I Let Flashbacks, Family Rage, and Heroin Talk Tilt Saturday

Sat 7 Mar

9:30 a.m.

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12:15 p.m.

I had breakfast. I ate some chocolate eclairs from Cafe on the 5th or Tasty Caterers. They're pretty good. I just always remember the Jayamaha murdering that pretty girl Yvonne. I had a few flashbacks of████████████████breaking my elbow and choking me. ███████████████████ But I'll try avoid. I'm just not like him.

1:30 p.m.

It's just flashbacks. ████████████████did something wrong. ████████████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I'm hungry. I need lunch. I had a business discussion with Chinthaka.

4:00 p.m.

I was rehearsing things to say to people. I often work on my charisma. I practise on the mirror looking at myself. I learned it playing a Sims game on my Nintendo DS or Gameboy, which I borrowed and stole from Udesh Dharmadasa, where the main character practises in front of a mirror to gain "charisma".

It seems a bit crazy, but I practice to get my tone and body language correct. I think my words are really good, I just really need to keep rehearsing over and over again to get my "tone" and body language correct. Even in Freemasonry, you must rehearse and memorize. I have to act as the Inner Guard for a third degree ritual on 19th March.

I practise to say, "we just need 5 things in Sri Lanka:

(1) a rule of law;

(2) ease of doing business;

(3) attract MNCs/ FDI;

(4) benchmarking; and

(5) survival mentality."

Obviously, all 5 are related. I think they're the reason Singapore succeeded. I think with a rule of law, there won't be any problems. With an ease of doing business, business gets done quickly as we get a good culture. With (1) and (2), we get MNCs and FDI, and so, we get tech, human capital, know how, etc. With benchmarking, we compete. With a survival mentality, our attitude is right.

4:15 p.m.

F*** me. I was hoping to avoid any ritual ceremonies. I don't like to do things. I'm a perfectionist and I hate it when I f*** up. Now, I'm scared I'll screw up my third degree ritual lines. I f*** up because of the pressure. I need to get my words right. Stephen Labrooy doesn't ever say or do any of the lines. I wanted to be just like him.

4:45 p.m.

My brother Milan is playing poker with his friends. I found the poker chip set for him. His friends didn't want me playing Poker with them because it would be weird as I don't know them lol. Whatever. It's cool. Sad face. I think I can practise my Freemasonry lines or do some research instead.

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5:45 p.m.

I didn't really enjoy Phil Ivy and Daniel Negreanu's MasterClass on poker. I think Poker is mostly down to luck. No matter how skilled, it's just a gamble. That's why I'm always the house, I try to always be the house. I play ultra competitively. I only play to lose for fun.

I was thinking, I have to pay Rs 25,000 LKR for my Freemasonry as a joining member and also for my 2020 subscription fee. However, I mean, that's just Rs 2,000 per month. I think every event, I get about 2 glasses of red wine and i also get a meal. A glass of wine is $9 to $14 bucks. Or about Rs 500 for a 500ml beer, and I think Rs 1,500 for 750ml bottle. 2 x 75ml = Rs 300. It's worth the investment.

I think I can easily go with RWBro Ferhad Jamshed Nilgiriya to all the meetings possible. I absolutely love Freemasonry. I think at a minimum 2 meetings per month. So, if there's 12 Irish, English and Scottish constitution lodges, I can go to a lot of meetings every month. I can learn my lines by heart by then. I can also build my business as I network.

6:00 p.m.

I think that usually, every meeting at Wyggeston Lodge No. 3448, I got a pint of free beer every month. I loved it. I had I think a bloody Mary too. I had inside access to the city. I had power and contacts. I just paid for the meal because I anyway got a free £900/ month I struggled to spend because the cost of living is so low, at around £300 every month..

But here in Sri Lanka, everything is free. The booze is free, the food is free, everything. I love it. I hoard booze. I think I can sell a few cases of my GOLF-PAPA-WHISKEY project to the lodges and then recommend everyone drink up. That's a good idea. I buy my MOQ of 12 cases of 6x75cl bottles at €75 x 12 MOQ cases = €900 bucks. Of course, I'll sell at €82, so, x12 = €984. €84 for my leadership and trouble.

I need to figure out a place to store my bottles. That's the issue for me. It's a slow moving product as well. If DCSL can do it for me, it's worth my hassle. I can just mark it up to €150 per case x 12 cases = €1,800. I then pay €900 for registration, transport, storage and customs, excise duties, fees and taxes.

I'm sure, if a few people help sell, everyone will drink at every lodge meeting. If 10 people all drink 75ml, that's a 750ml bottle of 10YOGPW. If it's 12 lodges, x 1 bottle per month = 12 bottles per year per lodge and x all 12 lodges = 144 bottles per year. I think that meets my requirements.

I guess, that maybe perhaps people will drink more than a bottle. Maybe 2 or 3 perhaps. I think if I really introduce it as a custom, that all the diners must drink my wine, then, obviously, I can meet the MOQ and get a competitive advantage or a head start in my liquor business.

6:30 p.m.

Even though, I get Rs 20mn profit so far (early March), I think that I'm hesitant to pay Rs 50mn for a liquor import permit/ FL3. I think it's better for me to get Thilanga uncle to pay for that. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ That's why I prefer it.

