Confession at 2:00 PM: Fear, Regret, and Why I Kept Writing

ஜனவரி 6, 2025

7:00 PM

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7:15 PM

Even when our attorney general proposes very strict legal measures for people who commit crimes, I understand that it is often motivated by concern for the suffering experienced by victims.

Harsher penalties can have a stronger deterrent effect, particularly on potential copycats who might consider committing similar offenses.

When people see examples from historical or religious figures like Muhammad, they may conclude it is better to refrain from wrongdoing.

I admire aspects of Prophet Muhammad's █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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I'd say to Bob Iger that I felt the Aladdin remake's change altered the story's portrayal of severe consequences, though portrayals in family films should be handled thoughtfully.

Even if we don't pursue that approach

Even if we choose not to

I respect Muhammad's character for █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████.

If more people embodied the virtues I see in Muhammad, communities might be more unified and principled.

I feel that many politicians lack the resolve needed for leadership; I believe leaders should be prepared to make difficult, responsible decisions.

I also note King Leopold II as an example of a historical leader who employed ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
Story
8:15 PM

I feel ill
Story
10:15 PM

Snoop Doggy Dogg on the stereo!

: )

I love his scene in San Andreas; I remember him mopping the floor.

In that fast food joint?

It made me smile.

Cluckin' Bell
10:30 PM

I would like to use the Ranasinghe Premadasa Cricket Stadium for the Paintball Gladiator event we're organizing.

I'm considering alternative names, such as Paintball Challenge.

Or Paintball Battle Royale, as a sporting format.

We need transparent barriers and balloons, but some of the middle or outer sections will be opaque to provide strategic cover.

I love paintball events.

I hope events like this can bring people together and encourage dialogue, including among those connected to leaders such as Putin and Zelensky.

I think it's the fairest competition we can have.

Where participants' teamwork and skills are tested in a safe, controlled environment.

It will be a real competition.

It will be Bigger than F1 or Cricket or NBA or FIFA.

Just like how Call of Duty or GTA always seem to outperform sports games
11:45 PM

Amitabh Bachan: I saw a bollywood movie, he goes to the US.

The customs official, immigration control, asks him: What's the purpose of your visit?

Bachan responded: I am here to build your economy.

Because he's a tourist, there in your shopping mall country, to pay you.

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I am amazed how people wear hats.

These hats become masks.

They then, feeling they can't be caught, take advantage of others.

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What hurts me about ████ was the way they pretended to be there out of good will — the insincere kindness they showed.

While carrying out attacks that harmed civilians, including children, they positioned themselves.

They would have mentioned ██████ now, they would have mentioned or blamed█████████████████████then, or anything else.

You can always blame people. You can find fault with anyone, with anything.

The 1,000s of pages of the █████, the several ███████ — they are all skipped past.

And all non Muslims only seem to hear about █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████emerges in that conversation, before they leave, and ████.

And it's absurd.

The 1 in 4 people on earth, the stability, the progress, the net good — it doesn't seem to register.

This idea of us versus them, like childhood chase games… it has serious consequences.

It's not at all acceptable.

This idea — this mask, this hat — red hat or blue team, white or black hat, or grey hat pen testing — it's childish.

It's not going to help anyone.

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Why not use games like Call of Duty, or Command and Conquer, to play with people from different sides, or with someone your own size, like ██████?

You can link up your xbox with LAN ethernet cables, and play multiplayer.

Or how about a friendly game of paintball?

Go ask any classroom: take off the hats, the labels — ask whether it's correct.

They will probably form a better UN than some current leaders.

They aren't a UN, they're a Divided Nations — with factions, warring upon the other, seeking anything but understanding.
3:00 AM

I'm going to bed soon.

I'll take care of some business tomorrow.

My body feels a bit achy.
Story
3:00 AM (b)

Yay!!

I really dislike Justin Trudeau.

I feel a bit amused.

I find some of his actions puzzling.

He often frustrates me.

Why does he keep doing that?

Please stop bothering me.
3:30 AM

I think the reason why I will get for ████ is because I already promised Anders Povlsen.

███████████has affirmed my authenticity (I hope); he met the victims as he is a Catholic.

, and I allege █████ is a financier of ████████ with alleged , which I believe involved assistance that enabled her to avoid accountability with the .

That situation may have led figures like ████████ to oppose me.

I used to go to All Saints Church with friends like Asita and his mother, and I strongly oppose █████████ and support firm measures against those responsible.

I really don't see a legitimate reason for █████ to take action.

With me, there would be a no-tolerance approach.

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There is also no absolute dependency on me.

I use online voting courts so people can also choose outcomes.

I might step in to protect some people.

Namely, █████, as he was then PM.

I feel he behaved inappropriately by when ████████████████████' report on the ██████████████ was released.

All Ranil seemed to do was sigh with relief and express that he had not been implicated.

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What you get from me is a straightforward plan — and the nerve to own the outcome.

Yes, I have attended All Saints.

I stopped attending because .

I am concerned about the treatment of Christians, and I don’t want to add to anyone’s discomfort — which is why I stopped going to Jerome’s service with Sandesh: .

Two uncles, who are leading Buddhists, are unhappy that someone prominent in the family is a Christian; . That’s how it is.

But I have attended — and I can imagine myself among the victims.

I can picture Asita, who was very fatherly to me and taught me economics when I had low attendance while coping with ████████████████████████. He helped me, like Sarah Nazeem, to regain a sense of normalcy. He also once drove me home with his mother.

I am very hurt to see that children and innocent people were killed or injured; it’s easy for me to picture myself or my friends there. I often sit in the front or middle pews alongside Asita’s mother, a maiden Edirisinghe, while Asita plays the organ.

It angers me that attackers, , could come here and harm our people.

And I’ll say the quiet fear out loud: the main concern about me is that I’m an “overcorrection” — — which may be a reason not to vote for me.
4:00 AM

When I am empowered by a constitution that grants broad authority and makes me feel beyond consequence, I will start a sustained campaign against crime and work to reduce it by lawful means.
4:15 AM

Sorry

I'm just

Frustrated

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I

Just

I don't know

I got angry

Thinking about it

How it would be if I was in 4/21

Or if I were in church on 4/21

I don't wake up in the mornings

I am a night owl

I take my ███████████ at night

Sleep all day like that Yellowcard song

Ocean Avenue

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I feel intense anger toward the Islamic State

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They are not

I struggle with the idea of people who commit those acts; I want them to be held accountable and face justice

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I am just angry, and having angry thoughts; I'll calm down

I'm upset at the thought of my friends being killed

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I strongly dislike ISIS

I wish there were effective measures to stop them

I wish Bush were back, or something; I liked him

I think my dad is big on John Kerry

But I borrowed Decision Points off Thilanga's library, and I see George W Bush as a significant international leader for disarming Iraq

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I can see how, if I was paramotoring, which is what they did on October 7, and I was on the beach, peaceful and happy, and I saw three members of █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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4:30 AM

I am very glad, Biden, that this person called Sleepy Joe is leaving.
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