Thursday, January 14th, 2021
7:30 p.m.
"Wrath"
I do not really hate anyone. I will try to be nice to people. But this is just by controlling a small circle of trust.
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It looks like there will always be an opposition and support for any thing you do. There exists a yin and yang duopoly on virtues, a balance. It is hard to say, this is right, that is wrong, as it depends on the situation.
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I was wrong to even imagine I could help them patch things up.
In the end, there is no happy ending.
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It is hard to say this, it is not true.
This is cause, if it was true, she would not have taught me stuff, she would not have given me food and this guy Udesh would not have spent so much time playing video games, socialising and doing anything for me.
I found out, some people have said something about me, Udesh told them he did not believe them when we were very young. He made sure to tell me. That's why I know. It was sadly in vain though, I did do some bad thing..
I guess, I have never changed!
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These people are good guys -- sort of.
I guess, at one birthday, a friend called Shahan whose mum sold an aluminium company to Dhammika Perera for a billion rupees or something, he kept a small toy that makes fart noises behind me, and then, suddenly, at Udesh's place, I was at his birthday party, he pressed a button and it made fart noises.
It sounded like my stomach was grumbling or something. Of course, I knew it was not me, so I thought it was my bad stomach.
I was shocked.
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Haha but it was just a joke.
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It was funny.
Everyone laughed at me.
I am laughing myself.
They do not really have any contempt for me.
I guess, I like to laugh at myself as well.
I do not take myself so seriously.
Udesh was one of the first friends I made.
He came to my first birthday party, and he gave me a big present, I asked him, "what's in it?"
He replied, "two Gameboys".
He lied, it was something else, it was something useful that his mum Sandya picked out for me.
I have his birthday card.
Udesh taught me how to draw trees. Just two lines curved vertical for a tree trunk, and a 3 shape for the leaves.
His mum taught me how to write properly, and my handwriting improved.
I am really picky on writing styles and fonts. I use Lora on our website and for business communications because it looks better than Times New Roman.
Google made Lora.
It is crazy, I spend hours formatting to make it look good.
Sandhya aunty and Udesh write with big letters using Uniball Gel Pens. It is a very unique way of writing. I also copied that.
I was going to sports betting shop habitual punter Abeywardena's English Language class near Battaramulla.
He showed me a girl called Shennelle Siriwardena's handwriting. It was impressive. It was like that scene in American Psycho, where they all show off their business cards and Patrick Bateman loses his s*** because the other guy has a better business card.
And, I was just outwardly pretending to be a good human being, which I always do, but I was pretty jealous.
Really nice handwriting, but I could not copy it.
It is good flow hand writing.
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I think Thilanga uncle knows her and Minnelle's parents. ████████████████████████████
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A lot of friends back then, all of them sunshine friends, I do not know what a sunset friend is, those can be my mason friends like Jacques who is 75 and will be 76 soon, and is so old, but Udesh and these guys were like our thunderstorm and cyclone friends.
