11:00 p.m.
(c)
I need to 5 minutes on the elliptical machine. I hate this life. I Googled "logging" to make sure my English is correct, I saw photos of trees cut down, I thought of Upali Dharmadasa uncle, he does lumber, I thought of his feet being amputated.
There is something wrong with me right now.
Something is wrong.
I am not feeling okay.
I must be in shock right now.
It is disgusting. I need to get that s*** off my head. It was just so disgusting. It looked real. It looked too real.