2:15 p.m.
Due to the PTSD, (or CPTSD), I feel like "I am under attack" -- the adrenaline is pumping
https://youtu.be/-tIBJwgYEG8?t=52
I am in flight or fight or fright (Lehan) or freeze (Babette Rothschild) and it is scary
It is like my mind is on auto pilot
There is supposed to be a reptilian auto pilot brain, a mammalian limbic and then a higher neocortex
It is quite scary though because I do not fully understand how or why or what is setting this off
In Singapore, I would experience tumultuous difficulties during exam periods, I would go to see Joshua (what Jesus was really called) Kua--
at the Raffles Hospital because I could not cope with the stress
Now, I must be going through that, but have not really got any help at hand.
But I am staying cool I should be okay. It could be this █████████████s air conditioning unit
Or whatever, ███████, who should never have invaded and tried to infiltrate and betray us
Even if I speak with ██████, I have a right to do so
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2:15 a.m. ng, I will make a big real life musical about ita
