Sunday 13th, February.
12:00 a.m.
I am watching Reacher TV show. I am downloading 1883. I hear it's really good, 9 or something on IMDb. I am distressed. I took 45 mg of Mirtazapine. I think i am going to sleep in the middle of my bed tonight instead of the edge like I usually prefer.
I have ███████ (terror attack) flashbacks. I am hurt by it. I don't believe I'm capable of forgiving. But I will not do anything to her or to her family. I think I can only investigate the people around her that have caused the mess. It's very annoying. █████████████████████████████████████████
I am going to spend today, just resting, just relaxing. I would really love to share updates. I might just do it. I don't know. Today, as it's 13th today, as of this morning, I will try to get more Mirtazapine. It helps me deal with the huge anxiety that ███████, and her people caused.
I think I consider myself very lucky because others, innocent Christians praying in their churches on 2019 April 21st, they also foolishly decided to trust a Muslim man named Zahran Hashim, letting him in. Those people, they all ended up blown to bits, all murdered, so I'm lucky.
I am extremely annoyed, sad and deeply disappointed in recommendations that businesses discriminately hire Muslim women leaders. I feel it is not a good practice. I don't think it's fair to make suggestions such as this to employers. It is something I resent personally.