Death Anxiety, Prince Lyrics, and Soulful Detours on Thursday

April 23, 2020

Death anxiety sat over the day while I thought about trauma, Prince, soulfulness, and my own mortality, moving between flashbacks, porn guilt, and the hope that music could make the private dread feel bearable.

Thu 23 Apr

6:15 a.m.

I woke up early. I was thinking out loud (softly) about predicted problems and solutions. I think it's very serious anxiety. I'm fearful. I thought about my death. ██████████████████████████████

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10:45 p.m.

11:00 p.m.

I went and apologized and gave my dog a piece of chicken as compensation. It was a small piece. I have thus bought Indulgences to escape dog purgatory. I may sleep soundly with a good conscience.

Thu 23 Apr

8:30 a.m.

Exhibit 5. Prince

Nothing compares 2 U

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Songwriters: Prince Rogers Nelson

Nothing Compares 2 U lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

https://youtu.be/1NarDEEhOsM

Can't believe Prince looked so skinny and ██████ so many hot girls like Madonna, Carmen Electra or others -- I have hope, I have money -- and I tell funny jokes!!

Prince was 5' 3" and 112 pounds -- which is like 50 kg. He was like 5 kg heavier than me and 6 inches shorter.

Thu 23 Apr

9:00 a.m.

Exhibit 6. Soulful

Stephen Labrooy asked me to go to their Dutch Burgher Union music event or something.

I claimed I don't sing because I don't have a singing voice (I'm just a bit extra shy).

And he told me it's not about the singing voice, it's about how soulfully you sing.

Nothing compares..

Nothing compares to that girl who blocked me he he hehe hic hic

hic hic hic hee hee hee

ha ha haha hahaha

HAHAHAHAHA

HEE HEE HAHAHA

HAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

*wicked laughter*

*and there was much rejoicing*

https://youtu.be/NAOKzvL8dgk

It's been years and maybe months

Since you took your love away

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I went to Doctor Friedman and guess what he told me?

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Trevor said you better read Melanie Fennell's book (1999)

I read it, but she's a fool

'Cause nothing compares

Nothing compares to you

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Overcoming-Low-Self-Esteem-2nd-behavioural/dp/1472119290

All the flowers that you planted ████

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Songwriters: Prince Rogers Nelson

Nothing Compares 2 U lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

P.S. "They" probably murdered Prince Rogers Nelson. It was very strange how he died in the way he did.

It must've been foul play.. a lot of people hated him for being a Christian. Prince defended his faith, antagonizing every important person in the industry.

There was no camera footage and no real eye witnesses around in his compound.

He also claimed in one of his songs that you shouldn't let the elevator bring you down. He meant that the elevator was the devil.

It's very, very strange -- he was most likely murdered.