Islam-Biden Mood Swings, Rage Analysis, and Repair Attempts

SUNDAY, OCTOBER 25, 2020

Part 2

5:30 a.m.

I was reading the part 1 entry. I was laughing. It's ridiculous. I have black humour. I laugh at myself, I don't take myself too seriously, I thought it was hilarious.

It's not cool. It's not good. But it's funny for me to read my own ignorant ideas and hateful, hateful views. It's all bullshit. I can't believe it though.

I need to hire and protect the minorities, I must do all of those things heroically. I have vision to see this place like Israel or Singapore, a California in the Indian Ocean.

I don't understand myself. I don't understand how I have ambivalence. I'm like a quantum computer. I have a 1 and a 0 at the same time. I see both sides. Honestly, I think that's better.

It's better for the world. It's good I can understand other perspectives. I know if more people were like me, we'd have empathy in abundance, unconditional empathy, we'd have life on Mars.

I shouldn't delete or edit or self censor my hate speech. I should keep it here. I want to learn from it. Saying people are terrorists is pretty f***ed up and hurtful and just unacceptable.

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5:45 a.m.

It's likely the contempt is the cause. The contempt must stem from some sort of input source. The contempt of Islam must be from my constant observation of Israeli Defence Forces content. Or my personal racism -- chicken or egg first style, a predestination paradox.

Maybe I believe Islam is bad and then whenever i get information, i only accept the information that serves my belief and i reject any information contrary to my beliefs. This is a self serving bias.

For example, I will magnify and look at the Easter Sunday terrorist attacks that killed 300 people or the 9/11 attacks, carried out by 5 Muslims pretty much or 40 people altogether.

I'll then discount, downplay or disregard, be completely oblivious and reject the fact that millions upon millions and billions of Muslims are very cool. 100s are my friends for years.

All of that is forgotten, only the terrorist attacks and racist beliefs are allowed to remain. It's disgusting. It's not fair. It's wrong. I should try to defeat it.

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6:00 a.m.

F***. I like Biden again. I get the feeling, a few hours later, I'll be rooting for Trump again. Jesus f***ing Christ.

I haven't ill treated a Tamil or Muslim or Foreigner or Burgher or Communist or a Traitor. I've shown respect, I've hired, I've trusted, I've been kind.

I've helped everyone. I haven't hurt anyone and I never will because I'll just publicly declare any stupidity and overcome it.

I'm watching Utopia (2020) tv show. It's beautifully disturbing and frightening.

12:30 p.m.

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There was a big guy who was chasing after me. Marlon Ferreira. Or someone. The situation got bad. My mum and brother or someone ran away and we got trapped, so my mum came back to get me, we all got killed. They were jealous.

2:30 p.m.

I had lunch. I had coconut water and flesh. I'm a little stressed out.

I think I should write a book about Islam and defend them. I'll write everything down. I'll protect them. I'll save them. I'll be a good writer. I can help these people.

It cannot be 5 and 7 as they are blocked.

Otherwise, 7 is filled up first.

It cannot be 1 because 1 leaks to 2 and 3. The leak stops the glass filling up fully.

It cannot be 2 and 3 because 2 leaks to 4 at 60% water mark and 3 leaks to 6 at 60% water mark.

3 will fill up faster than 2 by 1 because 3 gets liquid beer before 2.

Therefore, 6 gets filled first.

Followed by 4, 3, 2 and 1.

I was happy, my masonic lodge in the UK, gave child cancer patients a teddy bear to hug. It helped them out.