I Mixed Cigar Exhibits, Behaviour Warnings, and Saturday Business Grind

May 16, 2020

Cigar nostalgia, business work, rehab worry, and a tired porn spiral shaped the day, with all the old performance instincts still there even as I was clearly losing energy.

Sat 16 May

Exhibit 7. Cigars

Made famous by Tony Montana in my eye: "Push it to the limit!" There's something cool about cigars.

Koshi asked me to get some Davidoff cigarettes a long time ago, or something.

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I never really liked smoking cigarettes though. I was always so disciplined. I mean, I never really had a problem drinking. I think that's something special about me.

I remember I got a cigar for the first time and I didn't know I had to cut it or whatever. I didn't have a cigar cutter. So, I smoked it without cutting it. It was okay, but nothing so special. It wasn't a big deal. I didn't particularly like it.

It was just flavoured smoke in my mouth, I only ever thought about mouth cancer, so, I never enjoyed it. I thought of Sharma uncle's stained teeth.

I think I'm really disciplined, I don't think these things are a big deal. But I want to smoke a Cuban cigar. I appreciate the workmanship that goes into rolling and producing these.

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There was some other brand I forgot about.

I only smoked so many cigarettes in Singapore because everyone else was doing it while standing underneath the hot sun.

https://youtu.be/sIx9-59oVgI

Sat 16 May

11:00 a.m.

I'm working on business stuff.

11:15 p.m.

I'm praying I get to get proper help in rehabilitation with Dr Babette Rothschild and Dr Trevor Friedman. I need help.

11:30 p.m.

11:45 p.m.

I tried calling Imtiyaz ███████ and Afflli ██████, they didn't pick up. I spoke with Sanjeeva.

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