Oct. 9, 2026

I think I'm a very wicked, angry and cruel person. I always have been. It's my natural, true self, identity and nature.

I think we all have a resting metabolic rate. We have a resting, natural face. And I have my own identity.

I have been very cold, inhumane, and nasty towards people.

I just want friends, so I can hit them, physically in the arm or something and run away. That's literally all.

I remember, even that girl, Pooja, was threatening me, that she'd punch me, and I'd go flying and stuff heehhehe

I bit Udhantha. He punched me in the nose. But whatever.

I evolved so much over the last 100m years.

I have this "move": I go, and do a friendly pat, except, it's a little more forceful, not a "hit", but almost, 4/11-like

It depends on the context, I am a feminist, I will hit on and hit girls, I will hit. I hit Lehara, I hit my mom, and I like to hit people for fun. I hit children. I hit Ganidu. But because he weighs more than me, somehow he beat me at some Sinhala Avurudu straw sack fight. I beat him up in the Buddhist uni that Jagath uncle made up. But that was a few years ago.

I miss some of my friends. But I have severe trust issues, after bad things in my past, and it's damaged me, I'm not able to form basic relationships now, and haven't been able to for years. It's just how I am.