I Kept Ron Follow-Ups, Habit Control, and Hiram Key Reading Tight

I gotta see this

Mon 13 Apr

1:00 p.m.

Spoke with Thulan Amarasinghe and messaged Ron. ████████████████████████████████████████ I'm reading Chris Knight's book The Hiram Key.

2:00 p.m.

I wish I could've finished the Easter Egg in Call of Duty Infinite Warfare Zombies in Spaceland. It's way too hard for me. I think it's because I don't train zombies, I just go to shoot the alien. Hmm

5:15 p.m.

█████████████████████████████████████████ I think cause I'm stuck at home, it's a drug of choice now. I'll just get rehabilitation later. █████████████████████████████████ It's all I ever think of. I have a serious problem.

████████████████████████████████████ I think complex PTSD is getting triggered. It's a pretty sad, serious problem. I'll just take it one day at a time. I don't know what the heck is wrong. It could be "catastrophization". The news is really disconcerting to me. I feel sad.

I played MGSV which has a lot of nasty flashback triggers because I remember a lot of stuff playing it. The game talks about a virus or some bug that has language strains -- then I remembered our Sinhala language only policy that caused a 30 year war with Tamils. It was a vocal cord parasite.

Which is really stupid. I had to manage people in the game. I remembered bad hiring mistakes and removing people. It was hard for me. I spent all my Weekly League points to hire S++ Rank specialist staff. I played a few games of side operations. I don't enjoy it. I don't like it. It was annoying.

Then it's the fact, Snake or Big Boss doesn't have a left arm. I remembered my brother Milan broke my elbow bone. I just had too many flashbacks. I think the whole game, it reminded me of my dad because it's theme is David Bowie's The Man Who Sold the World and it's something that reminds me I'm my dad.

Thilanga uncle messaged me some Buddhist stuff. I don't really want to look at it. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████

6:00 p.m.

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6:15 p.m.

I don't think I'm capable of trusting anybody. ██████████████████████████████████████ Especially, my mum, my brother, my family. ████████████████████████████████ ███████████████████████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████

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8:15 p.m.

Wow, I wrote some pretty angry stuff today. I don't know. Maybe it's just complicated PTSD. █████████████████████████████████████████████████ That was actually pretty funny. Oh good G-d.

Okay, so, today I sort of understood Seylan Bank will be a problem customer for me. Sumathi Information Technologies and Just In Time Group are having trouble there. Only Connex Information Technologies and I think South Asian Technologies are doing well there.

Sanjaya Padmaperuma, CEO South Asian Technologies is friendly with Harsha Wannigatunga because he was at Seylan Bank. I'm sure we'll be okay. I might need to try use Sohli Captain or Ferhad Nilgiriya to get at Sohli to push that customer.

Or more easily, I'll just use Sumathi Info Tech, they probably know the people in there. ██████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████ There's gotta be a rule of law.

None of the banks want to do a remote meeting. I called Thulan, the Dialog customer has a 40% surge in usage because people are using the internet at home. What else can people do, right? They're apparently struggling to meet demand. He's pushing a remote meeting.

All the other customers seem to be on good terms with me. I made a mistake writing down that the banks were our customers. They're our potential customers, but Harsha was upset about that. These guys are trying to give me a really hard time. I'm not surprised SIT and JITG are also struggling there.

8:45 p.m.

Actually, I don't know. I've got 39 customers to worry about. Seylan Bank is unlucky customer 13, but based on Harsha's perspective, they're not yet a customer. I'll just refer to them as a customer because that's what I see.

I looked at Sumathi Information Technologies website, they mention many customers but not Seylan Bank. It's strange. I should've checked that more carefully. It was an error. I never make mistakes.

I only make errors which I correct so that they don't become mistakes and I make "tough choices". Hehehehe hee hee I remember Jagath mami telling me he doesn't make mistakes lol. Okay, okay, Jesus Christ, I f*** up too. But it's only a honest f*** up and I learn.

I don't care. I think- I forgot. I forgot something. What was I going to say? I forgot. Oh right, I never make grammar or spelling mistakes. I only make auto correct typo mistakes. I never make grammar or spelling mistakes. I Google words for accuracy.

I gotta do something about Seylan Bank because they're a bank. The problem is they're going to try get South Asian Technologies to do my product vendors. It's always been like this.

They're like that. I have to be cautious. Indrajith Jayaratne is unreliable, can't trust him, won't even respond. It's always going to be this way here in Sri Lanka.

It's a very disturbing article. All this bad news is making everyone feel really sad.