TUESDAY, DECEMBER 29, 2020
1:45 a.m.
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The 60 mg of Mirtazapine isn't working anymore. It is an antidepressant and tranquilizer. It knocked me out at 9 p.m., I woke up dehydrated at around 11 p.m. I played chess.
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Perhaps it's too much stress overloading and flushing my brain. I think it will improve.
I'm disappointed my mum's not doing enough, it's a terrible unforgivable waste of time, opportunities and causes a profound many problems and risk.
We're waiting to hear from Thilanga uncle. I have to stick with the decision that if you tell someone you need a mosquito net and then they refuse, argue or don't understand, you must
just roll with it, move on and treat my mum or Thilanga uncle the way they want to be treated: a.k.a. the platinum rule in Sheryl Sandberg and Adam Grant's Option B.
2:00 a.m.
If you try to help some dude, you just get into trouble. These people here are culturally different to me. This much is crystal clear. It's best to avoid any discussion on politics or religion tactically like
the plague, I'll just start telling these guys in my family, that I anyway only add new solutions as politics, I can't take part in any religious activities as Thilanga uncle's said I'm not a Buddhist a long time ago,
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2:15 a.m.
starting with the freedom to stay away from any activities where I have to meet people I don't like. These people, i don't enjoy their company, i don't see any interesting content, they're weird like those █████████Amish ██████
you see in Avicii's Wake Me Up movie. That's all there is to it. My loyalty shouldn't stay with these guys. These people are wicked. They're bad guys. They sleep without mosquito nets because they must punish themselves.
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7:45 p.m.
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