Wed 8 Apr
9:45 p.m.
Today I got a lot of distressing flashbacks. I remembered I'm a trauma patient. I have a lot on my conscience. It's a guilty conscience. I'll be okay. This is a good way to calibrate and cool down. I'll be okay. It's just bad PTSD.
10:00 p.m.
I'm getting sleepy. I'm in hell. I don't belong here. These people here are all damned. I think I'll be okay. I've just been through a lot. People here are anyway being punished painfully. I'm not that bad off. I'm doing pretty well.
It's just PTSD, flashbacks and conscience. The Covid-19 might be distressing me because of how uncertain business is right now. I'll manage somehow. It must've just exacerbated things.
10:15 p.m.
███████████████████████████████████ ██████████████████████████ ██████████████████████████████ They're lesser. They murdered innocent people. For each murder, they need to pay disproportionately. █████████████████████████████████ ████████████
█████████████████████████████████ Nobody respects him. His brother separated the business. He's on the ropes. It's probably staged. But he'll pay. █████████████████████████████████ Everyone pays. I just hope it happens quickly.
Slow justice is really annoying. Justice delayed is justice denied. ███████████████████████ They're actually worse off alive. It must be hell to be them. I survived this nightmare country. I'll be okay. Sandalal is out of People's Bank.
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10:30 p.m.
Yes. I must only help do G-d's work. I mustn't really go to curse. I have to look at things properly. I must let G-d dish out karma. I have little faith in G-d after Job. But I mean, whatever. G-d will punish the wicked.
██████████████████████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ You must deal with them. G-d needs us to deal with real problems. ███████████████████████████████████ ██████████████████████████████████████████
10:45 p.m.
I'm going to stop watching Final Destination 3. I didn't watch. Scary movies creep me out. I hate that s***. I don't know. When it's sunny and there's sun shine only I watch horror movies. I'm very scared, I'm a little girl on the inside.
I'm going to watch American History X. I think it's a nice movie about hate. I think it's what G-d would want for me to see. It's about overcoming hate. Oh s*** it's black and white. F*** this s***. Oh, it's a part of the movie. Cool. I'll go to sleep halfway through this.