Thu 9 Apr
8:30 a.m.
I get a lot of flashbacks. I slept okay. I think I got a lot of floss yesterday. Today, just 2. I'm working on stuff. I think I need to work on business.
8:45 a.m.
I have zero confidence in G-d. When I say G-d, i really mean Yahweh. Actually, maybe I have 100% confidence in G-d. I seem to have got through a lot of difficulty.
I refuse to add the wrong people on LinkedIn, I don't tolerate dishonesty. Some cyber security dude added me. I called. He didn't pick up. I won't accept his connection request. I don't want any untruthful people.
9:00 a.m.
I learned Botswana did well. Sir Seretse Khama was a cool guy. I'll go open up an office in Botswana. Botswana is my favourite African country now. I don't like Rhodesia as much any longer. Or South Africa either. It's proof you can do well if you do the right thing.
9:30 a.m.
I'm getting hungry. I wonder what's there for breakfast. I was thinking, I wish I had some good champagne. I want to sip champagne every day. Udesh told me his grandpa HK Dharmadasa had a shot of whiskey every night -- a long time ago.
Whiskey is too strong for me. I think even champagne, one of my favourite drinks is too strong. The Queen drinks champagne every day, I heard. I should drink that or port. I think champagne is good to sip on.
9:45 a.m.
I really liked the Queen. She was really cool. I saw The Crown. She was a good person. I hope she doesn't catch coronavirus from her son. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
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Hmm I dunno. Maybe, I, also kind of am ruthless. I don't tolerate any forms of betrayal. There's just an endless supply of people for me. So, I just drop people when I don't like them. I'm soft on my old friends and family. I don't hate Meghan Markle or Harry or Diana.
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10:00 a.m.
Yesterday, Jagath ███████████ IT security manager at Commercial Bank told my team's Lahiru Perera he's very busy. I texted Pasan ████████ ███ IT at Sampath Bank. He's also pretty busy. We'll need to delay. I saw a lot of security breaches from Zoom.
I wanted to support the enterprise customers. But it appears they're currently unwilling to listen. It sucks here. It's modern technology but it's a very outdated culture. People here aren't used to modern thinking. I weed out everyone like that from my life.
Kasuni ██████████████████ is supervising Lahiru ██████. I don't have to do anything. But I have to report back and say these people refused to listen to our intelligence. It sucks, but I have paper trails and evidence, we warned, they refused to listen and that's all.
11:30 a.m.
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For worse, not better, I'm a religious Freemason, my promises, especially a handshake, it's binding. I can't break out of it. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
Even if I say that it was a promise under duress, it's illogical, irrational, not fair, not scientific, you can't control biological processes, whatever, I'll just be unhappy. I was always like that. I never really accepted. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I swore on the bible.
11:45 a.m.
I don't care about Freemasonry. I only care about my promises. My promises are my religion. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
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6:30 p.m.
I had a flashback about how I saw a milipede in the pool drain and stopped my dad getting bit. I remembered or the memory was triggered when I saw a pool drain in Final Destination 4 (2009). I watched Final Destination 3. It's a great movie series.
10:15 p.m.
I'm getting bad. I feel bad. All this death and business uncertainty has caused my anxieties, depression and complex PTSD to flare up and get pretty bad. I had thosay for dinner.
I'm feeling sick. ████████████████████████████████ I'm getting a lot of flashbacks. I don't feel so good right now. I'm scared about business. There's a lot of uncertainty. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████
10:30 p.m.
I don't know what I'm thinking. I wish I had Dr Joshua Kua or Dr Trevor Friedman or Dr Loumidis or Mrs Heather Hailes-Granger the UK's 111 or the NHS. I feel really depressed. But I should be okay. I've been robbed in Year 1, I've been here before.
It feels like De Ja Vu. Déjà vu. I've been through this before in Y1. I f***ed up. Y2 was going well. Y3 starts in 3rd of July 2020. In Year 1, I tried to force an appointment to protect the banks. They rejected me, vilified me, then got Connex Information Technologies to do my vendor. My work was for nothing.
I need to be more careful this time. In Y1, I did EC Council's business. But Chadu told me not to steal Boshan's business, so, I stopped it. This time, this time I forwarded their proposals to Boshan. I learned.
