JFK, War Guilt, and the Kids Movies
பிப்ரவரி 9, 2022
I watch leadership and war documentaries, remember old pain and old friends, then zigzag through pop culture and children's films while my mind keeps trying to impose justice. The conflict is empathy versus fury, the stake is what I become under stress, and the payoff is staying awake to the cost of 'winning'.
Remembering a Rugby Tackle and Comparing Myself to Rifles
1:15 p.m.
(b)
I remember elbow rugby tackle body slamming this dude in Singapore. This guy reminds me of him. He was on the floor, I thought he was going to die. He started crying in Singapore, I picked him up, it wasn't that bad, he was upset.
I think, I am more like a M16. A lot of big guys, the fat f-cks, they are like the AK47. Bigger rounds, larger size, very fat, loud.
I have a very high muzzle velocity. So, I'm more lethal. I'd pick a M16 over an AK47, any day, but honestly, I am more an HK 416.
Describing Someone’s Ruined Reputation, Debts and Failed Business
5:00 p.m.
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Sing 2’s Animation, My Script and Anger at Oscar Voters
5:30 p.m.
This is a good movie. The animation, it has come a long way from Toy Story. Illumination, not Pixar or Disney, have made this beauty.
I think anyway, my script is pretty good. I think it is lacking in entertainment value because otherwise it would be too disturbing.
In this ugly, sad world, sadly, the fact of this tragic matter is that if DiCaprio had made Wolf of Wall Street a drama with Scorsese, people were unhappy, that it was basically a conjob, that they were doing awful things, captured the misery, then, and only then, would they have won an Oscar.
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Considering Forgiveness While Expecting Consequences
6:30 p.m.
Lotta Covid-19 souls might be here too
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Piracy Traffic, Telecom Data and International Server Control
7:00 p.m.
We have access to ISPs/ telcos, so we know that there is very high traffic.
In fact, bandwidth allocations for piracy, torrents, are very high percentages of downloads in comparison. This is very wrong to ignore or neglect.
It's important for me to be honest and draw attention to this technology / consumer phenomenon.
I think that when US shuts down servers, what goes wrong, is Russia, China, open up servers, controlling international data traffic.
Remembering Megaupload, an Adult Video and the FBI Raid
7:00 p.m.
(d)
I remember this website, Mega Upload, I think I could stream back then on there, I think I recall seeing Alison ████, a Hungarian, in the bathtub.
Beautiful ███████!
The FBI Raided His House With The Anti-Terrorist Squad... | Kim Dotcom
Souls, Death and Why Children’s Stories Need Conflict
7:30 p.m.
This is extremely deep for a children's movie.
It's very clever. It explores death. Souls. These complex issues that are very tough to discuss.
Is the soul immortal? What happens when you die? Is it controlled by G-d or something else, is G-d some kind of super admin we can't fathom?
Are there different universes or dimensions? Specifically, can you have people in dimension 3 eff things up for dimension 4?
This says yes.
In Buddhism, there are many realms. 4 hells or heavens. There are hungry ghost spirits realm, this is the exact same as Islam's Djinn.
In Kabballah, although, NOT in Judaism, they say, that you have angels and demons, spirits.
It's understood through algebra, if this, then that, if they had 3 kids, then how did this end with 2 kids, things like that.
There's a lot of wool over the eyes.
If you look at the good side, then, you have G-d, and his angels, fighting a spiritual realm war. Then you have Samael, or Satan, or G-d's dark side, as G-d created Satan, and therefore, they are a facet of G-d, that is doing the bad stuff.
When anyone, including me, writes a script, you see, that there is no story without an adversary, without some kind of bad thing that happens.
If in Jurassic Park, they go to a dinosaur theme park, what would happen?
They create dinosaurs, the T Rex comes out to eat the sheep, the kids and adults scream, they are in awe, they saw a lion eat a goat, then, the T Rex tries to break through the fence, the electric fence zaps him or her, and then it goes back.
The hacker, is caught, they prosecute the rival firm for trying to steal secrets, they better protect their secrets and DNA, they don't suffer a security lapse.
We can call it "Dinosaur Park" and the original, "Jurassic Park", exact same scenes minus the horror, then it wouldn't be successful as people love blood.
Explaining Complicated Spiritual Ideas With Movie Footnotes
7:45 p.m.
It's not possible for children, even parents, to go into a movie theatre, and even know, what this stuff is.
Crown chakra? This is in yoga or Hinduism or Buddhism or Kabbalah.
What you should do, then, is drop a leaflet like, umm, General LeMay, lol, or a small note that explains this stuff, but I don't know.
I worry even in my own movie, some things are complicated, even the songs, so I put in the footnotes, that explain everything.
Karma, Free Will, Religious Labels and School Discipline
8:15 p.m.
The idea of eternal damnation, it is not, exactly, eternal, because we are all eternally damned.
This cat, is a person, so this means, a soul is put into the cat's body.
