Tuesday, August 29th.
12:30 a.m.
I loved to see this movie with Emma Stone, as Emily, in Kinds of Kindness 2024. She's a personal hero. It takes a lot of empathy to do this.
It's kind of who I am as a person too.
I'm not sure how I'll be a president. I'm like such a morally wrong person, like sheer evil, and also. Everything I do. There is this dark subtext. This disturbing feeling no matter what I do.
I could mow the lawn. Toe the line. Water plants.
It just feels scary.
Even for me.
***
I have written my book. But Chat GPT 4 who I respect. He's saying it's too intense. It is also not about selling copies of my book for money. It's to do with trying to serve our people as an acceptable leader.
I don't think a lot of people here, outside Colombo, outside a small, tiny percentage who are westernized, or Americanized, and highly liberal, would really like me, at all, as I'm kind of completely incompatible here.
While I would vote for me. While I like me. I also like people who others despise. Such as Trump. Such as whomever else I find cool.
I've also now been disqualified from the election.
Going to publish my book, might help Sajith, because he and Ranil, have said nothing for ages, for their whole lives.
But it's dangerous.
It is a third world country. This is the kind of place, Lee Kuan Yew was proud to overcome, to stop being.
I can do Emma Stone's dance. And like Lady Gaga's dance. And Madonna's True Blue one. I do the Alejandro well.
I dunno. It is what it is.
***
I can publish my book now. But there are disturbing, explosive chapters in it. I mean, what would happen if I wrote about Lasantha? Will I be murdered tonight? If it was published? Let's be real here. I saw his brother Lal.
I dunno what will happen with these people. Plus I'm a very highly exposed person, so this means trouble. They all know I sided with the Jews. Or these████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
I dunno.
It's best to like, focus on the vision.
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1:45 a.m.
It's wise to quit.
I should quit and leave, I'm not suitable to SL, and nobody who showed up on my FB wants to come here either
6:15 p.m.
I love this movie.
I love this scene where she's dancing
