Family Loyalty, Frozen Blueberries, and Dark Thoughts at Month-End

Lehan Edirisinghe

The month ended in loyalty tests, comfort rituals, family feeling, and darker thoughts, with me trying to calm myself in real time as the emotional weather kept changing.

Family, Hiring, Work and Heavy Thoughts

Fri 31 Jan

11:15 a.m.

I spoke to a few people who applied. I was very positive. I was thinking about how much I love my family and friends. I want to protect and help Thilanga uncle. █████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I'll slowly start my day. I need to get breakfast. Thulan Amarasinghe emailed me that he couldn't access my email attachment because it was on Google Drive. It was 40mb and the max file attachment size is 25mb. Dialog's internal network blocks Google Drive.

I'll either deliver it to him via USB or WhatsApp him with his permission. I'm embarrassed he cc'ed Ron at SIERRA, but I trust Ron and this is a simple thing -- acknowledging I'm alive and doing my job!😬😁 I don't like to "lose face".

5:00 p.m. Fri

I'm watching The Walking Dead. I'll switch off my mobile phone soon for my Electronics Sabbath. Facebook stops me editing comments when I do it too much. 🤭😬 But I want to get rid of it. 3 days of no mobile phone should do the trick.

6:15 p.m. Fri

I'm watching The Walking Dead. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I called Dhara Wijayatilake and wished her for her future -- she's not doing anything exciting afterwards. Somebody from HNB Assurance is taking over as CCC CEO. I'm friendly with Dr Hans Wijayasuriya, the chairman of CCC. I'll switch off phone now.

6:30 p.m. Fri

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7:30 p.m. Fri

I'm watching the 3%. I think it's dubbed. I previously turned on my phone I turned on again to un-Like a stupid post by███████████ which was very sad and un American███████████████████████████████████████ America ██████████████████████████████████I'm going to switch off my phone.

9:15 p.m. Fri

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9:30 p.m. Fri

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10:45 p.m. Fri

I forgive my mum. ██████████████████████. She made a mistake. But it's just a mistake. I'm liking this 3% show. 😁

Posting Cortana’s Speech About Luck

Fri 31 Jan

11:45 a.m.

Exhibit 9. Luck

[CORTANA]

They let me pick.

Did I ever tell you that?

Choose whichever Spartan I wanted.

You know me: I did my research, watched as you became the soldier we needed you to be.

Like the others, you were strong, and swift, and brave -- a natural leader.

But you had something they didn't. Something no one saw, but me.

Can you guess?

Luck.

Was I wrong?

https://youtu.be/snufN7YTUTI

I Hate Sad Stories

I don't like sad stories like this

Wow, That's Amazing

Wow, that's amazing

Joking That My Sneezing Mum Was Infected

I saw my mum sneeze and then I realised she wasn't my mum anymore -- she's one of the infected.

Reformed Islam Already, Lah?

Alvin Chua,😲 reformed Islam, already la? 😬🙃🤭‼️

Burn the Bodies

Make sure you burn the bodies so they don't reanimate

Don't Flame Him

He probably didn't know. Please don't flame him fellow keyboard warriors!

Loud Music at the Office

This can come in handy. I like to listen to music in my office. Like really loudly.

Bulls Red, Lakers Yellow

I remember Seshi aiya, you were wearing red clothes for the Chicago Bulls and I wore yellow for the Los Angeles Lakers during mini basketball in Otters

Saying the Parsis Were Driven From Iran for Their Faith

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Fearing for Israel During the Iran Crisis

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Calling It a Great First Step

Great first step!!‼️

Congratulating Madam Ho Ching

Congratulations Madam

Remembering a Kind Woman as Our Own Christine Lagarde

I called and wished her all the best!

I remember visiting the CCC a long time ago, and I saw her and I told her I have my own business and she told me, "oh how great, young people like you have your own business"

Very good hearted, kind and great lady -- our own Christine Lagarde

I'll miss you!!