What about if it is a fish? Or a shark? Or a Japanese boat that goes sharking? Or a customer in a Chinese restaurant enjoying shark fin soup?
What then?
It's similar to, Prince's (Tom Cruise's) faith in Scientology (Jehovah's witness), you have that whole, auditing therapy.
If you have, negative points, do you have to be born or punished as a shark x 10 times?
Buddha often spoke of many eons.
But this is not fair either.
See, if you are a shark, you cannot help your programming, you can't expect a lion not to eat meat, although it remains to be seen if you can feed a lion false protein meat that is lab grown.
Despite millions of years of evolution, mind you.
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So, taking out the debits and credits book.
5 x kills of antelope
But then, this means, the see saw of karma, will be, that the lion, must be reborn 5 x times to die?
Well, that's defeatist Hinduism.
Buddhists say otherwise. They say you can improve. But I disagree with Stephen LaBrooy, as it's a big gap in Buddhist theology.
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If someone has free will, how come, then, they will still have to do what they will have to do?
What is free will? If LeBron plays basketball, or I write here, what then? I can say, I had free will. But that's not the long and short, or the end of it.
I did what I did, because it was supposed to happen.
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Is it really good or bad karma? Is it a good or bad mark?
See, the reason I never really liked schools, the way they are organized, the prefects, the head boy, the positive marks, negative marks, 5 bad points and you get a detention, 3 detentions and suspension is because it's very stupid.
Those people who did well in school have all failed, they haven't achieved anything, the ones who were bright, they went to Harvard, they got nothing, they achieved nothing.
Me, I didn't go to school. I think I won. But how? Why didn't they let Elizabeth II go to school?
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Hahaha
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These karma points, they don't really add up, as you might expect them to.
Playing “Tom’s Life” and Inventing a Criminal Biography
10:15 p.m.
Me and Mikey, we played "Tom's Life" growing up, we draw faces, add Tom's age and then his mischief.
7 -- Kills ants
15 -- Truancy
19 -- Hits school principal
24 -- sells weed
29 -- tries, then gets addicted to heroin
35 -- kills a dirty cop who sells heroin
37 -- goes to jail for lesser crime
45 -- gets out of jail early for good behavior
51 -- builds a criminal empire
65 -- shot by rival gang boss
Annoying Dialogue, Repeated Words and Preferring Simpler Language
10:30 p.m.
I hated how the criminal boss in Time, the TV show, he would always say "Okay" all the time.
It was so weird. It was so annoying.
Especially, I think Frances McDormand style fake Canadian accent use in Fargo -- Jeez!
I guess, I only use big words, creatively, because I don't like to re-use words all the time.
It is a tug rope, I think, I am torn in the middle on it, I think I like small words more.
No, it's a hang rope, I hang big words.
Sensory Overload, Mindfulness and Building a World of Live Diaries
1:45 a.m.
I think for me, I am like this high end camera, an Arri Alexa 65 LF, I pick up huge amounts.
It's the reason I crash and overheat.
Yesterday, I was watching Sing 2 and also Soul. I listen, I look, I think, I remember everything.
It's extremely taxing.
It's being mindful, as Buddha taught.
So, now, when i was looking at this.
She, says, that she wants to help you forget about "Lisa", and I immediately remembered, "Lisa" from the Soul movie, when Jamie Foxx, has her number saved in his phone secretly, which he didn't want 22 to find out or talk about.
In the same exact way, remember stuff I see, or hear, or write, and think or feel, or smell, I write it all down to help to process it.
It relieves a lot of stress to write things down.
I honestly, feel strongly, that Jonathan Hirshon is the ONLY person I feel safe with anymore, because he is also very open on Facebook.
I feel like he's got nothing to hide.
I know that some of the things I write are not very nice, i would not label it a personal idiosyncrasy, I do it because it's entertaining. I like it.
It's like Game of Thrones, Apprentice. I do it purposefully, it's done to make it all work.
When I write my script, it consumes a lot of energy, as it's never a lecture or some kind of presentation. It's true some information, I have recently added as a new component, is high on exposition/ explanation, but even this, it has all been converted.
This process of creatively converting content, the rendering process, is very, very emotionally and mentally taxing because it has to be perfect.
It might be why there's been a lot of added stress. Even this, I mean, it is not that bad.
These are just my journal entries.
I believe, if I am not wrong, I am the very first person in the world to do this.
That's the kind of world I want to live in. I want there to be no more lies, no more hiding, to be able to read people's diaries live, as they are written.
i know, that's the end world I want, I am working my way backwards to make it happen.
Piracy, Movie Access and Helping People Afford Films
2:00 a.m.
(b)
I can pay for and I find DVDs of these new movies at our house, as we buy them, but I like to show I can pirate as a hacker to draw attention to it.
I also want the country to be able to buy these movies or rent them. These are good recommendations.
If they can't afford it, we will try to help out, and they can pirate for now, until they can.
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