I'm also unhappy to use my own money. I'm like JFK, my wallet's always empty. (Fun fact, JFK's dad does liquor, I think bootlegging, if you watch Boardwalk Empire). ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I don't know, I think it's just a character thing. I can't help myself. I was always this way. I want to use my Rs 20mn to multiply my Rs 20mn.

I mean, a 10YO bottle of GPW is like 100% marked up by me. So, why don't I just use a 20YO bottle of GPW? I'll just mark up by 50%. I only need 6 cases instead of 12 cases. It's easy for me to store it as well. I wouldn't want to smuggle it. I'm actually completely against breaking the law. I follow the law. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Anyway, I wouldn't ever want to smuggle. I think liquor can be a great career for me as well. I can sell my other products as well. I can sell other products. I can easily clear Rs 50mn per month in revenue with standard distribution channels.

There's just 5 things I saw Singapore do, which I want Sri Lanka or any nation to do also:

(1) rule of law

(2) ease of doing business

(3) MNCs/ FDI

(4) Benchmarking

(5) Survival mentality

Sat 7 Mar

7:00 p.m.

███████████████████████████████████ I think I'll eventually be friends with Duminda, Rayynor and Vincent Silva, and their dad Lal Silva who works for CIC owned by Sohli Captain. I think, if Chemical Industries Colombo is CIC and they own CIC Agrifoods. I think I might be friends with Waruna after all. I can use them.

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████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I shouldn't have done that. That was stupid. But he's my friend now. I did it for Unit 8200's Bentsi ben Atar, I didn't want him to come to Sri Lanka for nothing.

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7:15 p.m.

Actually, I don't even want the drug money. I'm unsure. It's just bad for business. I just want to get a percentage for helping to manage everything. Yes, that's easier for me. I'll just grab a nice chunk to help them all out. I'll focus on cyber security, defence and alcohol. I'll do the prawn farm business if possible. That's more than enough money for me.

I really don't know. I've always wanted to be on the right side of the law. I think drugs is probably too much for me. It's not worth the headache. I see heroin as opium. I know the history, it was a cure for morphine or something. Dentists prescribed cocaine. I don't care. █████████████████████████████████

8:00 p.m.

I'm so sleepy. I need to get dinner and call it a night. I think Kasuni ██████████████████ wants to see me tomorrow or something. I think she can sign my Employment Agreement and NDA ("slavery contract"), sigh, ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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9:00 p.m.

I'm so sleepy. I had a nice pasta, the pork sausages are really good. I like to do business. But with doing bad things, generally, people aren't like me. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ It's how I do things. But here, I worry people will get jealous.

I don't know whether to hide this kind of thing. I mean, if I go to hide anything, my business isn't counter intuitively protected. It's when you lie and hide things that things go wrong. When it's measured, you can handle any actions. I normalize things. But I'm worried, it'll make people feel jealous. I'll just keep a little bit quiet about it to counter jealousy.

9:15 p.m.

No. I'll keep this. If you go to hide anything, you're f***ed. You must always be honest. Too bad for jealous people. I don't care. What have they done? Nothing. They haven't done diddly squat. Only when you hide things, you have to hide and cover and then everyone looks at you like you're a criminal, then you lost half the battle already.

Thilanga uncle went wrong because he hid the betting business and then everyone, including President Premadasa and Chandrika went after him like as if he's a criminal. Chadu did the right thing in normalising the racing business with the horse race awards and also All Star sports betting lounge. The second you hide, you're just a crook.

9:30 p.m.

I'm so sleepy. I asked Milan to keep the poker set in our living room area in case I need it. I think drugs need to be controlled under a DEA/policy-controlled monopoly. It's bullshit to let it be a crime, bow down to foreign drug cartels who steal billions of dollars to and then ██████████████████████████████████. █████████████ Business is my religion.

Sun 8 Mar

3:45 a.m.

████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I think I'm consumed by rage, evil and darkness. ████████████████████ ██████████████████ █████████████████ ████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ according to the Zoroastrian faith. █████████████████████████in the Dakhma Tower of Silence as well.

I was overwhelmed by the stench of dead chicken at Prima chicken processing factory, I don't even like the morgue, visiting a Dakhma may be too much for me. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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11:00 a.m.

I had a really bad nightmare. I think I'm just overloaded. I need to relax. I think i saw a ghost as well. It must've been a nightmare. I'll be okay. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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11:15 a.m.

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2:45 p.m.

I played poker with Milan and his friend Kavith. I lost Rs 200. Kavith lost Rs 300. Milan won Rs 500, but he got lucky, he had two pocket Aces and also he had Ace higher kickers once. He beat my Ace pair with a Triple Aces as he had pocket Aces and also he had a Ace high flush on the river. I got free ice cream from him, so, losing Rs 200 wasn't a big deal. It was worth it.

4:15 p.m.

I'm rehearsing the Freemason signs. So, the 3rd degree sign is with my left hand for sympathy whereas the p sign is with my right hand. At 6:30 p.m., my phone reminds me to read my Inner Guard lines. It's the 8th of March, every day at 6:30 p.m., until the 19th when we have a meeting, I'll be reminded to practise and verbally rehearse out loud my lines for the 3rd degree as Inner Guard.

11:30 p.m.

I smoked some weed with ██████████████████████████████████. I had cake, I had Japanese or some special tea. I had pizza. I also had a 1 hour long conversation with someone called Mohammed Mubarak something. I show a lot of respect to everyone, I'm very proud of how I'm a kind person.