Writing Lessons, Late Lunch, and a Restless Night

2:30 p.m.

I am writing a plan for vendor1 via Jonathan.

It seems that these US firms are unwilling to respect the local protocols at all, which is unreasonable. If tech minister asks for a formal request, and it is not provided, it is not possible to move forward.

It is a US firm's leadership problem, I cannot convince the partner. Best to move on to vendor1 and blacklist vendor2 and vendor3.

1:00 p.m.

I took 30 mg of Mirtazapine. I feel completely fine. I was thinking it was crazy to be upset about ███████ so much, it was probably insecurity.

Jacques Huyghebaert phone called me. He advises me like George H. Ross advises Trump in The Apprentice:

"Fire him, don't hire this guy, this does not know how to sell, the problem is not vendor3--the problem is you, you do not know how to sell, that guy does not care or he would have done abc by now, I go for meetings 15 minutes early just like you Lehan, we can ask this person for xyz, gut this project, this is dead, that guy is dead, this is going no where" hahaha

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7:15 p.m.

I was thinking, I live in the 8b, 7 continent, real world, there is evil which I choose to fight. ████, it is 35% of the web. There are serious crimes. If I am not this way, I will not successfully counter bad guys. There is no possibility 1% of the 20m SL citizens will understand or accept reality for what it is, the people of SL are in persistent denial--I must hire foreigners.

Talking about ████, being open, telling dark jokes, making people feel comfortable (or uncomfortable), making things normal, it is part of a strategy to make sure that we can deal with the real criminals. The people in SL, they find US culture abhorrent, they reject California culture, they crazily worship and detest US.

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I look at some disturbing stuff online, I am shocked. I was looking at the Pizzagate, I dunno if it is real or an information campaign or conspiracy, the evidence seems factual and realistic. Dunno what to believe. It is traumatic. It is helping me cope to write openly.

9:30 p.m.

Hannah Montana -- BB Talk:

11:15 p.m.

I was just humming the Indecent Proposal (1993) theme tune to myself

*wicked giggles*

11:30 p.m.

I saw some video clips on YouTube about Rajiv Gandhi being assaulted by a Sinhalese navy cadet.

I also saw the Rajiv Gandhi LTTE assassination.

It destroyed the reputation of the LTTE, they became a terrorist organisation.

They had a good cause, I still support the support of Tamils and Muslims, but it betrayed the Tamil people's interests.

Wednesday, March 3rd, 2021

12:15 a.m.

I cannot see yesterday's last entry. I copied it, before I edited it again.

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Tuesday, March 2nd, 2021

11:45 p.m.

Saw David Sanders on Facebook had looked through my psychotic ramblings hahaha -- he is the former principal at Colombo International School. My high school.

I remember I met him and the owner Armyne Wirasinha once, they all liked me a lot. I met Heloise Perera, the head of secondary school, Armyne repeatedly intervened every year and prevented me from being expelled for less than 10% attendance -- I am the most famous student from CIS.

I was only one he showed special treatment and favouritism to. My cousin Chadu had a huge knife in his locker and got expelled quickly despite Jagath Sumathipala uncle's efforts.

My dad died on August 20th, 2005 in Waduwa. He was travelling with UK Sharma, the Intercontinental Hotel owner in a Mitsubishi Monterro. I was supposed to go with him, but G-d took a special liking towards me and had different plans for Lehan. My dad was trying to visit Armyne's Villa Ocean View hotel to buy it.

I think I saw Armyne in school and this guy or it may have been the new principal who was a real f***ing c*** hahaha Michael Chappell told me to run away as I ought to be afraid of Armyne!

Chappell saw me coming late to school, I remember he showed me the watch and said, "can you see the time?"

I just remarked, "what a nice Rolex" or "what a nice watch!"

I habitually suck up to people, flattery might not get me anywhere but I never stop trying

I wish I could have introduced him to Jacques Huyghebaert, I bet Chappell is a Christian because Sanders is a Christian Protestant, I would say:

"Hello Sir, this is Jacques Huyghebaert, Saint Thomas Gurathalawa Head Master. Jacques told me your son of G-d Jesus's mother Mary cannot have been a virgin after giving birth.... "

* Plus other things that have helped, but not answer Jacques' questionable reasons to remain friends with Lehan *

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I edited the prior comment entry, but I cannot find it, there is some sort of refresh issue.

Anyway. I forgot to add.

I used to get a lot of detentions and they thought of suspending me ironically because I did not go to school.

So, they sent me to see Principal Sanders.

When I saw him in his office, I kid you not, I swear to G-d, under penalty of death:

I saw him, and he came up to me and said, "congratulations."

I quickly grasped his hand, looked him the eye and said, "thank you, Sir".

That f***ing B***H

THAT F***ING B***H SECRETARY TOLD HIM I WAS THERE BECAUSE I GOT TOO MANY DETENTIONS!

F***ING B***H!!

* Lehan is heard screaming loudly and very angrily like Patrick Bateman when kicked in the face by a hooker in American Psycho alone in his room. People are getting concerned. Lehan was angrily screaming obscenities at an imagined, invisible and likely female attacker, who had somehow 'wronged' him -- somehow injured Lehan. Lehan threw his phone angrily and seemed to be very angry. *

Anyway, this-

Dumb f***ing b***h

Who is she?!

F***ing b***h!

C***.

She is the real c***.

Anyway, he quickly realised he had made a mistake, and said,

After that real b***h told him I was in the Principal's office after too many detentions, he said, "Lehan my son, Alex, he was like you, he did not go to school.

My son Dave, he became friends with my bald, sick friend Dave Cummings and then Dave and his two friends Joel Lawrence and Nick Manning, and Dave's friend perverted █████████████ -- and they started doing f***ed up s***!"

The young, highly impressionable Lehan, puzzled, asked, "they started doing f***ed up s***?"

Albus Dumbledore replied, "Yes, Master Tom Riddle, f***ed up s***".

I asked him to tell me, he asked his F***ING B***H secretary and that f***ing cuckboy loser Thevin Gamage to f*** off, and he said, "son, I cannot tell you, but I can show you."

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I told him it was all acting, I consoled him that Alex did not catch any venereal diseases.

Again, I looked him in the eye and shook his hand for a second time, I swore on Mother Mary's hymen that I will not go down Alex's path -- then left the Principal's Office.

That is when i decided, i will also not go to school.

So, i can be like Alex.

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The Beatles -- Virgin Hymen:

1:00 a.m.

I love this song, it came out in 2010, but it caught popularity recently, it was covered on the Big Black Corporation:

I think that some songs, they are great, but it is not the time for it yet, and then, it is only understood later as a masterpiece.

Scarface bombed when it came out, but later, it became a cult classic, Pulp Fiction, was Quentin's Saving Grace, Star Wars, people thought it was a joke, a lot of time, people look, they see nothing, move on.

This song, it is hypnotic, beautiful, I must have heard it, I did not like it, but now.

I keep dancing on my own.

Some of the songs on my Spotify, they are from the old playlist, a playlist from the 80s, 90s, they bring back a lot of good memories.

Robyn -- Dancing On My Own: