It depends on the context, I am a feminist, I will hit on and hit girls, I will hit. I hit Lehara, I hit my mom, and I like to hit people for fun. I hit children. I hit Ganidu. But because he weighs more than me, somehow he beat me at some Sinhala Avurudu straw sack fight. I beat him up in the Buddhist uni that Jagath uncle made up. But that was a few years ago.
I miss some of my friends. But I have severe trust issues, after bad things in my past, and it's damaged me, I'm not able to form basic relationships now, and haven't been able to for years. It's just how I am.