Crying, Remeron, and the Fact That the Antidepressants Are Keeping Me Alive

July 6, 2021

The day is built around emotional dependence on antidepressants: crying, admitting I depend on them to stay alive, deciding to take 60 mg Remeron, and then drifting into Godfather realism and dark, jagged late-night fragments.

Hidden

6:30 AM

6:30 a.m.

Pirates!

Rule the waves!

https://youtu.be/uQrYEEfgbG8

* This is for illustration purposes. In order to demonstrate how piracy occurs. *

8:15 AM

7:30 a.m.

:')

https://youtu.be/yKd_HxSjtXg

8:00 a.m.

OMG the 7:30 a.m. entry was added at p.m.

I am crying a bit.

Looks like, these antidepressants are keeping me alive.

I depend on them.

This was anyway one of the worst diseases you can have, but not really.

I read Loumidis' note to Friedman, it was not a big deal, doesn't seem so deadly.

I can manage.

I'm going to take 60 mg Remeron now.

1:15 AM

Wednesday, July 7th, 2021

1:15 a.m.

Moe Green getting shot in The Godfather is so fake because there is no exit wound out the back of his head.

Please give me hell for how 'too real' my writing is, I mean, what's the big idea?

1:30 AM

1:15 a.m.

(b)

But whatever, looks believable, looks good...

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The Please Watch the Jon Lovitz Special (1992) [Himself] Accidentally killed when Jon Lovitz throws some dice and they go through his eye, parodying his Godfather death with him saying "Not the other eye..." before dying. (Played for comic effect.)

https://cinemorgue.fandom.com/wiki/Alex_Rocco

5:00 AM

5:00 a.m.

(b)

I don't think Adolf would like me very much...

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