I Chased Temasek Dreams, Wrote Faith Notes, and Felt Deal Pressure Late

It's a great symbolic gesture

Omg I didn't know there were these colourful mushrooms‼️😲🤭😬

Wed 15 Jan

8:30 p.m.

I'm going to bed early. I spoke with Srinath Wijayakumara over WhatsApp messages. He's trying to talk to Ruchira Yasaratne. We're trying to make a deal with Thilanga uncle involved because it's a significant undertaking.

I'll wait to speak with Mihiran Perera tomorrow. He's trying to talk to Ravindra at NDB and trying to set up a presentation. He's going to try Union Bank too. He can talk to Rehan Ariyaratne about Seylan Bank. Also, try Commercial Bank. I'll call Sampath Bank soon.

I got good news from Bravo Charlie CEO and also Regional MD. We can augment our strategies. I need to meet SIT CEO Indrajith Jayaratne to try collude and conduct bid rigging because Sampath Bank's told me they need 3 bids minimum.

Shathaka can handle SLT. I sent Tilak Gamalath, SLT CIO, a respectful email. I asked him to kindly organise a presentation. It's a notoriously difficult customer according our competitors. But Shathaka can handle this for us.

8:45 a.m.

I'm watching Boardwalk Empire. I learn a lot about management and leadership by watching TV like this. It's important for me to document all our strategies for future reference and to self study my leadership. Any illegal act which endangers us will be redacted or hidden, and be replaced with clever wording.

It's still important to avoid telling any lies. I believe in integrity. Integrity has been a powerful force which has blessed me with a lot of success and happiness. Without integrity you don't last long. Even if doing anything sly, best to disclose as a lesser crime as a rose is a rose by any other name.

I can do anything with money I get. It's my money. All the company money is my cash. I can do anything with my money, it's my personal property. I'm not accountable to anybody. I'm the board, I'm the biggest shareholder, I'm the CEO.

9:00 p.m.

I dunno. I love power. I love money. I love to do stuff. I can't wait to get into 8 regional offices of Axiata. I'm going to become prime minister one day because I'll be successful. I'm anyway smarter than everyone and have better plans, so, people will all want to vote for me. :)

I hope I don't get any flashbacks. I hate them. They antagonize me. I don't really think I'd be happy with us as a colony. I love independence, peace and freedom. I have a lot to offer.

It looks beautiful ‼️ why hadn't anyone else thought of this?

I remember Lee Kuan Yew ate seafood -- a crab, on a train trip while he was visiting Sri Lanka. He wrote that he felt sick and vomited to save his life.

I remember when I was small I played in the dirt. But then I saw a worm and then I decided to never go play in the dirt again.

😋😲🍴🙃😬‼️ I love the Portobello mushrooms. I saw them in the Chinese dishes I find in Singapore, and they're just amazing.

There's a reason Rhodesia succeeded in food supply whereas Zimbabwe failed and need food aid. Before anyone wastes a dollar in donations, that reason must be understood and tackled. Otherwise, to donate to the World Food Programme is akin to giving money to a███████████████████

I wish you met my grandmother, you could've shared recipes. Singapore's so lucky they've got you. Singapore's foods are amazing. Even though I lived there for 2 years and didn't get fat. This looks amazing. I need to try. 😋🍴‼️

Koshitha Gunadasa have you seen this material?

Troops are going to have to be trained to manage climate dangers and even medical crises -- including zombie risks. Army, police -- they gotta be put into firefighting when there's an emergency. They need to multi discipline trained. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Sorry to hear of his passing.

"I shouldn't have told Deliveroo/ UberEats to really step on it and get my food delivered so soon"

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You missed a spot over there! 🍖

I loved your show, very charismatic, charming poker player. But I never gamble, ever.

I'm so happy for them. We must always show compassion to vulnerable individuals. 👏‼️🏆🥇😲🙃

Fri 17 Jan

1:15 a.m.

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1:30 a.m.

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2:45 a.m.

Can't sleep. My heart rate is up, I'm tearing. I think it's because of Complex PTSD. It's just flashbacks. My heart is really pumping. I feel really excited. I think it's likely because I'm expecting to see Indrajith Jayaratne today. I'm anyway under stress. I hit myself a few times yesterday. I'm under stress.

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All of this s*** happens when I get stressed. Last week, I saw I had several nightmares. It's a continuous problem. I don't know. I think it's just the way it is. I'm anyway just stressed that because I'm going to go to sleep so late, I won't be able to get to that meeting at 10:00 a.m. on time or something. I'll be sedated and drowsy.

Jesus f***ing Christ. This is so stupid. I can't believe this s***. I dunno. I should go see what's in the fridge or just try to relax and close my eyes and stuff. These attacks can happen. I just need to learn. I've learned to identify well, that's the first step. I think if I can't sleep, I'll just wait. I should be okay.

3:00 a.m.

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Whatever. I feel safe writing. I love to write. I'm really great at writing and expressing myself very quickly and really well. I love it. It's all such high quality too. I love it. I need to stay positive no matter. These bad thoughts and bad ideas are just because of PTSD and my body and brain being unable to process. I just need to be patient.

I'm so thankful I'm never alone! It's just so cool how there's always somebody listening. I don't feel isolated and so vulnerable anymore. I need to really setup the Samaritans in Sri Lanka. Jeezus f***, I can't believe I have to be the one to do every f***ing thing for this son of a b***h country and people. Why do I have to do everything?

12:00 p.m.

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I don't know. I don't ever really cut people out of my life. I think that according to my religion, we will all be friends in heaven. Ultimately, that's what happens. It's foolish to hate people. I think with Milan or Sean or certain family, it'll be damaged relationships -- just an attempt to act civil, but always hurt and never trusting.

2:45 p.m.

I'm at Sumathi Info Tech. I'm trying to see if we can collaborate. I have a slight problem with NDB, Union Bank and NTB. I think it'll be dealt with. It's not a serious problem -- we haven't done anything criminal. I sort of went to see the Union Bank without am appointment.

I'll talk to Ashok Pathirage uncle or his team and try sort it out. These things happen. I visited the Excise Department. They told me the government prohibited giving liquor import permits, and I need one to legally import and distribute in Sri Lanka.

I'll have to coordinate with the Ministry of Finance to get a liquor permit to import, and then go about selling liquor to the restaurants, bars, hotels, duty free and onboard Sri Lankan Airlines. Prime Minister Mahinda Rajapaksa is in charge. I don't know, better if I can use Thilanga uncle's friends to do it.

Mihiran Perera is anyway friends with Sanjaya Padmaperuma, the CEO of South Asia Technologies, and also Rehan and I think Chetiya who work over there. Mihiran told me NDB, Union Bank and NTB are upset with me. I'll need to use SIT to work on them.

3:00 p.m.

I'm glad with the progress we're making with Dialog Axiata PLC. We had a slight problem with Ajith Salgado at Sampath Bank last year, I think Nanda, Ayodhya, Channa uncle and also Dhara from the Ceylon Chamber of Commerce all interfered on my behalf and now, we can register as a supplier first step and then work on presentations.

Aren't molasses like brown sugar or something? Yes, I know, I must read the article first or Google, sigh, but what ever happened to just asking questions? Why lose all the fun? I'm in Sri Lanka, and I can't sleep -- too much excitement. It's like I'm reading a late night fairytale or something. Or a ghost story. An actual horror story!* Reading this.

This is poorly written. It's boring. It's too long; didn't/ can't read.