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3:30 AM on January 17

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Sat 18 Jan

3:15 a.m.

I'm thinking it's a good idea to use Sumathi Info Tech to market Sierra to enterprise customers. We're virtually unknown and we've been targeted, attacked and I think blacklisted due to personal opinions of ██████████████████at Union Bank (resigned) and NDB. It's not a big deal. But it's clever to use SIT to tackle these 2 and also NTB and People's Bank.

Dialog we may be able to protect by ourselves. But it's too much risk. I don't know Ruchira Yasaratne so well. That Sierra project probably won't work. This is because their CTO Pradeep most likely gave an instruction to not commit or do a conditional POC. It's likely bullshit. They're likely to be doing it to get a free service.

Still, I don't know for sure. It's hard to judge or perceive their true motives. For all I know, they may be being honest. I'll have to tell the story it's a pen test and I have to pay $10,000 for 150 hours of gruelling manual penetration testing to our expert security researchers who protected Telefonica O2, Etisalat and Saudi Telecom. I can use SIT's people to try persuade Dialog Axiata to pay for this. It's always generally good to consolidate with bigger companies like SIT.

The reason we got big is because we pay per project approved and we just appointed account managers to all 23 enterprise customers. So, we got 23 account managers. We got about 10 IT guys who can handle technical requirements who need work. It's how it happened.

3:30 a.m.

SIT isn't 100% trustworthy. They've dodged calls in the past. It's a tricky one. But it's better than nothing. Our company just needs good relationships, to close deals and revenue. We'll just use them.

I don't have a good opinion of ████████, the guy's not a good guy, he wants to fight. I don't think it's wise to have drama. I think it's better if it's just a one sided drama from him. We anyway do business with the institution. There's cheap, crazy people out there who are jealous and hateful. It's the way it is. He's probably just jealous and so, doesn't want to do his duty. There's always been plenty of people like him.

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Indrajith knows SLT group CIO Saman Perera. We can try to get a presentation done. I think he knows Rajeev at NDB, somebody at People's Bank, Sampath Bank's people, etc. I think everyone. They're the ones who work with them usually. I should use them. It's better than working with JIT or CIT as it's a family owned business. I think I need to step on the gas before SAT or other competitors become a problem.

3:45 a.m.

4:00 a.m.

I dunno. There's probably problems in every country. I think I learned. That's the important thing. Plus, I'm lucky I have people to work with on enterprise customers. This is a great way to get into the customers.

4:45 a.m.

I'm glad that I can write about my suffering over here on Facebook. I think I'll be okay. I have a lot of stuff and people on my side. I read about Othello's tragedy. There's drama. I need to just be wise and show compassion to everyone.

5:15 a.m.

I was thinking about how painful killing cows is. It's very painful. I hate the betrayal involved. I hate life. I hate how cruel the world is. I still eat beef. I tell myself this is the world. I feel sad about how Freemasons and Jews were murdered in WW2. It's a very cruel world.

5:30 a.m.

6:00 a.m.

I'm excited to get my first deal done. I'm impatient. I was thinking I need to never murder anybody, no matter what. This is key. I'm really sleepy or just tired. I struggle with sleep. I just get flashbacks and stuff all the time when stressed. It's a nightmare.

6:15 a.m.

I'm looking forward to getting business done with the banks. I started approaching Ashok Pathirage uncle. I hope it works on NDB. I think it's sad the place is not straightforward, but I'll just have to tolerate. There's no rule of law.

6:30 a.m.

I'm feeling sick. I have a slight cold developing. I was thinking of discontinuing relations with Aloka aunty, Raja uncle, Nayomi and Dilan. The reason is because I don't trust them. Raja uncle says one thing, but does something else. He's not loyal.

Why should I tolerate people like that? They anyway decided to escape Sri Lanka by going to the US although they didn't get why they escaped. They're Jagath uncle's friends. I dunno. Maybe, it's just meant to be that we end friendships. He's friends with Waruna and Sriyani aunt. I can't forgive them.

7:00 a.m.

For all I know, their approach makes sense. I gotta be tactful. But at the same time, I'm disappointed and sickened by how cheap they are as people. Why be friends with people who stole money from us? I hate people like that. I don't want them around. There's no telling when you can get lied to.

I sense that it's better to be friendly with Sriyani aunt or Waruna cousin, even just for face value. I don't know. It's a country which brings out the worst in people. It's a place where murder is nothing.

7:30 a.m.

I can't know for sure. I think I'll give them the benefit of doubt. I think I'll be okay. I was thinking about animal slaughter and karma and being reincarnated. I'm scared of it. I think it's just bullshit. I don't agree with Christians that animals don't have a spirit.

I think all animals have a spirit or Buddha nature. It's true. I've seen tamed pet alligators. I hate myself for eating meat. I need to justify by saying that anyway there's an animal cost to meat or plant foods. It's just the way it is.

8:00 a.m.

8:30 a.m.

1:00 p.m.

I'm getting hungry. I'm so sleepy and drowsy today. I wonder what's up.

1:30 p.m.

...

I miss Valerie

Valerie, call on me

Call on me, Valerie

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