Confession Hour and Inner Fights: Ivanka, Currency Portraits, and the Inauguration Doubt That Hardened

ஜனவரி 19, 2025

5:30 PM

People sometimes quote Jesus with lines like, ████████████████████████████████████████████████ and I don’t read that as something to take literally or copy into real life.

To me, it lands more like

I’m not even fully sure what “euphemism” means, but I think it’s

like saying, “You ought to be ashamed of yourself,” if someone is doing a ██████████, ████████████████████, while working as a school teacher in CIS.

Or, “you should go to jail!”

Or a blunt, over-the-top line like, █████████████████████████████████

or even the kind of ugly exaggeration people say when they’re angry, like, ██████████████████████████████████████

I see it as hyperbole, the same way some quotes say,

Because attraction is common, and most people are not literally trying to live by extreme imagery.

In that same spirit, ███████████████████████ treat sexuality through a ██████████.

as and explain it in ways I don’t fully agree with, often tying it to simplistic stories about why someone might feel that way.

People sometimes bring up like as an example, and then try to explain other people’s sexuality through confidence, status, or health.

And people also point to closed environments, like ███████, and argue that confinement can shape behavior when there are limited outlets and limited choices.

On schools and society, I’ve talked with ███████████████████ about mixing boys and girls more thoughtfully at places like ███████████████████████, and I’ve said I’d like that for schools in ███ if I ever had the power to do it.

My aim there is simple: reduce loneliness, reduce pressure, and help teenagers grow up with healthier, normal friendships.

At the same time, I recognize that , , and because that’s who they are.

For me personally, , and I haven’t acted on .

When I write about sexuality, I’m trying to separate fantasy from real life, and I also notice when I slip into — like , , and the aside about██████████ — which I don’t think reads well in public.

So I’m choosing to keep anything explicit out of the public version, and I don’t want to describe or in a general-audience post.

If I’m honest, part of why those ideas show up in drafts is that some people find “hot,” but that doesn’t mean it belongs in a clean, publishable entry.

The safest version of what I’m trying to say is that I can be charming and disarming when I speak, and I’m aware my voice can feel soothing and calming.

I used to compare that vibe to cartoon references, like , but I think it’s clearer to just say: my voice can read softer or more “girly,” not “gay,” and those are different things.

There is a difference, and I don’t want to █████████████████████.

Technically, my voice has a natural pitch or resonance around ███ or so (higher feels bad to me), and I can deepen it down to ███ or ███ if I focus, even though it’s tough.

I once heard people say ██████████ has a similar issue, but I don’t actually know his situation, so ██████████████████████████████

On the religious quote side, it’s also possible that people are repeating what they think Jesus said, not necessarily what he said.

And it’s true that institutions like the ███████████████ shaped what survived, how it was copied, and how it was taught across centuries.

Texts also moved through ███████████, and meaning can shift in that process, which is part of why I try to stay humble about certainty.

In █████████████████, Jesus is described as ██████████████████████████, with ████ being fully human.

So the story presents him as divine in origin but living a real human life in human flesh.

███████ often find that confusing, because they accept the ████████████ but don’t accept ████████████ language.

When people argue about the virgin birth, they sometimes bring up and , but I don’t think graphic anatomical discussion is necessary or respectful here.

What I mean more simply is: the tradition claims ██████████████████████████████████████████████, and that claim became central to belief and debate.

Sometimes my writing also slips into dramatic, cliffhanger language — like saying ████████████████████████████████ tied to █████ — and I can see how that reads as sensational rather than calm.

And when I reference events like ████████████ at a golf club, and I mention details like █████████████████████, I’m reacting to how dangerous things can be, not trying to state verified security facts.

From a faith perspective, ███████ reason that a baby requires a father, so they interpret the origin as █████████, or an ███████████████████, rather than human parentage.

Some of the confusion also comes from the variations among ████████████████ ████████ encountered, and the way different communities explained Jesus’s nature in different terms.

