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Saturday, January 23rd, 2021

12:45 a.m

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1:00 a.m.

1:15 a.m.

1:45 a.m.

I feel a lot better now. I quickly saw I felt happier. It was in the past. I should not feel responsible for everything, everyone every time. I feel okay. Just normal. Not happy, not sad. I have adjusted. This stuff, this civil war stuff, it is in the past. There is a lot of potential. There is no real reason to be sad about anything. Plus, I did not see any blood, I saw only people on YouTube.

I think Sheryl Sandberg is doing some Facebook Live talk soon at 2:00 a.m. I should check it out. I draw a lot of inspiration from her, she taught me resilience. I want to be like her, I want to write a book, then publish and give it out for free to help people in SL heal and become tough and masters and bosses of life.

She is doing it at 2:30 a.m. I have time. She is Glinda from Wizard of Oz. Even though I am a guy, I like her a lot more as a leader than Lee Kuan Yew or Barack Obama or Donald Trump or anyone! She is a good person. I will also help a lot of people in SL. I know I can do it. A lot of people like me too, I am also becoming increasingly popular. Everyone seems to be enthralled by the stuff I write.

I have cast a spell on people! It is cool. I think a lot. I think (blowing my own trumpet) I love how honest, brave and how much empathy I have for everyone. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

2:00 a.m.

I will go and make myself a cup of tea. It really hurts me in the chest to think about the civil war in SL. I just cannot believe it happened. It was so unnecessary. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

2:15 a.m.

I dunno. It was not all bad. I am happy things improved. The Tamils are all safe and integrated now. What I want to do, is somehow find ways to deploy technologies to make things better. I am competitive, I want to see SL doing better. I am hurt there is a corrupt culture here, but it is good Thilanga uncle is helping in a limited capacity. I gotta write to James soon.

Can't wait, this Sheryl Sandberg show will start in 12 minutes at 2:30 a.m. I love to write. I never look at my keyboard. I type very fast too. I need to switch on a light, I hear it is bad to stare at a screen in the dark.

I was just hearing the song, "One Last Time" in Lin Manuel Miranda's Hamilton in my head. "George Washington's coming home... "

I love that song. Beautiful piece, Miranda is a genius!

Love it.

(I think I memorised some of the words unintentionally).

2:30 a.m.

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I am lucky I had two great psychiatrists Dr Trevor Friedman and Dr Joshua Kua in England and Singapore, respectively.

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I will fight G-d's battles and try to improve the situation in SL from my personal experiences and insights. I want to save people from suicides.

2:45 a.m.

3:00 a.m.

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The show finished. It was just 1 hour long. It was not that interesting. It was quite boring. I am feeling dehydrated and my chest is hurting. I feel regret that I chose to or was forced back here to SL. The problem is even if my family is doing well, there is a severe unwillingness to cooperate or achieve anything. There is a lot of dishonesty, lacking and low awareness.

I dunno. Maybe that is not entirely true. My mum, upon Jacques' suggestion, spoke with her brother Thilanga, he is somewhat expressing willingness to help, although, I get the impression he does not care or genuinely wish to do so.

4:15 a.m.

Will sleep. 45 mg Remeron

1:00 p.m.

I just woke up. I am still feeling sleepy. I have to do something about this James situation. I will work on this. I am writing a "plan" for him. I did not still get an apology, but I am sure he is sorry now..