5:45 p.m.

Whatever

I guess Julie isn't that bad

She did "topple Gota" (unverified rumors I saw on social media comments), and our side received over 65% of the votes

Even if Anura won with 35% because Ranil and Sajith split the vote

She isn't the worst

***

Plus, I mean, maybe ██████████████████ isn't for me; I don't prefer that

I didn't actually encounter any ███████████ in Singapore, even though I could have

Because I simply don't like that

***

Also, God isn't so bad

Even Obama, despite being a Democrat, said that the shooting was wrong

No one anywhere said it was acceptable

Not even Iran, ████, or some of the harshest Trump critics

I think even Rosie O'Donnell didn't

***

Just be calm.

Plus I did get a lot of help

I'm probably angry; maybe memories of ████ are playing up, my heart's racing because of ████████████████ and imagining I could have been harmed

It's best to calm down

Those events make many people angry too

And I think the ████████████, some of them lost faith too

I felt the same

You should stay strong and try to see the good as well

Those responsible may have been funded, and I hope they are held accountable

There are probably people who display framed photographs of ██████, ███████████████, or █████ in their homes

I saw █████ framed in Udesh's room as a dark joke

He thought it was funny as a teenager

I distanced myself

Just be patient

They are not laughing now, after that

***

Just

Stop

The rage

I think anger is natural

I shouldn't retraumatize myself

Just think of something else, like my cat, whom my sister looks after so I don't have to clean up after her

Just be positive

***

Jokes that depict ████████████ are very upsetting and inappropriate

Even though extremist groups like ████ provoke so much, this is just a diary; I don't plan to act on it

I might feel that way

I'm angry at them and sometimes struggle with feeling restrained by my faith

But I won't act on ████████████████

If you fight fire with fire, it can make things worse; it usually doesn't help

But if you fight fire with water, you extinguish those flames