I Died in Your Arms, Then Turned Into an Institution

August 4, 2024 Lehan Edirisinghe

I move through heartbreak, politics, feminism, and myth until the whole day starts sounding like a campaign speech delivered from inside a bruise. I'm sad about a friend's death, but I also keep insisting that I'm more than a person, more like an idea or an institution, and that somebody had to say enough is enough for Sri Lanka. The payoff is the scale of the self-mythologizing: grief, ambition, dictatorship talk, and national purpose all fused into one page.

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Turning Off a Violent Movie for I Love Lucy

3:30 p.m.

[Verse 4]

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Did you turn off that violent old movie you're watching?

And turn on "I Love Lucy" reruns?

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- Title: "The Evolution of Singapore"
- Channel / profile: "Wah!Banana"
- Site / app: "YouTube"
- Captions / subtitles: "that he saw a lion on the shore"

Saying It Is Just Like SL

7:45 p.m.

Just like SL

In this video frame from YouTube, part of the video titled "The Evolution of Singapore" by the channel Wah!Banana, a historical moment is depicted. The scene illustrates Singapore's 1959 self-governance milestone with the phrase "1959 SELF GOVERNANCE" prominently displayed in bold red letters. Below, a person representing Mr Lee Kuan Yew, dressed in a white suit adorned with a garland, raises a hand in a gesture associated with triumph or celebration. Nearby, a signpost labeled "SINGAPORE" emphasizes the location being referenced.
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- Title: "The Evolution of Singapore"
- Channel / profile: "Wah!Banana"
- Site / app: "YouTube"
- Captions / subtitles: "Mr Lee Kuan Yew"

Comparing Myself to Sang Nila Utama and Lee Kuan Yew

8:00 p.m.

1. Well, I'm sort of a prince like Sang Nila Utama, though more of a prince of Satan, and the last of the four apocalyptic horsemen

2. I'm the finest freemason, the most famous one of present times, alive, and intriguingly, inspired by Stamford Raffles

Except I'm more about Singapore flings...

3. And when it comes to the fabled Lee Kuan Yew from the Han Chinese, well, I have mentioned him more times than Jesus Christ

Which should tell my voters everything they need to know

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- Title: "The Evolution of Singapore"
- Channel / profile: "Wah!Banana"
- Site / app: "YouTube"
- Captions / subtitles: "Must have that iron in him"

Saying I Am a Dictator, Not a PM

8:00 p.m. (b)

I'm not really a PM, I'm a dictator

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The overall composition is colorful and dynamic, reflecting Singapore’s blend of tradition and modernity.

A Sad Picture, a Dead Friend and Becoming an Idea

8:00 p.m. (c)

Look the reason why I look sad in my picture, is because I'm sad, a friend of mine has died.

But I'm more than a person

I'm some kind of institution, an idea

I represent more

I'm with people, people remember my ideas

They see Trump's "fight!" mental image

They see

They feel

They know

If am not there to bring out your best, what am I there for?

Podi Hamaduru, will always be with me

Who do you think he'd vote for?

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Saying Someone Had to Push for a Developed Country

8:30 p.m. (c)

somebody had to do what i did

at some point

someone else woulda said enough is enough

let's be a developed country

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