When I compare it to , I’m trying to communicate “demigod” language, but I understand that’s a myth analogy, not a strict theological proof.

The core point I’m reaching for is: if Jesus lived in the physical world, he would have had real human limits, including suffering and death, in the story as told.

Circling back to sexuality: I’m choosing to remove , including and , because that’s not appropriate for a general 14+ audience.

And I’m also removing any ; curiosity about the body or intimacy can be expressed without explicit details.

I know some girls might misread my personality — like me preferring cooking and being closer in vibe to ██████ than ██████ — and then █████████████████ for being platonic.

But my view is simple: I judge friendship quality based on mutual interests like cooking or baking cake, and I can have respectful, platonic ties with people without turning everything into sex — so that’s the tone I want to keep here.

Story
11:30 PM

She uses wix or something

I do my own coding with python3, even if I'm not always perfect

I will always code and program, so in 20 - 30 years...

I'll be very skilled at it

I consider myself among the more technologically literate public figures

I would say, LHL comes close; I focus more on higher-tech applications engineering

But Chamath would likely exceed me in certain areas

A challenge in tech has been Facebook's use of PHP under Zuck

And Larry and Sergey used Java for Google

While I use Python, it has its own challenges

I guess Python is a higher-level language compared with C or C++

Insta, for example, was bought by FB

I also saw Instagram have some outages, whereas FB's PHP-based systems handled load differently

Wordpress is, I think, PHP based too

So newer isn't always better

TikTok is most likely Python, which even cousin Chadu can code in; we were discussing chatgpt AI APIs that Yasendra set up

I think TikTok uses Python because I saw i18n-related .py files for internationalization settings

Which I have used too

My server experienced many attacks, so it was set up more to withstand attacks than to serve

I also disabled many features to reduce the attack surface, such as disabling search, WSGI, and other components

In highschool, like the Bowling for Soup song and Bill Gates, I joined the chess club, but I think I would have done better starting a "Computer Club" at Colombo International School

I like technology, especially with AI assistance

I can miss small typos, which AI can detect better, saving weeks, months, or at least hours of frustration

I think in web design, beauty doesn't always equate to effectiveness; often more utilitarian sites like Alibaba or Wordpress can outperform visually polished sites built with tools like Wix or some leading brands

I admire Chat GPT's breakaway staffers who formed a simple one-page HTML website with no CSS

I love simplicity

There isn't fancy tech, animation, or sound on my blog or diary, but it's still effective because of its simplicity

There is advanced technology here and a lot of entertainment, music, and strategic value

Behind the curtain, you can see the work that goes into it — like the Wizard of Oz

A lot goes into the final product you find here!

: )

Story
4:30 AM

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5:15 AM

I feel ███████████████████████████████████████████████ because of actions I believe were directed at me.

However, I understand more fully that these actions may have originated from influences linked to █████████████ or some other source, which I see as the root cause.

You must always see two sides, both sides, of a story; if it's true, then there must have been a real reason that those two believed was worth it.

I have ended my relationship with ████████████████ permanently because we were unable to achieve what we intended.

I am planning to formally leave my ███████████████████████ soon, because I do not see a future with it.

I have not enjoyed my experience, so I will not continue.

I do not follow ██████████████████ and do not pursue relationships within ██████████████████████████.

I avoid interacting with ██████████████ and generally refrain from engaging with the buddhist faith to avoid confusion.

I have not been intimate with █████████████. I asked her out and she declined. I am not in a relationship with her. I may reconsider my options and either find another partner or come to an arrangement that works better for me.

I experience ██████████████████████████████████. Having experienced ████████████████, I have low trust in others; I often feel uncomfortable, form judgments about people's intentions, and sometimes act on those assumptions.

I do not believe a relationship with █████████████ would work.

I believe I can begin processing some ████████████████████ today and sell them to raise funds to support my business.