'm really sleepy or just tired. I struggle with sleep. I just get flashbacks and stuff all the time when stressed. It's a nightmare.

6:15 a.m.

I'm looking forward to getting business done with the banks. I started approaching Ashok Pathirage uncle. I hope it works on NDB. I think it's sad the place is not straightforward, but I'll just have to tolerate. There's no rule of law.

6:30 a.m.

I'm feeling sick. I have a slight cold developing. I was thinking of discontinuing relations with Aloka aunty, Raja uncle, Nayomi and Dilan. The reason is because I don't trust them. Raja uncle says one thing, but does something else. He's not loyal.

Why should I tolerate people like that? They anyway decided to escape Sri Lanka by going to the US although they didn't get why they escaped. They're Jagath uncle's friends. I dunno. Maybe, it's just meant to be that we end friendships. He's friends with Waruna and Sriyani aunt. I can't forgive them.

7:00 a.m.

For all I know, their approach makes sense. I gotta be tactful. But at the same time, I'm disappointed and sickened by how cheap they are as people. Why be friends with people who stole money from us? I hate people like that. I don't want them around. There's no telling when you can get lied to.

I sense that it's better to be friendly with Sriyani aunt or Waruna cousin, even just for face value. I don't know. It's a country which brings out the worst in people. It's a place where murder is nothing.

7:30 a.m.

I can't know for sure. I think I'll give them the benefit of doubt. I think I'll be okay. I was thinking about animal slaughter and karma and being reincarnated. I'm scared of it. I think it's just bullshit. I don't agree with Christians that animals don't have a spirit.

I think all animals have a spirit or Buddha nature. It's true. I've seen tamed pet alligators. I hate myself for eating meat. I need to justify by saying that anyway there's an animal cost to meat or plant foods. It's just the way it is.

8:00 a.m.

8:30 a.m.

1:00 p.m.

I'm getting hungry. I'm so sleepy and drowsy today. I wonder what's up.

1:30 p.m.

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I miss Valerie

Valerie, call on me

Call on me, Valerie

https://youtu.be/cbKNICg-REA

3:30 AM (b)

Using Sumathi to Help Sell Sierra

Sat 18 Jan

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6:00 a.m.

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7:00 a.m.

For all I know, their approach makes sense. I gotta be tactful. But at the same time, I'm disappointed and sickened by how █████████████████████████Why be friends with people who stole money from us? I hate people like that. I don't want them around. There's no telling when you can get lied to.

I sense that it's better to be friendly with Sriyani aunt or Waruna cousin, even just for face value. I don't know. It's a country which brings out the ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████

7:30 a.m.

I can't know for sure. I think I'll give them the benefit of doubt. I think I'll be okay. I was thinking about animal slaughter and karma and being reincarnated. I'm scared of it. I think it's just bullshit. I don't fully agree with Christians that animals don't have a spirit.

8:00 a.m.

8:30 a.m.

███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I'm watching Boardwalk Empire. I'm thinking of trying to use Jit somehow. I dunno. I'm pretty Machiavellian.

1:00 p.m.

I'm getting hungry. I'm so sleepy and drowsy today. I wonder what's up.

1:30 p.m.

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I miss Valerie

Valerie, call on me

Call on me, Valerie