1:15 a.m.
(b)
I should stop working on the website. I should stop reading these Holocaust diaries by Anne Frank or Rywka. I should pause the MasterClass.
I must take a break, I am a Buddhist, despite my insistence I am not a Buddhist at times, I must relax. I am overloading myself. It is mental exhaustion.
1:30 a.m.
I will just relax for today/ Monday, then Tuesday, Wednesday and then continue on Thursday. I think 3 days is enough. For these three days, I will stop worrying anxiously about Thilanga uncle, SL, cyber, business, ███████, whatever.
Three (3) days of rest. I will just watch the Crown. This is crazy. Lalith Kahatapitiya uncle's wife Indira aunty told me and my mum at Coco Veranda that a girl got mentally overloaded and died or something.
I must just stop. I must just relax. I write way too much. I give too much of myself. I must relax. I must breathe. I will relax. No Facebook Captain's Log entries for 3 days. I am surprised I am 40 kg. I will check weight tomorrow as well to confirm.
They should stick a feeding tube in my stomach, then feed me automatically. This is dangerous, it is disturbing. I am not anorexic, I am not bulimic, I eat my food. I might need to wake up more early to start eating breakfast.
I will get up tomorrow, write up a monthly meal plan. Then I will just relax. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████