I Hit Depression Drag Midweek, and Even Small Tasks Felt Impossible

February 12, 2020

Depression and body drag sat on everything, and even basic eating, moving, and working felt heavy while I tried to manage low mood, bad memories, and the fear that I was sinking again.

10:30 AM

Wed 12 Feb

10:15 a.m.

I woke up early. I was dehydrated. I drank plain tea and ate sweet potatoes or yams or something. They're cleaning my water bottle. It's got soap in it now, it'll take some time. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I was thinking I need to love my Muslim friends. They're really great. They've done many good things for me. They're loyal. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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I'm lucky I got some bottles of wine. I'm going to work hard to try sell these. I'm going to try get a liquor import permit. I'll try to use some business who has one otherwise. I'll use support from my mum and uncles Thilanga and Jagath.

10:30 a.m.

11:30 a.m.

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12:00 p.m.

█████████████████████████ I'm on my laptop editing our company website. I took off the ratings of bank security scores. I need to work on that later.

3:00 p.m.

I had lunch. I kept the 6 samples in the fridge. I wrote to the market leader asking if we can cooperate on Sri Lanka. I think it may very well work. I'm excited. I like how I'm working hard and enjoying myself. I probably won't open the bottles and enjoy by myself.

7:15 p.m.

7:30 p.m.

I think I remember we played in the pool. We played cricket. He taught me how to drive. He built a treehouse for me. We had nice birds. We went on the boat and fishing. We had a lot of good memories too. Actually, he wasn't that bad.█████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

9:45 p.m.

2:00 PM

Lol 😋🍴 hope those friends of your kids had a good meal.. I wish you met my grandma, you could've shared recipes..

6:15 PM

7:15 PM

We can use their technology -- they're loyal friends

8:15 PM

Thank you for taking action

8:15 PM (b)

Thank you so much..

8:15 PM (c)

I don't understand how Singapore gets leaders like you and India gets leaders like that

8:15 PM (d)

You gotta monitor the 300 for 1 month, to ensure they're not sick

8:15 PM (e)

You gotta watch the 300 for symptoms, as it can take up to a month to show any signs

8:15 PM (f)

Wed 12 Feb

8:15 p.m.

Exhibit 5. Hell

Life is a hell. This world's a hell. This entire world's a nightmare.

https://youtu.be/6eHKkxcQYU4

8:30 PM

Wed 12 Feb

8:15 p.m.

Okay, so, I'm just feeling stress because of Dialog's Synack deal and having to meet Sampath Bank tomorrow. It's all. It's just stress. Plus, I got triggered reading ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

8:30 p.m.

Jeez, I need to be positive. I'm going to block some██████who's replied to a comment on Pujana's post. I just don't feel safe around. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

8:45 p.m.

9:30 p.m.

10:00 p.m.

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