I Posted Brisket Exhibits While Zoom Masonry and Sunday Friction Built

May 3, 2020 Lehan Edirisinghe

I spent the day on brisket videos, Bible reading, business messages, Zoom Masonry, and dark family resentment, with just enough structure to keep the Sunday from slipping apart.

Brisket, Beef Tallow and a Plan to Feed the Poor

Sun 3 May

10:00 a.m.

Exhibit 12. Mmmm brisket

1. Trimming fat https://youtu.be/23pCGVKKLQM

2. Central Texas style brisket https://youtu.be/qiFCFGESpWY

I got the idea in the early morning from G-d to help feed the poor bread and operate soup kitchens.

When I was watching this video of trimming brisket, I was thinking of making tallow with the beef hard fat and then using it to cook stuff or flavour bread or whatever.

I can get unsold produce or items nearing expiry from supermarkets to feed all the poor people.

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Private Habit Recovery, Christian Guilt and Trying Not to Imagine the Worst

Sun 3 May

10:15 a.m.

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12:30 p.m.

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1:00 p.m.

1:15 p.m.

If I do "bad things" G-d will punish me somehow. No sin goes unpunished. It seems we were built to sin and that any decision includes a serious penalty from G-d. Still, I mean, there's a way to purify and be more clean. I think if I confess as a Christian, I'll be forgiven for these things.

6:45 p.m.

I think I'll go to hell when I die. Jesus must've taken the spear jab to the side for someone like me. Hehe I dunno. I haven't done anything wicked. I haven't done anything so bad. I haven't done anything that bad. I never really did anything that bad.

7:30 p.m.

Got flashbacks. I had a chat with people.

9:15 p.m.

I had a good dinner. I love our pork sausages in Sri Lanka. I'm going to do some reading and then go to sleep. I wish I could open my bottle of port to have a night cap. Or to start drinking my whiskey as a night cap to slow down my system and put me to sleep.

But whiskey is way too strong for me. Even champagne, one of my favourites, is very strong. I had champagne at Uwin's wedding last, and it was a bit strong for me. I couldn't finish it. But I love the taste of champagne.

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I miss Sharma uncle. I highly doubt he murdered my dad on purpose. A few other people also died on the same exact spot. It was a death trap. Aitken Spence is in trouble. They're under pressure from coronavirus. I shouldn't imagine the worst things ever.