:)

Urging Alvin to Take the Wuhan Coronavirus Seriously

Alvin the world doesn't run on these formulas you come up with. 1 plus 2 doesn't always equal 3. It's not a fair place. The common cold isn't a new problem. Wuhan-origin coronavirus is new. SARS isn't as scary as ███████████ even with a higher death rate because this new one is new. People █████████████████, they think in a mob. There's a lot of statistics that many believe people only use 10% of their brain -- which is wrong. I get you're excited about China's rise and you love China, but it's important to panic, over react instead of under react as you passively suggest and contain Wuhan C19 before it spreads uncontrollably.

Joking That She Had Coronavirus

Elizabeth ██████████████ I'm just joking. She doesn't really have coronavirus. My point is people still get the cold hahaha

:)

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Defending a Coronavirus Joke About Reporting a Sneeze

Elizabeth ██████████████ I'm just joking! Omg why can't you just take a joke? I didn't report her to the police. I could've easily reported her for sneezing. Be grateful! :P

Watching The Walking Dead to Prepare for the Outbreak

I was watching The Walking Dead to practise for the times to come

Wishing for an American Bunker and an M16

Jesus Christ, I wish I was in the US, so I could've had a m16 and be holed away in a bunker -- away from the infected !!

Joking About What People Would Sing When I Die

Elizabeth ██████████████ thank goodness, phew -- you don't think I'm wicked anymore! Otherwise people would sing this when I die:

https://youtu.be/fplGR59YHHs

Mirtazapine, Distrust and Rethinking Sri Lankan Healthcare

Sat 1 Feb

12:30 a.m. Sat

I'm sleepy. I took frozen blueberries out of the freezer and ate them. They taste good. I'm going to sleep. It was a great day.

10:15 a.m. Sat

Woke up. Thought of████████████████I'm switching off my phone.

11:00 a.m.

I edited comments to sync and consolidate. I'm just going to relax.

11:15 a.m.

I wonder what's there for breakfast. I'm going to get something to eat.

12:00 p.m.

I'm watching 3%. It's interesting to learn about people's psychology. I watch TV to study people.

2:15 p.m.

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4:15 p.m.

I was watching MasterClass on Phil Ivy poker and also 4400 which I thought was terrible. I hated 3% as well. It was s***. I can't believe people watch s*** like that.

Hehehe I've always had fun. I wish I kept my phone off. I think these social theories on genetic IQ based on race aren't absolute. I think education and nurture plays a big role.

I'm sleepy as hell. I dunno. It feels like I've been drugged. I hope I haven't. I don't think so. I don't see how any drugs could've been introduced into my body. I had breakfast, lunch, coffee I made. I must be sleepy cause of the somnolence caused by Mirtazapine.

I think I've gotten a bit desensitized to money. I look at it from a big picture standpoint. The poker game Phil Ivy loses in the first or second episode, it was for $1.5mn or more. The work we're doing, paying for pen testing, it's also similar. I love my work and I love my business.

I don't believe I'll ever trust anybody. I just can't.. I believe in business and the transaction. I don't believe in people or relationships. I don't want any. I don't really have any friends -- the second somebody doesn't hold any value, I interpret it as loyalty and cut them off.

4:30 p.m.

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7:00 p.m.

I'm just relaxing. I'm tired today. I popped my Mirtazapine. I asked my mum to get some more for me. I had a hot shower. I'm going to watch David Rubenstein's show and try to learn something. I'm doing well.

I need to try deliver a sample pen test report to Dialog. I may print it, but it's 260 pages long. I don't know. I'll try share it on Drop Box Thulan Amarasinghe sends me via his IT Department.

I'm watching Marillyn Hewson, the CEO and Chairman of Lockheed Martin Corporation, on the The Economic Club of Washington DC with David Rubenstein. I love Dave and his work. I learn a lot. It's like I'm transported to a different, better realm.

7:15 p.m.

I think I can work with the doctors in Sri Lanka. I want my country to be better and do better. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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I love the Economic Club of Washington DC. I hope one day I can earn a place there and to also work with great business leaders to develop my own country Sri Lanka into a truly modern first world country.

8:15 p.m.

I'm watching Ola Källenius, the chairman of the board of management, Daimler AG and head of Mercedes-Benz Cars on The Economic Club of Washington DC with David Rubenstein. I'll go to Thilanga uncle's house for dinner soon. I'm on Mirtazapine, I'm getting sleepy.

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