Story

12:15 PM on December 5

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FRIDAY, DECEMBER 4, 2020

12:00 a.m.

The Orapaste seems to have numbed my tongue ulcer. It's most likely due to stress. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I made myself a cup of tea, I'll watch Queen's Gambit and then sleep. ███████████████████████████████

1:00 a.m.

The Mirtazapine is kicking in. I'm going to sleep sometime soon. I'm watching this great TV show Queen's Gambit, a 8 out of 10. Very clever, great acting, fantastic writing.

I love how I have just the most cool friends in the whole wide world. My friends are incredibly understanding, cool, loving, liberal and kind -- insanely high performing, top quality thinking and wildly successful.

I love the mom in Queen's Gambit. Betty's mother is just so kind. She asked for 10% commission, she got 15%. She's a kind person. I think I can give 30% to my mum, 30% to Jonathan and keep 40% of our company profits.

12:30 p.m.

"Interesting Dream"

When on Mirtazapine, I tend to experience vivid dreams. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I couldn't tell I was dreaming. The dream was regarding my school days. It was as though, I was going to school or felt as though I was still in school.

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It's not clear who wrote it or who sent it or who got it. Most likely Navin wrote it. The principal of the school got it. Or some senior teacher. It felt a lot like G-d gave me this dream, as though I was being helped and 'shown' something I missed, something I overlooked.

This ended up giving me justice, giving me closure and helping me move forward. There were visions of people in school. The point was I didn't have the best people around me, the moral of the dream was I must surround myself with the best people possible to shield/ cocoon myself as best as possible.

*Dream Ends*

█████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ In England, in America, in California, I would've been protected, I would've been treated better. I wouldn't have been traumatised. If I was, I wouldn't have had truancy, I would've been in a school or given an education where I was comfortable and taken care of properly.

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12:45 p.m.

I hated CIS, I hated going to school. I never went there. ████████████████████████████████████ I was unhappy. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

But Ashkenazi Jewish doctor Trevor Friedman and Dr Loumidis made the breakthrough in discovering Complex PTSD. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████

It's okay if I went through hell at school. I learned to survive. I learned to beat the odds. I learned to be a lot tougher. I became stronger mentally. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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2:30 p.m.

My tongue is aching. I think it'll go away in a week's time. I'm going to continue watching Queen's Gambit.

I made myself a cup of tea. For some reason, the sugar never properly dissolves. I have to use my teaspoon to stir it from next time. That's why it's called a teaspoon. It's used for that purpose--to stir sugar in tea.

2:45 p.m.

Michael or Mikey De Alwis, Karen Aunty and Mihira De Alwis' son, Jehan's brother, his sister Ronalie or something was Obama's aide. They took pictures with him together. Mihira uncle has to introduce me to Dinesh Weerakkody, my fellow University of Leicester student, an MBA graduate, and HNB chairman. I need my HNB deal signed.

10:15 p.m.