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5:15 PM on November 12

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THURSDAY, NOVEMBER 12, 2020

Part Three

Add to 5:15 p.m. 12 Nov 2020:

Best to forgive, hope for the best, help people grow. Islam is undergoing reforming process just like Judaism or Christianity. There were plenty of crazy Christians and Jews, Hindus, Buddhists, Jains, Zoroastrians like Ferhad who tried to make me eat terrible food at the Festive Board, and bad people in all groups. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Add to 4:45 p.m. 12 Nov 2020:

I'm so lucky to be born into a Sinhalese Buddhist family. I'm given the freedom to do what I believe is correct. There's no annoying rules in Buddhism.

When I do bad things, those linger in my conscience, and it's not good. I don't want to do anything racist unnecessarily. I'm unsure about things. I think Moslems may be a threat, but I'm worried that setting a racist tone will hurt innocent people.

It's simply not fair to punish 1,000s of innocent Moslems because of 1 bad Moslem. I'm really hurt about my fear towards them.

"Are people really born wicked, or do they have wickedness thrust unto them? After all, ███████ did have a mother, and she did have a father, as so many do... "

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Add to 2:15 p.m. 12 Nov 2020:

I drank tea at 2:10 p.m. I made at like 10 a.m. or earlier. I hope it's not like poisonous or something. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I'm getting so sleepy. I think I should get a haircut. I'll get this document finalised and printed. It's Sajantha's birthday, I'll see his dad Thilanga uncle in the evening, I'll present to him then.

I'll get a monopoly on cyber security if my plan goes according to plan. I don't really hate the Moslems, I think I'm just doing all this to 'stay in character'. Okay, maybe I do. I blocked Ali Sabry, but then unblocked him, I'll block him again in 48 hours.

Add to 1:30 p.m. 12 Nov 2020:

I have this thing, when i get this song stuck in my head, i put that song on repeat and just have fun

It's like really f***ed up when I get Best Song Ever by 1D stuck in my head -- I was singing it with two small white girls in Singapore when go karting

I think that was a good memory, I lent a girl my shoes, I'm so nice.

But now, I think we're alone now is stuck in my head. I've heard it since 1:05 p.m. or something..

Hey, I think we're alone now!

There doesn't seem to be anyone around

So, as this is my Captain's Log, I should write:

Dear Diary,

When I was reading through the Zoroastrian book I gifted Sohli Captain and Ferhad Jamshed Nilgiriya, I saw something very important..

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But also ..

I saw they collect sacred fire caused by a lightning strike.

Which is Lehan level cool. That's like a few places cooler than Frank Sinatra. Which is like really cool.

I asked Sohli if I can visit to see the fire church, but he said no.

COVERT OP:

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Similar to sky burials by those monks in Tibet or something. Usually, the Parsis, like Richard Mehta have to be fed to vultures, but in Sri Lanka, we can feed to crocodiles.

It's their final act of charity to go and make it through their bridge to heaven in the afterlife.

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For ever and ever.

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I like this song, I love good music. Tiffany is really hot. But I think it's mostly nostalgia.

1:45 p.m.

I have this other thing. I meditate on good music. It's crazy.

I just close my eyes, and block out my mind, and just focus on the one track.

I saw a James Wood lawyer performance on Shark. It's so funny. He acts as though it's natural. He acts as though he's sincere just like Biden.

But he spent many hours, days, weeks and months and years and a lifetime perfecting that performance.

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2:00 p.m.

Jeez, I think I have a problem. I keep listening to this song. It's been on forever. At least, I wasn't singing along. I'm too tired. I didn't sleep.

I need to get a haircut today somehow. My hair is too long. It makes me feel stuffy and uncomfortable.

I wonder if I should visit Thilanga uncle's office today. I'm not sure what exactly to show him. I'm going to think about it, because I think we're alone now.. doesn't seem to be anyone around...