Wed 18 Mar
5:00 a.m.
I might as well state for the permanent record that I'm a staunch believer in Lucifer. I worship Satan. I claim business is my religion. It's the same. I can't wait to see what happens next. If I die, I don't want to go to heaven with Jesus, I want to go to hell with Satan. I have no faith in Jesus Christ.
10:30 a.m.
Lol, this whole Satan thing is ridiculous. I'm sure I'm just reacting a bit too much. It's just that when celebrities got sick, I worried that means everyone can get ill. I just woke up, I feel very tired. My chest and nose feels congested. I feel slightly as though I'm going to be sick. I hate sickness, I hate colds.
██████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I need to get back to England and finish my therapy with Dr Loumidis at the Spire Leicester Hospital. My nose is aching like crazy.
F*** Satan. I think it's just like complete all out spiritual warfare. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████It's been constant eye watering and a bad running nose. It's very uncomfortable. It must be day 3.
I might want to see a doctor and try get some kind of suppressant medication or cough syrup to help relieve symptoms. I cough violently too. Especially the congested nose that's killing me. My eye tears are really watery. It's so weird. I hate being sick. It sucks. My whole body is aching. I wonder if Sri Lanka's got ibuprofen. This is disgusting.
10:45 a.m.
I can barely breathe. I had flashbacks -- I get a lot of flashbacks. I just don't write about it because they're just bad memories and active fears. It just pisses me off. I gotta get my life back in order and back together. It's not all bad, I have so much going for me. I just need to complete therapy.
I had flashbacks of ██████████ breaking my elbow, Hashani ██████████████████████████████████ My mum betraying me and getting Sandalal to attack my business. I really get very angry. I think I'm 90% of the time in rage and in utmost, merciless perfect contempt of my environment. I don't trust anybody, ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
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11:00 a.m.
█████████████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████ I thought she'd die for a second. I'm glad she lived ██████████████████. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████. I didn't want my mum attending my graduation day.
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11:15 a.m.
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11:45 a.m.
Jeez, these are really stupid ideas. I think Satan's got me. I'll get through this with my faith and resolve. I'm going to be okay. I think Jesus Christ will help me recover.
2:00 p.m.
I think Satan's pissed off with me. That's why I keep getting flashbacks all the time. It's always step 1. I'm okay, step 2. I get flashbacks and angry, and step 3. I'm unhappy. I need to sign a deal with Dialog Axiata PLC and then pay for and complete private treatment. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
3:15 p.m.
I'm feeling really sick. I took antihistamines Loratadine 10mg from the pharmacist. I'll try see Dr Preethi Wijegoonewardene in the evening. I feel better psychologically with medication. I want some tasty cough syrup and that iron supplement that tastes good. I've never had morphine, I want that too.
3:30 p.m.
I wish I could get a painless death. I can't breathe. █████████████ My eyes are hurting. I missed lunch. I'm feeling too sick to eat lunch, I'm hungry though.
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3:45 p.m.
I don't know. I hated it in England and Singapore too. I think it's just depression and self loathing from complex PTSD. I like Sri Lanka, it's the place where my Sinhalese people are from. I have a lot going for me. I just don't like the Sri Lankan food. I like how I have a lot of fun over here. Plus, Gota's fixing the rule of law problem.
9:00 p.m.
I need to avoid pissing off Satan. I'm getting myself in trouble. I remember I used cyproheptadine or Periactin as an antihistamine to gain weight, and I got very depressed in UK. I hope this Loratadine 10mg is okay. I had dinner, tea, and now, I'm going to try sleep. My nose isn't running so much, so, I should manage.
9:45 p.m.
███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I'm so perverted. I'm like Kakashi Sensai in Naruto. I need to get better. This air conditioning is irritating my nose.
