I have to go get my lunch or breakfast. I must've missed some food. I am not sure. I lose my appetite, on 45mg of mirtazapine. I'm severely depressed. I was told, not to use 60mg, as it's an overdose, by a local doctor. She said it's risky. When I was walking in the garden, like 1 month ago. And I'm 40 - 45 kg. I sort of "fell". On the grass. I had also been sick. Maybe it was too much stress. But I suspect that drug had a role. Luckily, I hit the grass. So I had -- I noticed bruises, soil and grass on the elbows. I'd rolled over to the stone pavement. Trump uses Aspirin, it thins out his blood, it's not like, the "physician recommended" whatever. It's off label. I use mirtazapine cause it helps me cope. I haven't had many "flashbacks" -- but I have remembered horrors growing up. Since Jacques removed some camera on Jan 25, in 2025. It's been a lot easier. I don't want to talk about that right now. It's been written about in Jan, Feb and March 2025. But it might be heavily redacted or hidden. It'll be slowly released.
I might -- I released an awful lot of the JFK files equivalent of my diary. I mean since last time we published, we went up from, I dunno. 225,000 to 800,000 words. Or closer to 1 million words by me. I think there's 1m words. But a lot of it is hidden. We have hidden most of the 8m too. Because we want only the best to show. We haven't onboarded other writers YET. But we're getting there. We want cool, but entertaining writers. And we want to carve out a nice niche if you want to quote Rebenga's friend Tony Montana in Scarface.
