Thu 19 Mar
8:45 a.m.
I'm feeling really sick because of my cold. I did some LinkedIn research on Commercial Bank. I'm trying to figure out what to do.
1:00 p.m.
I'm feeling sick today cause of my cold. I'm not doing much today. I feel sad today. I wrote an email to Harsha Wannigatunga CIO at Seylan Bank and our mutual friend Rhuani Rambukwelle. It shouldn't be this hard to do business.
██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ It looks like even if I had money, it doesn't really stop the problem. I'll just go pay for therapy or come up with new strategies to recover or something. It should work. I don't know.
1:30 p.m.
I think I already did everything I wanted to. ███████████████████████████████████████ Everyone can do things without me. Complex PTSD is the worst mental health problem there is. I'm always riddled with flashbacks. I always wanted to die. I knew there's no treatment or cure. I depend on Mirtazapine for survival. I just want the good karma and to die painlessly.
1:45 p.m.
Don't know why I'm feeling depressed today. It must be my cold. This is an annoying problem. █████████████████████████████████████ That's the only one thing I want. A painless death. Sigh. My nose is aching so badly. This is hell.
6:30 p.m.
My mum Shanika Edirisinghe said, "f*** you!" to me today. I'm so sad. She said f*** you because I asked her to give me my plate. She's a wicked woman. She made me tea later onwards. I'm feeling sick. She's a very wicked person so G-d punishes her and she has to suffer.
6:45 p.m.
She's also a very foolish woman. She made me milk tea with my Earl Grey tea, when you're supposed to make plain tea, which I like, especially with Earl Grey. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████. She's a product of St. Bridget's Convent.
I'm feeling really sick today. I'm going to just watch James Bond or something. ███████████████████████████████████ I think every guy must have a sex addiction or something. I think it's normal behaviour. I'm always coughing and my nose is messed up, I hate being sick. Thank G-d that it's not Covid19.
7:00 p.m.
███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I hope Anusha Loku Ammi, Sackouni Akki, Hashani Hettiarachchi Akki, Lal uncle, Deepa aunty, Sriyani aunty, all the employees I fired, all of them should ███████████████████████. ███████████████████████████████████████
(Saudi Arabia too, although they're my customers and so, I can't say that). Actually, even Iran is a customer. I did a project with Ken ████████████, but I still just don't like them.██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
I think I don't really want anyone to die. I'm confused. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████I think there can be a peaceful resolution. Nobody needs to kill others. Also, █████████ stole money, he didn't kill us.
7:15 p.m.
Deepa ███████████money from ETI Finance victims, ████████████████████████████████ My throat hurts and is scratchy like crazy. I don't really drink alcohol. So, I can't use that. I like James Bond. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ It's justice. I don't like it, it just needs to be done.
I like beef brisket, but I don't like killing cows. Somebody else has to do the dirty work for me. That's the only way Lehan Edirisinghe works. In the same way, of course, I want Iran taken back and given to the Zoroastrian people. This way I get peace. I get a developed country.
Jeez, I'm feeling really sick today. I hate this cold. My nose is so sore and aching. I like this music in James Bond. I used these Bond songs when first starting off Cyberspace Command. I love them. I always wanted to be a spy growing up. I'm so cool. I'm a spy. I even have Bob Bigman ready to join my team, I'm so f***ing cool.
I like the Saudis. The Etisalat deal was for 590 applications, the Saudi Telecom deal is also multi million dollars. I really like Muslims. I think that because of Islam, those people had a rule of law. In Sri Lanka, there seems to be no rule of law. It's a disgrace. I think I like Muslims because they want a rule of law just like me. I don't hate them.
I don't really hate Iran. I'm not supposed to sell our DNS monitoring solutions to Iran, but I think I can set up an office there one day. I like the skin complexion of those nice girls. Light brown like me! ██████████████████████. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ██████████████████████████████████████████████
Omg this cold is so bad. I keep coughing. I wonder why that pharmacist didn't give me any cough syrup. I asked her for it. I better take this antihistamine and just watch the first James Bond movie. I need my laptop to ██████ and watch No Time To Die if it's already out. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
7:30 p.m.
█████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I want Cyberspace Command to grow into a very successful cyber security business.
8:15 p.m.
You can sometimes hear Sean Connery's Scottish accent come through, such as when he says things to the professor he shoots or when he says there's no such thing as dragons. I love this first Bond movie. Dr No is one of my favourite movies.
9:30 p.m.
I'm so sleepy now. I really like Jesus Christ. It's good to have a personal G-d. I'm wondering how to talk to Dr Hans Wijayasuriya about covering the Axiata regional offices. I might use Thilanga uncle if possible. I'm hoping Softlogic Dell Repair shop is open tomorrow, I need my laptop to write emails.
My mum was nice to me. We ate dinner. I have to give my laundry for her to do. My nose is stuffed because of the cold. I hope I'll be better soon. I regret not buying Sir Stamford Raffles' book at the National Museum of Singapore, ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
9:45 p.m.
Sohli Captain and Ferhad Jamshed Nilgiriya or anybody else won't get a choice. ████████████████████████████. The decision to take Iran is already made. I don't care about what they have to say. I already decided we'll get Iran. It's important to try to come up with a solution they can support.
I much prefer Jews over Parsis for their tough as nails stance towards defence and preserving strategic interests -- similar to my own character. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████It's sad, but justice is justice. If you murder someone, it doesn't matter if the victim's family forgives, justice is death, and we'll get Iran back. Even if these Parsis███████████████████████, if there's no justice for them, there's no justice for us.
