Backdated Lobby Meetings, Home Routine, and Mirtazapine Check-In

செப்டம்பர் 8, 2020

I backfilled the day with lobby meetings, home routine, appetite frustration, and Mirtazapine dependence, framing the whole thing as one more ordinary day held together by work and medication.

Mon 7 Sep

[Backdated]

Woke up early, Jacques visited me at home from Battaramulla, we discussed business and met with my mum. We lobbied to receive support from Thilanga uncle, without whom we cannot sign any deals. My mum agreed to try to speak with uncle Thilanga and to try get us an appointment. It appears that these things, such as business, family or cyber security, although life and death and so important and sacred to me, are seen as a joke to these people who are responsible for them.

Jacques and I discussed a range of topics, opportunities, ideas, business, histories, religious ideas, moral issues, legal issues, hiring and firing or employment issues, the economy, the market, political direction, the genocide of Red Indians, King Leopold running CAR, dark history of masonry, previous DGM Malin Goonetileke ideas on charity, Jacques felt my message to Ron on WhatsApp was a mistake, Jacques feels that the team is incapable of winning deals, I discussed our 35 member staff, Jacques says that he got a burger from McDonalds without the cheese and with one beef patty, Jacques talked about the holocaust, George Soros, discussed Schindler, how the movie was not accurate, various topics. Jacques told me that back then, people who pretended to be Buddhist were Buddhist, unlike now.

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I basically just watched some stupid movie about lion farming in Africa called Rogue with Megan Fox in it. I think I then started seeing Murder by Decree to study masonic symbolism in film. I don't like to go to birthday parties, so I didn't attend Thilanga uncle's wife's mother Chandra's birthday dinner party. I prefer to not do that. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Tue 8 Sep

12:15 p.m.

I got up at like 11 a.m., the Mirtazapine is pretty strong. I have made myself some coffee. I'll go and get lunch, then I'll probably watch tv because I want to see Raised by Wolves, finish watching Murder by Decree and some other stuff. I'm feeling tired. I hate Sri Lankan food, I can't eat it.

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12:30 p.m.

I was thinking about Jagath uncle, I want to help him prevent any further issues with respect to the Buddhist authority. He's also created enemies who want to contest his leadership. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Janaka Edirisinghe uncle, is ineffectual, however, Jagath uncle hates him, Jagath uncle's wife Samantha aunty hates him, (██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ and his father Dr Albert Edirisinghe became a monk in his later life) and this is an inconspicuous situation which can become a problem because if Janaka starts attacking the family, it's going to be an issue.

Jagath uncle asked me to not invite Janaka uncle to events, which I declined to accept. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ It's as simple as that, if I don't see any real potential for future business, it's as though they're of no use to me, I'll cut them off my life.

12:45 p.m.

I need to get lunch. I would've prefered the Chicken Penang with sticky Jasmine rice from Tesco. That had like 700 calories because of the coconut milk. ██████████████████████████████████ ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████