I Posted Brisket Exhibits While Zoom Masonry and Sunday Friction Built

மே 3, 2020

I spent the day on brisket videos, Bible reading, business messages, Zoom Masonry, and dark family resentment, with just enough structure to keep the Sunday from slipping apart.

10:15 AM

Brisket, Beef Tallow and a Plan to Feed the Poor

Sun 3 May

10:00 a.m.

Exhibit 12. Mmmm brisket

1. Trimming fat https://youtu.be/23pCGVKKLQM

2. Central Texas style brisket https://youtu.be/qiFCFGESpWY

I got the idea in the early morning from G-d to help feed the poor bread and operate soup kitchens.

When I was watching this video of trimming brisket, I was thinking of making tallow with the beef hard fat and then using it to cook stuff or flavour bread or whatever.

I can get unsold produce or items nearing expiry from supermarkets to feed all the poor people.

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10:15 AM (b)

Porn Addiction, Christian Guilt and Trying Not to Imagine the Worst

Sun 3 May

10:15 a.m.

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12:30 p.m.

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1:00 p.m.

1:15 p.m.

If I do "bad things" G-d will punish me somehow. No sin goes unpunished. It seems we were built to sin and that any decision includes a serious penalty from G-d. Still, I mean, there's a way to purify and be more clean. I think if I confess as a Christian, I'll be forgiven for these things.

6:45 p.m.

I think I'll go to hell when I die. Jesus must've taken the spear jab to the side for someone like me. Hehe I dunno. I haven't done anything wicked. I haven't done anything so bad. I haven't done anything that bad. I never really did anything that bad.

7:30 p.m.

Got flashbacks. I had a chat with people.

9:15 p.m.

I had a good dinner. I love our pork sausages in Sri Lanka. I'm going to do some reading and then go to sleep. I wish I could open my bottle of port to have a night cap. Or to start drinking my whiskey as a night cap to slow down my system and put me to sleep.

But whiskey is way too strong for me. Even champagne, one of my favourites, is very strong. I had champagne at Uwin's wedding last, and it was a bit strong for me. I couldn't finish it. But I love the taste of champagne.

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I miss Sharma uncle. I highly doubt he murdered my dad on purpose. A few other people also died on the same exact spot. It was a death trap. Aitken Spence is in trouble. They're under pressure from coronavirus. I shouldn't imagine the worst things ever.

10:30 AM