I Hit Depression Drag Midweek, and Even Small Tasks Felt Impossible

February 12, 2020 Lehan Edirisinghe

Depression and body drag sat on everything, and even basic eating, moving, and working felt heavy while I tried to manage low mood, bad memories, and the fear that I was sinking again.

Rejecting Anti-Muslim Hatred and Facing a Private Struggle

Wed 12 Feb

10:15 a.m.

I woke up early. I was dehydrated. I drank plain tea and ate sweet potatoes or yams or something. They're cleaning my water bottle. It's got soap in it now, it'll take some time. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I was thinking I need to love my Muslim friends. They're really great. They've done many good things for me. They're loyal. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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I'm lucky I got some bottles of wine. I'm going to work hard to try sell these. I'm going to try get a liquor import permit. I'll try to use some business who has one otherwise. I'll use support from my mum and uncles Thilanga and Jagath.

10:30 a.m.

11:30 a.m.

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12:00 p.m.

█████████████████████████ I'm on my laptop editing our company website. I took off the ratings of bank security scores. I need to work on that later.

3:00 p.m.

I had lunch. I kept the 6 samples in the fridge. I wrote to the market leader asking if we can cooperate on Sri Lanka. I think it may very well work. I'm excited. I like how I'm working hard and enjoying myself. I probably won't open the bottles and enjoy by myself.

7:15 p.m.

7:30 p.m.

I think I remember we played in the pool. We played cricket. He taught me how to drive. He built a treehouse for me. We had nice birds. We went on the boat and fishing. We had a lot of good memories too. Actually, he wasn't that bad.█████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

9:45 p.m.

Wishing the Children’s Friends a Good Meal

Lol 😋🍴 hope those friends of your kids had a good meal.. I wish you met my grandma, you could've shared recipes..

Remembering Childhood Cruelty and Calling for Better Protection

Proposing the Use of Loyal Friends’ Technology

We can use their technology -- they're loyal friends

Thanking Someone for Taking Action

Thank you for taking action

Saying Thank You So Much

Thank you so much..

Comparing Singapore’s Leaders With India’s

I don't understand how Singapore gets leaders like you and India gets leaders like that

Calling for a Month of Monitoring 300 People

You gotta monitor the 300 for 1 month, to ensure they're not sick

Watching 300 People for Delayed Symptoms

You gotta watch the 300 for symptoms, as it can take up to a month to show any signs

Calling Life and the World Hell

Wed 12 Feb

8:15 p.m.

Exhibit 5. Hell

Life is a hell. This world's a hell. This entire world's a nightmare.

https://youtu.be/6eHKkxcQYU4

Dark Thoughts, Stress and Feeling Better

Wed 12 Feb

8:15 p.m.

Okay, so, I'm just feeling stress because of Dialog's Synack deal and having to meet Sampath Bank tomorrow. It's all. It's just stress. Plus, I got triggered reading ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

8:30 p.m.

Jeez, I need to be positive. I'm going to block some██████who's replied to a comment on Pujana's post. I just don't feel safe around. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

8:45 p.m.

9:30 p.m.

10:00 p.m.

පෙර දිනය ඊළඟ දිනය

I Hit Depression Drag Midweek, and Even Small Tasks Felt Impossible

February 12, 2020 · Lehan Edirisinghe

February 12, 2020 Lehan Edirisinghe